happy Dumpling Day

Thanks to my colleague, Ruth, I get to enjoy dumpling on Dumpling Day! (Alright , I know it should be  端午节 but i like the informal and incorrect version!) She has been sharing the dumplings - different varities from her mom's various friends for past couple of day.. :) (first time i ate a "kee" zhang - taste like the green triangular nonya keuy with the coconut shavings. :) - not as gross as i thought...)

Oh well, I know it's a sinful food... haha.. harmless for the time being until i sent the foodlog and i get to meet e. haha.. (which is like next Sat?)


buggie posing with the dumpling!

Happy BAk zhang day to ALL!

first case

extracted from the moh website.

Situational Update of Cases (as at 27 May, 1030 hrs)

Singapore has confirmed its first case of Influenza A (H1N1-2009). The patient is currently being treated at the Communicable Disease Centre at Tan Tock Seng Hospital (TTSH) and is in stable condition.

The patient is a 22 year-old Singaporean female who was in New York from May 14- 24. She arrived back in Singapore from New York on SQ25 on 26 May at 06.30hrs.

Passengers who had travelled in the same flight and were seated in rows 52 to 58 are urged to call the hotline at 1800- 333 9999 to enable us to check on their health condition.

more in the ST

Singapore, being a global country, it is just a matter of time when this will hit the shores.. Just pray that the impact won't as great/ devasting as the sars.

pointless...

Sometimes, it is pointless to give too much details. Some peeps just want you to give them the answer so in the event anything happen,  fingerpointing will be much easier.

brain over-worked..

Finally drafted the summarised summary that the client wanted (oh yeah, we labelled our biz units clients too cuz they engaged our services..) after the impromptu meeting this afternoon. And yes, that guy wanted us to come up with a shorter write-up so he could conveniently include in his board paper due for submission tomorrow. (i.e. die die we must reply him within 24 hours!) And yes, we have previously drafted a 4 page reply giving him 2 options highlighting the pros & cons.. but as consultants, we couldn't (and shouldn't) be the one making the decision. (oh yeah, must protect our bum too..)

Glad that there ain't any choir prac today... else.. will miss it nonetheless...

Oh yeah.. the aircon is off... I wanna go home now.. 

Unproductive Tuesday. Did not do any cases.. Sigh, just drafted two GST advices.. :(

Night at the Museum: Battle of the Smithsonian

Caught the show with imel last evening @ Tampines.. :)  yep, it is as entertaining as the first. It was a hilarious show..(don't think there's a Ben Stiller movie that I don't enjoy.) :)

I like the singing modern time cupid angels.. (they sing updated love songs!) and the head bobbling Einsteins,  and the loveable chimps.. the silly antics..

And yeah... it set me thinking as well.. dun think I love what I am doing... lalala..

The 15km

The 15km route - from the lagoon hawker center carpark (angsana green) to the macDonald area (1st turning point) then all the way to the country club area - think was the NRSCC golf course- then back to the angsana green.

 Nah, have never ran a 15km at one shot.. The furthest was 10km. (Standard Chartered Run 2008). And I didn't really train for this.. just ran a bit more than usual, which was like at most 10km a week.. haha!).

Slept for at most 5 hours. ( was watching a silly Taiwanese variety on the mio taiwan channel 71 - the programme involved getting viewers who volunteered to get "灵异"experience . so think the episode was at a hunated hotel.. apparently many killed themselves there...  and ya.. so they filmed their encounteres with the wandering spirits haunting the deserted hotels - ya.. u can see the ghostly shadows/ mist hovering ard them.. think the purpose was to experience how the departed felt just before their suicide (as in why they did that), how they died, and the feeling after.. Very crappy. And ya, dangerous lo.. cuz some of them passed out after the spirit possessed their bodies.. - Ya, total crap show but I was waiting for hair to dry, hence watching the crap stuff.. haha)


Reached the Angsana green ard 710 ( the cab uncle didn't know where the east coast lagoon hawker center is!? btw it's a mercedes cab ( thought will be of a higher calibre!) he wanted to bring me to Bedok market near changi camp?East coast Mac? then big Splash... then i told him to take the ecp and exit before the bedok exit. Then he mentioned that there was a running event at east coast that morning, place was very jammed. one of his earlier customer dropped off at mac cuz crowded. TO walk all the way from Mac to the hawker centre is like 3km?! Told him politely "Yea,  and I'm heading there and the starting point is at carpark E2 not Mac."

Haha...

Started the race at the first wave of my category (15km non-competitive). It was starting to get hot when we started running... It helped that I am familar with the east coast area (cuz I grew up there!) So see the visible landmarks like the Bayshore , Mandarin gardens, Marine Terrace to Marine Cresent.. haha.. Can literally countdown to the turning point. :)

Must be due to the hot weather, it seemed to me like eternity for the 1st km. happy to trun back.. And it doesn't  seemed like running from hawker centre to mac and back to to the hawker centre was only 6km?

Frankly, I thought I was NOT able to finish the run cuz at the 7km mark, my left foot hurt.. ( the old injury from prolong wear of high (i mean high) heel shoes/wedges.. and ya, running in them to chase after bus - cuz feet in prolonged tip-toe position.. think now the left side is kinda pissed with me... ).

Yet, I was determined to finish it no matter what.. so i pushed on and hehee.. grabbing a drink at almost every water point (which is like 12 out of 14 and ya, i walked for like 15- 30 seconds every time lo.. so i can rest  a bit ma.. and based on previous experience did not overdrink hence to prevent the bladder from getting too full - the portable tiolets are a huge no-no to visit! - it's GROSS!).. Was pretty happy to see the turning point which was like beyond the countryclub (and its like desert out there... no trees.. no shades... and boring..).

The sight of the Bayshore condo from afar was an encouraging sign to me, cuz that meant that the finishing point was approaching. But the irritating pain in my left foot was deterring me from going faster, attempted to walk but didn’t – afterall I was supposed to finish within 90 minutes. Oh well.. I didn’t. Sprinted for the last maybe 200 metres.. According to my nike sports band, I ran (and walked perhaps a couple of minutes) the 15km in 1hr 41min & 42 sec.

And.. haha.. I wasn’t that tired after the run. Just that I was very thirsty and hot. (Sun has risen and true to my “prayer” it was bright & sunny from Friday to Sunday!) I figured, the half marathon shouldn’t be that bad.  Didn't really take pictures though I saw throngs of people doing that.  (cUz (a) i was alone, trying to get either tristan or my colleagues.. but no response (b) cuz think my hair was messy ) so no pictures...

Think I'll put vaseline the next time i run long distance.. Abrasion marks on my arm - cuz of the armband I was wearing to put my phone. Think probably last time round, I carried the phone in my arm and i applied sunblock.. hence there's protection/ lubrication.

All in all.. happy that i finish that run.. lalala

Reality bites

Not referring to the movie.

Man, it's less than 2 day away from the run.. And i need salon-pas for my left ankle... Pray for divine healing.. (it ain't sprained.. just sore....) and...no need to desuade me from participating... haha..

And I think I've a knack for speaking into things....  and haha.. hence the sunny weather for the whole of today! (and tmw and sunday)

And I think my aunt is renewing her visa soon... so.. beware! *lalalalala*

I chose you, and not you chose Me.

On Tuesday nite, that was the one-liner He left with me. And oh yeah, was privileged to be at the combined meeting! :) to summarise = prayer, praise and worship in unity 24/7. That's the key!



TOnite, HE reiterated.  And yeah, long story... in short. cuz I need to rest.. lalala

Excited. The weekend is here.. and I get to clear my wardrobe (hopefully with some monetary rewards).. Praying for GREAT weather this Sat & Sun!!

DIY - Do it yourself Part II

Was supposed to do the gift/ cards last night. Drats, I was too tired after the PT. I fell asleep after dinner/TV.. and I set my alarm at 4am but i snoozed and it was dawn the next moment my eyelids fluttered!

Okie, at least I've selected the paper for the cards. (Great that I've stock of scrap-booking papers on hand.. and nice ribbons... and nick & nacks) I grabbed my box of ribbons/ a rim of double-sided tape - and stuffed into my bag.

Gee, I think I thrive on last minute creations.. Lunch was spent rushing to PageOne to get the sticker thingy and oso to the artfrenzy one floor above to get the paper for envelope (cuz I forgot the envelope paper..) and rushing back to complete everything...

My latest creation - physical stuff not with me anymore..

The Enveloping Process

Left - the (original ) voucher envelope I ripped open to get a template.

Center - the envelope is evolving.

Right - the finished product!

The Envelope for the vouchers! (cuz the voucher envelope is plain...)

frOnt

bAck (so sweet right ?)

Janice's card

 

the frOnt - I love the paper & the blinkblink black sequins "ribbon" from PRINTS

 

inSide

 

bAck ~ where you will find my signature Logo!

 

COMPLETED! Janice's gift & card!!

Bee Ling's card

 

frOnt~ I like the blink I used to form the flower!

 

inSide

 

bAck - where i will signed off! 

Man.. I so heart my ONE of a kind creation!! :) Sowing & Reaping applies to this too?? :)

DIY - If you have only one head, you can only wear a hat at a time!

Do it yourself, can? Don't assume the rest of the world is freeer than you just because you are (for once) quite busy.

If I'm given a task, I will not sub-con it out unless I am really incapable to do that. If you can't  really do it, don't accept. If you have only one head, don't accept too many hats! If you have only one head, you can only wear a hat at a time!

Having said that... Oh well, I would love to help, but I have also things to do and at the same time multi-tasking.. (sans msn-ing at times.. to keep myself sane....). Hmm.. I am only human too.. and i've learnt to say no. 

Facebook

I admit.. it is a time-waster... it hogs your time.. the gaming applications are addictive!! And yes, the tagging mechanism of pictures let the whole world (oh yes, even people that you don't know get to see a glimpse of you!!)

e commented last evening during training, it seems that you get a lot of tagging on Facebook (eh? a lot? I don't think so, compared to the other peeps - especially the choir gals.. ) And I seriously don't have the habit of posting pictures on Facebook - uhm cuz once your pictures are posted up on the Net, oh well, it may still exist in some back-end server even you have deleted it away..

Nah, I did not post the link to my blog on my facebook page. Oh yes, since it's a public blog ( wordpress gives me the flexibilty of password protect.. but I can't appreciate the simple interface still - so currently using it as a backup/ online outlet to contain personal verbal diarrhea), so it doesn't really matter right? But judging from the list of "friends" in the facebook list whereby some are not really "friends" - i think I don't even know who they are, just that they are common friends within the zone/ choir (but, that was in the past, right now, I don't just accept lo.. in fact , I rejected the unknown peeps.. -eh, and these don't even use their own pix! How would I know if these are dubious characters? and just a friend request with nothing mentioned.. ) On the silly thought that since I have the nuffnang ad thingy.. I should just list it out right? haha..  (not that I will earn much, cuz i don't think there are like tons of people reading this daily... lalala .. and this ain't gonna be my main source of revenue...  though I won't mind... )

Okie.. enough of yakking... i need to utilise my brain to "smoke" out some advices... Frankly, I dislike working in the corporate cuz I don't like bending the rules... when you evidently know that it may be the most correct thing to do.. Not being a fuzzy wazzy or self-righteous.. but it's the grey thin line thingy again....

the thin grey line

Nope, ain't attempting to do anything that contravene the laws. Yet, half truths = not the truth.

Grey areas = loopholes for you to explore.

Question :: Will you market the noodles braised in beef broth as a vegetarian dish?
Possible replies from 2 diverse different schools of thoughts:
A :: Oh well, there isn't any meat in the dish, so yes, it is vegetarian. The customer won't know unless we tell him. What's the big deal?

B :: Oh, that is so unethical, what if the customer is allegeric to meat produce?


Alright, I'm not in the F&B business, just repackaging what i encountered yesterday in this example.. (oh well, protection.. protection..)

Being on the side of the fence of the rules enforcer, I certainly would think in the likes of B. However, currently on the side of fence in the real (operational) world, the one who ultimately endorse on the dotted line advocated A.

Oh yes, it is a grey area issue, and it's certainly not against the law. Just a matter of "more aggressive stand" vs "less aggressive stand". I think I belong to the latter.. ( Live and let live). Am i in the wrong line/ industry? Should i go back? Nah, i dislike redtapes. Have i been brain-washed into the rationale of the the enforcer role that funds collected are for the good of the nation? MAn.. I sound like I'm from some communist state.. the 人人为我, 我为人人.

What can the cook do? Cook what the boss want. Else, get another job. Actually, at the end of the day, the ultimate big boss is the same. Be it I'm on the left or right side of the fence. That's the interesting thing of working in a local mnc. If you don't get the idea, haha.. never mind.

Darned....

I thought the order was for apples. So I packed the apples. Nope, the overseer said its oranges, why did you pack apples? Alright, since you eat salt more than I eat rice (the literal translation of the chinese saying), you win. I pack oranges.

Result :: GM's secretary said I wanted apples, why did you pack oranges? Gave me a mini-run through of the whole procedure of the SOP. (standard operating procedures)

Peeved. Totally. Like its my fault to begin with. Darned peeved.

Surprise Interview!

Instead of lingering behind after service ended today, we should have left directly. Cuz my cg were located at the row directly behind the sound consol area, and the camera team from Rev Dr Kim's church decided to interview some of the lingering souls.. Imel was targeted.. so we thought it would be just her and *phew* we've escaped the opportunity to be on TV.. and we were just commenting she's just the right person to be interviewed... (she is chatty by nature..)

Then to our surprise, the cameraman turned and decided to "hunt" for his next target... alas.. he focus his attention on yours truly.. T_T" Faint..  cannot hide.


Okie, I didn't have my caffeine fixture today and yes, I relied on Fisherman's Friend to stay alert. Thanks to Josh, I get to sit @ the first row.. T_T". Thank goodness my mind is functioning and I blabbered something intelligent I hope.. (Question asked was what impacted us the most from the sermon that Dr Kim shared earlier...) And afterwhich, he targeted a couple of others... T_T"

I just hope I don't sound too bimbo. lalala

Open wide your mouth

no, not to speak; neither is it to eat; or is it a reaction to some shocking news.. (direct chinese tranlsation is kinda akward to be the title of a message too.. 张大你的嘴）

Okie.. reference is Ps 81:10 (NIV)

I am the LORD your God, who brought you up out of Egypt.
Open wide your mouth and I will fill it.

Simple messge.. yet impactful. I like.

Yet I open my mouth today and confess some crappy stuff I've ate - (and not to mention the numerous facebook tags on the May Day Sop outing in which we are taking munchies on Idy's birthday cake. - I only take ONE swipe at it. Unfortunately, more than one person was taking pix and my dear trainer thought that I'd more than ONE serving.. and ya, kept yakking abt my "pigging out" and the getting from bad to worse foodlog.. haha.. ) I thought he saw me in tcc with imel on fri.. haha.. so.. i confess on the tiramisu too.. hehe.. fortunately for me (unfortunately for him), he was kinda immobile today  [ cuz of his mini-op which i think i nottily poked hard a bit at..(literally)] so haha.. i still have my limbs.. but my big mouth told him that i'm running that passion run next sun ( cuz i wanna  rest on sat) and like every consentitious trainer, he set me a target that is attainable but need some pushing out of the comfort zone.. complete within 90min.. Me and my big mouth.

Actually, I can choose not to care.. but somehow, i think I like the challenge.. oh yes, this aspect, I am competitive.. :) I like to be challenged.. and win it.. so in spite of how unwillingly I was to do my cardio after training today.. (i wanna grab a bite before choir.. but cuz i ran, i didn't) i did.. and haha.. complete the 5km within his stipulated 30 min .. (after speeding up in the last 1 km.. haha.. ) okie.. but haha.. i am still alright after that and have the energy to serve with the 10 peanuts contributed by sheena ( thank U babe!). tHink i should be alive still after the 15 km next sun. :) Was tempted to sign up the army half marathon thingy.. hehe.. liying has signed up for both shape run and the half marathon too.. tempted me to do so.. hha.. shall see how.. lalala

okie.. i'm gonna open wide my mouth to receive. :)
and close my mouth shut while sleeping.. good morning.. it's gonna be 2 am

Q&A

Question : Would you tell mere acquaintances of events in your life that you aren't close to?
Answer : Typical person won't.

Question: Will you voice out your inner thoughts when you know the answer might change status quo of the current relationship?
Answer: I won't.

Sigh.. I hate it when there are things to be said, yet after counting the cost, I didn't. Oh yeah, hold the horses right and wait... But on the other hand, is that what I really want?

Sigh.

I wish wed nite will happen.. lalala. Oh yeah.. i love the song that's on class 95 now.. Lauyrn Hill's Can't take my eyes off you. oh man.. gee... time to sleep.. need to be in expo in less than 7 hours time..

Happy thoughts...

Okie.. the previous post was emo, as that which were triggered by conversations earlier today.. okie, yesterday..

Anyway, I foresee a great fornight ahead.

1. I am collecting the race pack later for the 15km run, and preparing for the run in 7 days time.
2. Resume my PT after a week rest.
3. Going to east coast next weekend! (and hopefully get rid of sellable good taste stuff)
4. Heading to JB for kel's wedding (and missing the first lesson of the SOngs of Solomon), likely staying overnight. :)
5. Possiblity of the bcp drill happening - working from home for a day!

And yes.. gonna be the bridesmaid for my friend's church wedding next month.. (and to come up with the ang pow box & the guest book..)

Wonder should I sign up for the army half marathon in August. May 31st will be the last day for the disc. (cUz i was a past participant, so entitled to disc.. the organiser even called me up to remind me that the discount period will be ending this mth. Aggresive rite? ) but.. will be doing the Shape run in july wo.. Let me see how I survive next sunday first. :)

I think I'm kinda pyscho. Mantra to last till next sunday.. I love pain. No pain no gain. Perserve!!

iSay...

I realised ... there is no guarantee in "forever" for things which are man-made.  Events/ things along the way do make me scoff at the term "bff". Forever? I should say the state of "forever" in that phase in life.

Things change along the way, perhaps the perceptions toward certain issues, the encounters shared, the priorties in life.  Or simply, the exclusion of involvement will inevitably lead to the detoriation of state of relationship. Or.. face it, it is 50-50 possibility - either you grow apart or grow closer.

Recently, while I was packing my stuff, I came across this picture... There were four of us in it.. (taken years ago.. think was the first emerge.) I realised, the relationship between me and the other three persons in the picture has evolved over the years and from strangers to friends to close friends to either just friends/or even strangers.

Nope, I've grown pass the stage of "bitterness" on the strain. I guessed, the unexplained circumstances, the things left unsaid, unexplained led to the strain..  Though, at one point in time, I thought the term "bff" will somehow apply, there was time whereby misunderstanding occured and it was sorta cleared up but somehow this time round.. it's really ruined.

I like the turkey way of reacting to situations that are threatening.. I won't deny that fact that I was disillusioned by the reality of matters, how things turn out. I can't stimulate emotions that my sensory nerves fail to respond to when detected your presence...  So far, the turkey response works, but when all of the above (maybe 50%) come together... as far as the brain is concerned, take cover.  Guess all this boiled down to historial events that are ironed out.

I know I can't play hide & seek indefinitely... Not too sure if eventually come the day that the past nooks and twists gotta be straightened face to face. All I can say, (alright, different things to different parties), appreciate the comaraderie during that moment in time, the fond moments we shared. Pleasant memories I wish to keep, the not so pleasant to be erased.

Nope, not that I'll that disillusioned with the human race and become a hermit. Just the contrary, it's not possible to live like a hermit. Just glad that at every phase of life, I've friends (true ones) that bring me back to reality, who are patient with the mule streak in me, I've leaders that believed in me, and friends that have always been there. And new/old friends that I've grown to know better...

thanks to peeps who have been listening to my 牢骚s recently - like imel (i enjoy the chats!!), asteric (who keeps me entertained during my dayJob while destressing by crappin/talking sense), and the invisible audience reading this blog..

time to get my Manasseh.

shhh....Quota exceeded....

oh well, this was my msn nick in the morning... due to the over-utilisation of the word quota last evening.. oh cg was a combined cg (with the other 2 cgs) and... its PURE talk.. and food ( didn't really eat much... haha.. not the carbo loading week.. keep it to next week...!) and frankly, I have a rather "AS" mentality when i was about to reach - cuz -

Anyway, I managed to keep away from a "wick-trimmer" until I stepped out of the condo.. cuz yeah, talking to her will literally test your patience... And @ the end of the day, your nerves might not be working that well... and oh well.. I almost wanted to treat her to a fish & duck feast.  But i didn't...

And, I am still transparent towards... or rather.. avoided totally... (think estelle knows what I'm referring to..)

Excited.. going to rummage thru' my throngs of clothes for the carboot sale that my fellow"mouse-hunters" have jio-ed me.. haha.. if I've the strength after that 15 km next sun. (Shouldn't have big-mouthly tell e that I wanna rest next sat before the run and no need to set target.. ahha.. (but dun think he'll be a terror and expect me to finish like within an hour..  but then again.. I've every excuse to eat what i want next week right..  lala.. )

gonna meet Imel.. Thank goodness the huge lumps that resembles hives have subsided by now.. Not too sure how I've got them but they emerged after my lunch from chinatown.. maybe it's dust allergy?

Sweet potato vs Potato

"Kantang" (translate: potato) - the Singapore lingo to describe a person of chinese race that embraced the western culture predominantly...  So I was commenting to my colleague yesterday that I saw this guy wearing this tee that says " I <3 HC" . (HC being the initials I go by @ work..) so told her yay.. i got fan-club.. she was like T_T". then I realised HC doesn't stand for my name (obviously) but my alma mater.. T_T".  her comment = you 're  from HC? but you are not very "han tze".

Puzzled.. Han tze? Oh yeah.. I get the idea, westerned = potato; conversely, cheena = sweet potato.

Frankly, I don't really think my jc is that "han tze" though.. despite the fact that more than 50% of the cohort usually comes from the school next door.. the tchs kaki-shorts.. and we have our school song in chinese language.. Oh well, it does not affect me that much... afterall, I'm pretty "cheena" by nature, being brought up to speak solely mandarin with some broken Cantonese (and I'm not full-fledged cantonese.. supposedly to be hakka - think was on my birth cert ? do they have that in ic?).. and i only learn to converse in english in primary school.. cuz haha.. my class is the class with the sole 10+ of non Chineses deposited in my class.. (cuz my class is one of the three class that were different of different session while the remaining cohorts - to facilate us to be in the same session as our siblings.. - oh yeah, that time, dual sessions were still applicable for primary schools..).. nah, not that my primary school is racist and only admit chinese .. I guessed cuz maybe it was a hokkien huey guan school.. and slightly atas.. so.. haha.. (to me, I think my parents chose that school cuz it's just across the road - not because it's an elite school- thought think it is now... think my bro was fortunate enuff to get the ballot and hence a slot in the sch- cuz haha he was born in as the influx year - the year of Dragon).. So I get to enjoy that direct access.. :) and (my children will ba.. if I pay to join the alumnus .. then kid can study there... ) oh yeah, I still speak a lot of Mandarin compared to English.. ahha (and not surprisingly.. the english subject is the only subject that I didn't score a star for.. oh well.. tsktsk.. spoilt my cert... )

And due to some twist of events (cuz in the inital school selection, I anyhow chose SCGS for my sec sch when I wanted to get in TKGS but I thought my grades should not get me into SCGS (but I like the blue uniform and it's in town area?) and never considered any of the SAP schools.. haha.. oh yes, cuz my bro was in the cheena ulu cchs then (ulu cuz u walk all the way in and flooding occured during rainy days.. )and the scary HUGE deep lake.. and the all white semi-transparent uniform, I anyhow completed my sch choice.. nah, never aspired to be rafflesian.. haha.. anyway, didn't make it thru the second round of the "screaming test" in P5 so haha dun want to be in the non-gifted class in the gifted schools.. (And I flunked the "screaming test" in P6 again.. cUz like b'cos of my sucky english... also not sure why i get to go for the "screaming test again" after the release of the psle results.. haha..).  Got my results and realised that the silly first choice i made is an independent school (ie. expensive fees... ) and yep, I be there unless I resubmit my choice of schools.. bo biah, so i chose the nearest sap sch (not knowing that it was a highly-ranked sch....)

Oh yeah, my parents pretty much left it to me to make the school choices.. and course choices.. (even in the the transition from lower sec to upper sec... I almost chose c.lit instead of history (cuz i wanna take biology and I dun think it's viable for my peabrain to take 2 humanities  and 3 sciences --ahha) - cUz the books were thin.. haha.. (later, i realised, it was thin cuz every word (almost) is testable.. ) Same for my JC.. okie, I chose the far far away school cuz I could travel and see the other side of the island... (lame right?) and get to meet a whole set of peeps.. (cuz think most of my schoolmates either flocked to tj or vj.. & both schs are like darned close to home... - i appreciate the proximity only when school starts and reality sets in.. I need to wake up darn early to get to school on time without being late... )but i like HC.. (not because it's my inital la..)

I think I've a weird way in decision making in the past.. in someway, bimbotic.. but if not because of that, I would not be where I am.. or won't be in chc (or maybe will still be, prolly in a different zone?)

But thank goodness for my erratic way of decision-making.. I am where I am now.. (cuz I was sick of choir (oh yeah, funny that now I serve in choir ministry..) so i joined a drastically different cca - vnr..(translate: sea scouts).. which is good, cuz I got to know ming... else..

the only SILLY decision I kinda frown upon - placing the accountancy as 1st choice of course for uni. and I get to live with that.. :( Sigh... hopefully path will change (sooon)


super digress.. anyway.. back to the kantang vs han tze issue.. think I'm mixture of both.. :) but speech-wise i admit.. more of the sweet tuber.. haha... as u can see... I can blog in chinese too.. (see the earlier post) and yeap, posted the handwritten post CUZ I thought it's cool that I could still write in chinese.. :) and rather neatly too... lalalalalla

真实与虚幻

Daunting 15 km..

Sigh, shouldn't have been THAT gungho and signed up for two long runs.. without much training.. (except for the 5-7 km twice a week (thrice if I'm extra-fired-up)

1. the 15km (non-competitive) leg of the passion run (which is like happening in two weeks time..) and the most i ran was 10km?
   
2. the 10km SHAPE run in mid July

I looked @ the map of the 15km route.. nearly fainted... it takes the car travelling at the expressway speed limit 10+ minutes to complete .. so it's not a short distance.. (okie, it doesn't take a genius to figure that out.. and I'm ultra lame in the middle of the nite..)

I will run at least 10km later today or.. sunday morning..

Vain reward of the runs (and the grueling foodlog I gotta jot down and send.) - ill-fitting clothes of the past, size of hips overcome the purpose of waistbands of the stiffest material such as unstretchable denim- so that you an excuse to get that blinkblink belt., and wearing shorts in the scorching weather without much bulge.. :) and VALID excuse to overhaul the wardrobe.. (oh yeah, sounding like the perfect bimbotic shopaholic.. )

With that said, I got a phone call from the safra run hotline asking if I'll be entering the run this year.. reply not too sure and asked if which category if I'm interested in.. same reply - not sure. Eh.. I think I need a rest before embarking on that year end 1st half marathon rite?

Note: I'm not really a running fanatic.. and nope, started running not because of entering the races or what.. (hello, me not competitive runner..) but feels good after the run (especially if you are running on the road and not the treadmill) and felt real thankful that God has given me able limbs to take me to places without mechanical aids ... Oh well.. I guessed the subtle addiction to running stemmed from walking home from the train station .. and i even walked home from sch under the scorching hot sun for the fun of it..  (while i was still staying in marine parade and dhs was still in dunman road) - okie, on hind sight, it was not that far... oh i missed those days ... digress..

Gosh.. it's 10 minutes to 5am... snooze time!

When I grow up

haha.. not the pussycat doll's song.. (Funny why I kept using song titles as my post titles..) haha..

I wish I could remain as a child, living in the lala land when everything is pink and sweet and everyone will find their prince charming/ snow white (is the that female equivalent of "prince charming"? - whatever, I'm not into snow white..) and live happily ever after.. No need to fret about thing such as what the brain will say pinky in every episode of the cartoon...

Pinky: "Gee Brain, what do you want to do tonight?"

The Brain: "The same thing we do every night, Pinky—try to take over the world."

Hmmm okie, I know I'm not destined to take over the world.. (hello, last I checked, my last name ain't stalin nor hitler) but rather..we are destined to impact the world.. (not in terms of gravitational force leaving permanent damage on the ground..) Oh yeah, just an ordinary person wanting to do something extraordinary.. (not a cliche..but i guessed, everyone does wanna make a difference in one way or another right?)

Okie, I am into the parable-writing mode once again, but once again, am given this chance to redeem what I've failed to do the other time round.. (oh yeah, all sparked off from the meeting last sat after service..) BUT the inertia of the flesh is so hard to overcome..  Gosh, I feel like as if I'm re-taking the "da-bao" module that I'd failed horribly (probably a big fat F - not even a E grade (the useless marginal fail grade that allows you to take a higher module but you still have to resit for the paper..till you cleared it..).  And I don't wanna resit this paper again..

God, give me the strength and tenacity and faith to clear this stage. Oh yes, the environment is not exactly the ideal environment that  i envisioned ( like what i told estelle that nite after our long long chat @ her voiddeck after combined cg meeting and .. i walked all the way home (half asleep) and witness a cat hunting/chasing a mouse..yay!! way to go, kitty!..).. seriously, I've never dreamt asking to be out until that.. which I reckon if I'd not make the decision to break away from.. I would be gone.. still in this world.. and really in this world.. 

Still growing.. among the thorns.. hopefully wandering out soon...

When I grow up.. I will do what I had listed what I wanted to do (at the sidebar of the blog)..  as such, it's time for streamlining...

Crash.. boom... bang..

Not talking about the roxette song... ear-witness a multi-vehicle accident happening..

Heard a HUGE/ defeaning crash at approximately 1am while watching a DVD.. heard the varoom sound followed by screeching then a very loud thud.. and then another thud.. Heart was pulsating a bit faster when that happened.. I wondered if it was a fatal accident.and if my parents will be waken up by the huge impact.. (Nah, I was @ the 10th floor so.. it gotta be real bad if I can hear it).. Curiousity got me take the keys and open the gates.. Gosh, saw two cars in the middle of the yellow box junction outside ehub think one crashed into the other's side.... badly dented.. think the ground looked wet..(not too sure petrol/ or what..cuz I'm soo far away!) and a cab a couple of meters away... and i think another car near the divider.. woo.. bad accident..

Case of drink driving/ speeding (definitely.. cuz I could hear the voooooooooom)? Sigh, irresponsible road users.. even if you are just minding your business, driving safely on the road, you can't prevent others from ramming into your car.. ONE main reason why I still do not have my license yet (cuz I have YET sign up for the basic theory - which I reckon if I wanna get that.. I'll surely get that.. at least theory papers will be cleared one shot.. haha.. - i'm an experience mugger.. see I cleared those 3 insurance paper all at one shot within a month! T_T" oh yeah, dun ask me what I'd studied though.. I've all returned back to the academy.. )

volley... volley.... Sentosa...

used to like playing volleyball when I was in dhs. (Not that I was that good at it.. - speaking of which, I used to possess one - the normal one.. not the softie beach kind.. but haiz.. now missing.. maybe it's in the rubbish dump now? maybe should get another one.. ) used to stay back after sch @ times to play in the big big basketball court.. (ya, I missed the old dhs compound which is now (sadly) tks, cuz we have such HUGE compound.. cuz it was the combination of our own compound & old dunman sec. yeah, though it's kinda dilapidated.. i prefer the old compound.. )

Anyway, haven't played volleyball since like many eons ago..(oh man, one of those time I went to sentosa 4-5 years ago..  with a diffferent group of peeps) I was rather surprised that I could play rather alright still (at least, I could still dig/pass rather alright.. and with the nice smack sound.. haha.. my new mantra ~ I like pain! Not that it's that painful!! ) Not that it's that painful.. though I remembered the blueblack marks and my scrapped kneecap.. haha.. :) Kinda fun playing with Tabitha (she's good at it.!)

oh yeah, I did make it to Sentosa today inspite of my month condition. Only thing I failed to do - play in water... for obvious reason. Think I was still in lala land when Jimmy called me @ 815 asking me to assist her with the food.. I was wondering why jieyin called me early in the morning asking if I was awake.. i thought I'd missed call time for expo s3.. (t_t")


Never expect to be reacquainted with volleyball.. haha maybe cuz now am more active... I find it so much easier to play (with a whole lot more stamina). Yep, I feel younger now than I was 10 years ago - haha.. Not bad at all..  even my company doc was surprised at my (real) age when I revealed to her when i visited her for my "abyss" (which is now yeah.. healing VERY well! ). Cuz she thought  I looked so young..

Anyway, had a great time today... Enjoyed the company (okie.. most of the time), the sand, the sun, and the slight tan, the volleyball, cute dudes for viewing pleasure. If only everyday is a beach day..

No pictures.. probably people will start posting up in facebook soon.. but all in all.. it's a good day out! (And did not consume much of junk today!) Volleyball anyone? :)

In glee...

Left the office today with my HEAVY laptop (hello.. it's 2+kg and it's gonna be a rountine till this piggy flu is under control - ie yellow alert or lower..).. went back office after dinner @seah imm with jadyn enjoying my favourite sliced fish soup with thick bee hoon (cuz I repented to crappy food consumption after reading this..and i left a comment.. oh yeah.. that's "e" looking kinda.. friendly.. lalala - he ain't gonna read this so it's alright..and given the green light to publicize! )

Cellgroup was as usual different -cuz my cgl was away in India and steven took us. Stelle was sweet - she sent me a text to let me know my worst fears would not materialise.. ..*hugs* we go aussie after ur exam k?

Like the serene presence.. I am so thankful that I'm not deaf to His Voice.. cuz a gal (let her identity remains as a gal) asked if I did hear God speaking to me during the "self-reading" time. Eh, always, just that whether you want to hear or not.

Felt blessed to have wonderful cgls like charlene & steven... who have faith in moi when I dun....  Mustard seed faith needs to be stretched........ *hungry now.. nope.. it's 1:32..  not time to eat lo...*

In glee cuz spotted e in the train cabin fiddling with his phone after the tampines gals went off.  Pokeypoke him to catch his attention. lalala.. :) stelle said  e resembles her younger bro. texted him.. he was:) with the cmmentw. great way to wrapped out the day.. - God knows.. :) didn't wanted to go sentosa till e asked me abt it.. :) i miss..