I wondered how i made it home.. My eyes were wide SHUT by 1130Pm... insensitive generic remarks sound threatening and generally irritable... Ecentric behavior kills.. somehow... after alighting from bus 53 @ (thanks eugene for "waking" me up.. wasn't really sleeping...) i walked home - two busstOPs.. cuz it was faster than waiting for bus 12 & 21.. (and there might not be any also..) in a speed that surprised me.. in abt 5min.. i was at my block... save and sound and... no calf ache.. I should consider walkaton haha...
Vanity.. vanity... Pompus words are empty talk... I dislike FLY.. (the lookalike.. r8ch will understand this ..) cuz.. irritable just pop up via form of msn..
urgh..
earlier this evening, i felt vindicated... see earlier post .. enuff said..
irritable fly apart... it was a great sat...
I will miss june8/9 sotm.. sad... its the mktplc portion... will not be ard... yet the "rest" won't know.. guess i just let boss and boss to be know (which i did earlier during "dinner/supper")... Or they would want to be in my shoes? cuz of the free hol..
He reprimands...cuz He loves... what HE says, I accept..
My superior, W, who hired me, said this to me earlier this week .. "believe in yourself".. Even though I did not conveyed to him my frustration... I felt rather encouraged & almost teared when he said that.. Well.. it's time to depart from that place (both who hired me has/going to leave.. and the Ms E rather particular abt her staff.. she treasured ex-big4-auditors...cuZ she was too formerly from big-4.. prior to her "semi-retirement" to this place...
Happy to learn that melodie will be relocating to harbourfront.. :)
will have cab-buddy for church events!
God. help me to love the fly like how i should treasure your creation... even as an "insect"...
Sunday 27 May 2007
entitlement...
without investment, would you have the right to vote/speak @ the agm?
No.. you will in fact not be allowed into the meeting CUZ you have no vested interest in the company... why, cuz you didn't inject capital.. unless you are the appointed proxy... (but not in case illustrated below...)
in context of human relationship...
if you have never shower any care/love/concern (other than lame jokes and sharing your dreams/views...) do you have the right to inflict your frame of thoughts to others and expect that to take roots.. OR do you expect him/her to take in what your are saying...
hmm.. unlikely...
you earn the right to speak into their lives AFTER you have sowed.. else how would you earn the respect? Man, being man don't like to be talked down..
when all fails, apply the sandwich principle.. do apply it.. how else would you get the not so positive point across to one you are not that close to... The result is usually - door slammed into your face... even though the recipient is paying you lip service... para-phasing your response in a non-accusing manner help...
before you speak.. pls discern..
those who have ears, let them hear...
No.. you will in fact not be allowed into the meeting CUZ you have no vested interest in the company... why, cuz you didn't inject capital.. unless you are the appointed proxy... (but not in case illustrated below...)
in context of human relationship...
if you have never shower any care/love/concern (other than lame jokes and sharing your dreams/views...) do you have the right to inflict your frame of thoughts to others and expect that to take roots.. OR do you expect him/her to take in what your are saying...
hmm.. unlikely...
you earn the right to speak into their lives AFTER you have sowed.. else how would you earn the respect? Man, being man don't like to be talked down..
when all fails, apply the sandwich principle.. do apply it.. how else would you get the not so positive point across to one you are not that close to... The result is usually - door slammed into your face... even though the recipient is paying you lip service... para-phasing your response in a non-accusing manner help...
before you speak.. pls discern..
those who have ears, let them hear...
Saturday 26 May 2007
illusion? disillusion?
Thursday evening... received a text message from miss x. miss x was feeling under the weather.. said that her mum forced her to see the doc. [being of an adult age in the eyes of law... do you still need your mom to "force" you to the doc? OR if you have always seen by your mom as one who is able to take care of yourself.. your mom won't have to "force" you right?]
by the rule of reasonableness- basis that she went out with friends for a night of celebration, one will not think that miss X would have fallen sick to extent of illness so serious that rendered home stay... hence, felt led to challenge her to move in step of faith INSTEAD of the usual "oh, you are sick ah, take care and rest well ok?" [basis two: miss X is ard LONGER than princess here okie? and "sayang-ing" all the time won't help at all...]
Well.. Guess what? miss x was upset that princess didn't adminster the usual pain reliever, but gave her a jab instead.. miss x assumed that princess has no experience of objections and have 100% go-ahead to do what she wants... * my oh my... guess she would like to have a taste of WW3 @ wild wild east?* cuz she said princess won't understand the noise level she had to put up with cuz of her belief.. *eh... actually she ain't even doing much... and not the extra mile ... but just doing what she oughta do...* and she had a bad sore throat and coughing.. Hello.. i LOST my VOICE leh.. and still continue ON... aiyo... as the chinese saying goes 小屋见大屋. tsk! tsk!
did the encouragement part but no reply... sigh.. can't help her fight her battle right? and no.. i won't join her pity party...
by the rule of reasonableness- basis that she went out with friends for a night of celebration, one will not think that miss X would have fallen sick to extent of illness so serious that rendered home stay... hence, felt led to challenge her to move in step of faith INSTEAD of the usual "oh, you are sick ah, take care and rest well ok?" [basis two: miss X is ard LONGER than princess here okie? and "sayang-ing" all the time won't help at all...]
Well.. Guess what? miss x was upset that princess didn't adminster the usual pain reliever, but gave her a jab instead.. miss x assumed that princess has no experience of objections and have 100% go-ahead to do what she wants... * my oh my... guess she would like to have a taste of WW3 @ wild wild east?* cuz she said princess won't understand the noise level she had to put up with cuz of her belief.. *eh... actually she ain't even doing much... and not the extra mile ... but just doing what she oughta do...* and she had a bad sore throat and coughing.. Hello.. i LOST my VOICE leh.. and still continue ON... aiyo... as the chinese saying goes 小屋见大屋. tsk! tsk!
did the encouragement part but no reply... sigh.. can't help her fight her battle right? and no.. i won't join her pity party...
Tuesday 22 May 2007
inside out..
when a shirt is turned inside out, the seams are exposed.. any coverup will too be revealed.. in short, nothing is hidden...
there is dkny tee that i bought a couple (okie.. more than that..) years back that is reversed-tailored.. ie, the seams are exposed on the exterior... it's a bold piece. cuz the inner is now the outer...
hmm after attend the sotm for past 3 weeks (by default since the start, i attend every different svc if different.. haha like sot student rite? keke.. not so soon though...) it's like going through your medical checkup, uncovering the areas that bacame weak/malfunctioned due to neglect/ wear and tear .. and fix the area up..
indeed.. the external should be reflective of the internal..
hmmm... surgical procedures will definitely involve pain.. BUT it is necessary to fix what went wrong.. without which, you will just wither away.. and not fulfilling what you are called to do...
the heartbeat of the princess... truly when you know there's nothing much more you can do by your own strength... your own capabilities.. and the unexpected happen.. it's God.. Our Creator God.. *
there is dkny tee that i bought a couple (okie.. more than that..) years back that is reversed-tailored.. ie, the seams are exposed on the exterior... it's a bold piece. cuz the inner is now the outer...
hmm after attend the sotm for past 3 weeks (by default since the start, i attend every different svc if different.. haha like sot student rite? keke.. not so soon though...) it's like going through your medical checkup, uncovering the areas that bacame weak/malfunctioned due to neglect/ wear and tear .. and fix the area up..
indeed.. the external should be reflective of the internal..
hmmm... surgical procedures will definitely involve pain.. BUT it is necessary to fix what went wrong.. without which, you will just wither away.. and not fulfilling what you are called to do...
One life, I lay at Your altar
One love, I have in You
Touch me again,
Fil me as You hold,
My outstretched hands
One word,
You know I will follow
One heart broken to You
Use me again,
Your mercy follows me
For all my days
the heartbeat of the princess... truly when you know there's nothing much more you can do by your own strength... your own capabilities.. and the unexpected happen.. it's God.. Our Creator God.. *
Ho Chi Minh Trip
hmmm can't say I'm excited to go on this trip.. haha. tis gonna be the 1st & last trip with this current company (well, the D&D is gonna be held there.. ) and well going on this trip meant that i'll miss 2 lessons od sotm. ( If I know in advance that sotm will be on, i won't sign up half a year ago..)
well.. since i'll be going - cancelling now will have to pay $$.. so.. well.. take it as a trip b4 new job begin.... hmm departing week after ming's wedding.. wooo.. speaking of which.. i need to contact vory... :)
went fitness first today with tien as her guest.. did a lesson of pilate.. hmm was alrite.. i like the fitball part.. well, the club was great.. but pricey and i'm still with cali.. so.. well.. wait for 3 more years ba.. (unlikely to change though.. haha) hmmm.. wonder if there is any gym ard harbourfront area... hmm else.. kinda troublesome...
hmm made it in time to catch the last episode of the 10pm drama.. didn't really catch the whole series.. but parts of it.. (had been trying to get my bro to rent the series from the library @ his workplace but to no avail... yet.. well..) hmm expected ending.. but still.. :) cuz hmm well well..
it's been kinda s-l-o-w so far since the notice period began.. ( huge contrast to the past experience... ) kinda silly but really nothing much for me to do.. and glad that i did not finish the contract.. cuz the longer i stayed, the lower morale i've..and.. well.. it's History now.. so.. glad i need not play the 2nd/3rd/4th fiddle any longer... - somehow the flakes just began more evidient now.. glad that i moved on...
i guessed happier now cuz confidence/morale heightened.. :)
hmmm things i wanna do - the extras from what i'm doing now, after settling down @ new job:
well.. since i'll be going - cancelling now will have to pay $$.. so.. well.. take it as a trip b4 new job begin.... hmm departing week after ming's wedding.. wooo.. speaking of which.. i need to contact vory... :)
went fitness first today with tien as her guest.. did a lesson of pilate.. hmm was alrite.. i like the fitball part.. well, the club was great.. but pricey and i'm still with cali.. so.. well.. wait for 3 more years ba.. (unlikely to change though.. haha) hmmm.. wonder if there is any gym ard harbourfront area... hmm else.. kinda troublesome...
hmm made it in time to catch the last episode of the 10pm drama.. didn't really catch the whole series.. but parts of it.. (had been trying to get my bro to rent the series from the library @ his workplace but to no avail... yet.. well..) hmm expected ending.. but still.. :) cuz hmm well well..
it's been kinda s-l-o-w so far since the notice period began.. ( huge contrast to the past experience... ) kinda silly but really nothing much for me to do.. and glad that i did not finish the contract.. cuz the longer i stayed, the lower morale i've..and.. well.. it's History now.. so.. glad i need not play the 2nd/3rd/4th fiddle any longer... - somehow the flakes just began more evidient now.. glad that i moved on...
i guessed happier now cuz confidence/morale heightened.. :)
hmmm things i wanna do - the extras from what i'm doing now, after settling down @ new job:
- continue my jap (well, studied till intermediate 1 in ntu, kinda wasted to stop.. would be eligible to take the JLPT test (level 4) soon ba..
- pick up the guitar again.. - it's idling at a corner again..
- take the basic driving theory test?
- take piano lessons? hmm..
- vocal lessons? hmmm...
okie.. one by one.. :)
Saturday 19 May 2007
the resignation ONCE more.. and yes.. with Extreme JOY...
Finally!!
Backtrack a bitsy.. finally am off the status of "2nd class" citizen... :) *thanks my lovelies palies who prayed for me.. and most importantly.. God!*
Frankly, woke up yesterday (thurs) generally with a GREAT feeling that I know I will be offered on spot..
well.. it's really by Grace of God cuz
decided to start earlier .. reckon a day of rest is more than sufficient.. (afterall there's still AL available..) so.. will get to see merliOn & the cable cars on an almost daily basis.. from next month onwards.. (the countdown to the final days of "concubine" has begun...) hmmm vivo city will be my new fave haunt.. :)
Incidentally, a few weeks ago while trying to be positive abt the frastration of being a "second-class citizen", i changed my user password to annotate "out of the orgn in 50 days" ( well was prompted 30 days initially, but figured that will not likely come to pass cuz i need to give a month's notice...). Cuz power of confession ma.. keying that daily will reinforce and claim that by faith..
This morning, i did my maths and lo and behold, the no of days from which i changed my password - 30 April to my last day @ current job is exactly 50 days!
Backtrack a bitsy.. finally am off the status of "2nd class" citizen... :) *thanks my lovelies palies who prayed for me.. and most importantly.. God!*
Frankly, woke up yesterday (thurs) generally with a GREAT feeling that I know I will be offered on spot..
well.. it's really by Grace of God cuz
- I don't have the necessary experience and they are willing to invest and develop my technical skills
- I need not suffer a pay reduction while acquiring the exp despite mthly gross is slightly higher but over package * including bonus receipt of typical employee * amounts to ~ 40% up the scale..
- They usually don't recruit inexperienced personnel.. this was rare oppty that they have the extra headcount to spend time and develop candidate with keen interest (me!) but without adequate experience..
decided to start earlier .. reckon a day of rest is more than sufficient.. (afterall there's still AL available..) so.. will get to see merliOn & the cable cars on an almost daily basis.. from next month onwards.. (the countdown to the final days of "concubine" has begun...) hmmm vivo city will be my new fave haunt.. :)
Incidentally, a few weeks ago while trying to be positive abt the frastration of being a "second-class citizen", i changed my user password to annotate "out of the orgn in 50 days" ( well was prompted 30 days initially, but figured that will not likely come to pass cuz i need to give a month's notice...). Cuz power of confession ma.. keying that daily will reinforce and claim that by faith..
This morning, i did my maths and lo and behold, the no of days from which i changed my password - 30 April to my last day @ current job is exactly 50 days!
new look...
marks a fresh start.. :)
spent quite some time changing the color and layout a bitsy.. to "pinki-lise" it.. :)
spent quite some time changing the color and layout a bitsy.. to "pinki-lise" it.. :)
Thursday 17 May 2007
the wednesday..
yet another day whereby the theory of assumption was in play - not my response though .. the various scene of a boring day @ work...
glad that this colleague of mine passed her test ... glad that I sms-ed her encouraging sms.. and she believed that it was my sms & prayers that helped her cleared the test this round... (cuz jus felt that i should drop her an sms this morning...)
Other than that.. work was dull as ditch water... *thanks for the innocent remark that .. exemplify the "second-class citizen" situation... well.. reminded of the fact that i will be moving on soon.. i just smiled... and replied that the contractual period was till aug (if i completed it.. ) gotta be civil still... hope to hand the letter by end May...
afterwhich zipped off to riverwalk.. *didn't expect to make it.. at least this time round i only missed page 1.. * seriously considering taking the 730 lesson for rest of the lesson cuz pastor audrey was rather speedy in delivery and yup... can't take down the notes... - shepherd.. hmm i like sheep.. (at least i've ard 5 .. in beanie form.. @ home haha what's in the imagination will come to pass.. )disgress..
okie.. zipped back to tanjong pagar after bs cuz meeting cgl.. hmm .. didn't share much though.. cuz.. being the 1st to start.. and well.. ko has illustrated my sentiments via his sharing - cuz it was replica of the past mountainous 6 months...
hmmm time to play the role of a ball.. bounce up...
Going to do the impt.. cuz in 8 hr time.. by faith the "deal" is sealed... Question: Ship Or Plane..
well.. well.. to be continued..
glad that this colleague of mine passed her test ... glad that I sms-ed her encouraging sms.. and she believed that it was my sms & prayers that helped her cleared the test this round... (cuz jus felt that i should drop her an sms this morning...)
Other than that.. work was dull as ditch water... *thanks for the innocent remark that .. exemplify the "second-class citizen" situation... well.. reminded of the fact that i will be moving on soon.. i just smiled... and replied that the contractual period was till aug (if i completed it.. ) gotta be civil still... hope to hand the letter by end May...
afterwhich zipped off to riverwalk.. *didn't expect to make it.. at least this time round i only missed page 1.. * seriously considering taking the 730 lesson for rest of the lesson cuz pastor audrey was rather speedy in delivery and yup... can't take down the notes... - shepherd.. hmm i like sheep.. (at least i've ard 5 .. in beanie form.. @ home haha what's in the imagination will come to pass.. )disgress..
okie.. zipped back to tanjong pagar after bs cuz meeting cgl.. hmm .. didn't share much though.. cuz.. being the 1st to start.. and well.. ko has illustrated my sentiments via his sharing - cuz it was replica of the past mountainous 6 months...
hmmm time to play the role of a ball.. bounce up...
Going to do the impt.. cuz in 8 hr time.. by faith the "deal" is sealed... Question: Ship Or Plane..
well.. well.. to be continued..
Wednesday 16 May 2007
celebrity lookalike...
| http://www.myheritage.com |
hmmm.. interesting.. haha.. i strike a resemblance to fann wong? hmmm haha.. and the rest were mainly korean/japanese that I have yet heard of...
okie.. time to do what i oughta to... qt and zzzz
The Three Question Personality Test
haven't did tests for long time... chanced upon this.. hmmm rather true though...parts of it ...
| Your Personality Is |
You are a passionate, caring, and unique person.You are good at expressing yourself and sharing your ideals. You are the most compassionate of all types and connect with others easily.Your heart tends to rule you. You can't make decisions without considering feelings. You seek out other empathetic people to befriend.Truth and authenticity matters in your friendships. In love, you give everything you have to relationships. You fall in love easily. At work, you crave personal expression and meaning in your career. With others, you communicate well. You can spend all night talking with someone. As far as your looks go, you've likely taken the time to develop your own personal style. On weekends, you like to be with others. Charity work is also a favorite pastime of yours. |
Tuesday 15 May 2007
the season of reaping...
well.. after days of sowing upon sowing.. it's time to reap... Surprisingly the backup plan that I'd sent 2.5 months ago finally called to verify that I'm applying for that department.. *questioning their efficiency* well well bound by the red tapes? (guess it's easy to guess which sector I'm talking abt.. yup... despite my previous experience ain't that long a wait..with this organisation...)
subsequently.. the interview that I'd attended closed to 2 months ago called me back for the 2nd interview... whoo... this is great news... the one to two weeks period turned to one to two months cuz the GM was outstationed * frankly... i kinda like this job... cuz yeah.. I can see the merlion everyday! that's the superficial aspect * keeping my fingers crossed* but pleasantly glad cuz I thought I spoke in tongues during my interview though.. heavily questioned on my lack of practical experience... :) the catch: it's alternate Sat shift...
And I was rather surprised that the caas called me... wooo.. this i never expected.. thot it will not be easy.. cuz my friend applied a couple of times and was rejected... well.. :) by grace of God
so.. with this mind... I can expect a lot more calling.. And the BIG fix: I don't have VL or MC to cover for my apptms... if more are to come... AND... the wisdom to choose the right one..
Well.. thank God for the grace to press on.. Really dislike the period of waiting... YET.. it's when you develop to really trust His leading.. And being really picky - well.. rather picky abt the coys I'd applied to... * you wondered @ times whether you should lower your expectation... Well, i didn't though.. the stubborn streak in me preserved on..
well.. the headache will come after which... which offer to accept... good feeling abt THURs.. now i know why... hmm likely cuz of the morning apptm instead of the one @ lunch...
hmmm.. well... we shall see... And the caas one.. is really interesting too - cuz haha.. near home!
subsequently.. the interview that I'd attended closed to 2 months ago called me back for the 2nd interview... whoo... this is great news... the one to two weeks period turned to one to two months cuz the GM was outstationed * frankly... i kinda like this job... cuz yeah.. I can see the merlion everyday! that's the superficial aspect * keeping my fingers crossed* but pleasantly glad cuz I thought I spoke in tongues during my interview though.. heavily questioned on my lack of practical experience... :) the catch: it's alternate Sat shift...
And I was rather surprised that the caas called me... wooo.. this i never expected.. thot it will not be easy.. cuz my friend applied a couple of times and was rejected... well.. :) by grace of God
so.. with this mind... I can expect a lot more calling.. And the BIG fix: I don't have VL or MC to cover for my apptms... if more are to come... AND... the wisdom to choose the right one..
Well.. thank God for the grace to press on.. Really dislike the period of waiting... YET.. it's when you develop to really trust His leading.. And being really picky - well.. rather picky abt the coys I'd applied to... * you wondered @ times whether you should lower your expectation... Well, i didn't though.. the stubborn streak in me preserved on..
well.. the headache will come after which... which offer to accept... good feeling abt THURs.. now i know why... hmm likely cuz of the morning apptm instead of the one @ lunch...
hmmm.. well... we shall see... And the caas one.. is really interesting too - cuz haha.. near home!
laziness
yes.. Contrary to what I ought to be doing... I didn't.. and yes.. suffer the consequences... Ops.. just remembered what I promised vicky, the emerge timing... gee it's late.. send her later in the morning...
hmm back to topic... laziness.. yes.. cuz I saw this email from the Leadership File..
last thurs.. I made a GRAVE mistake.. I gave up doing the little tasks that I ought to be doing.. why? cuz it just seemed so redudant that it was never needed.. YET when I didn't prepare... it was asked.. - @ that moment.. I knew that the party that rejected the opportunity was me instead.. So I was expecting what was cOming on the end on Sunday... how true.. tears beaming in eyes when cgl talked to me.. yup.. cuz not him, but me who stop believing in me.
indeed.. sometimes.. you listen to the wrong voices and react in the wrong manner... Let me put an end to it this time.. closure on this once and for all..
Strangely.. my iPod shuffle functions just shuffled out the sermon tracks that were totally in line of the sermon of the mount.. And some are in fact reiteration.. yes... yes.. a recalibration time..
time to leave the bean bag (literally & metaphorically) and instill the discipline back.. hmmm..
looking forward to the chio interview on ThUrs.. :)
hmm back to topic... laziness.. yes.. cuz I saw this email from the Leadership File..
"The heart of the lazy will be ruled by frustration and anger unless effort matches desire.
The thrill of the hunt and the kill is all the lazy person
wants.
To gut the fish, skin the bear or butcher the beast is too much like hard work.
The lazy man lives in an unfinished world - Nothing is completed.
The excitement of starting a thing soon fades to hard work that the lazy person does not want to do.
Quote - 'The desire of the lazy man kills
him, for his hands refuse to labour. - Prov 21:25"
last thurs.. I made a GRAVE mistake.. I gave up doing the little tasks that I ought to be doing.. why? cuz it just seemed so redudant that it was never needed.. YET when I didn't prepare... it was asked.. - @ that moment.. I knew that the party that rejected the opportunity was me instead.. So I was expecting what was cOming on the end on Sunday... how true.. tears beaming in eyes when cgl talked to me.. yup.. cuz not him, but me who stop believing in me.
indeed.. sometimes.. you listen to the wrong voices and react in the wrong manner... Let me put an end to it this time.. closure on this once and for all..
Strangely.. my iPod shuffle functions just shuffled out the sermon tracks that were totally in line of the sermon of the mount.. And some are in fact reiteration.. yes... yes.. a recalibration time..
time to leave the bean bag (literally & metaphorically) and instill the discipline back.. hmmm..
looking forward to the chio interview on ThUrs.. :)
Sunday 13 May 2007
invites.. invites..
hmmm received two wedding invitations today - though i know abt them in advance.. ming's n jadyn's... well well.. funny how some are so interested in the invites when it's not handed out to her.. I tried to intentionally hide it when she saw it BUT this lass still persisted and wanted to see.. Well some will be ultra sensitive to learn that he/she not invited - thankfully the "ultra sensitive" guy (note: it's one with the XY chromosome) wasn't ard... Otherwise he will be HURT big time to realise that he ain't one of the invited ones... well well...
Hmmm it's really a endurance training test today.. Nope, not PT session.. it's more with the stretching of the heart... there is this "clueless" lass that at times(most of the time).. make me wanna take flight frm her.. like the Ultra sensitive guy.. this lass doesn't really flow.. NOTE: audible when supposed to be silent.. - despite instructions given to play by sight/ear.. - i guess too "engrossed"; clueless that most of the chorus today have PARTS.. *either u are zzz during soundcheck OR eh... tone-deaf? cuz eh.. quite distinctive rite?* And.. being part of a TEAM.. gotta be conscious of what's going on ard too rite - imagine u only hear urself - OR maybe u're oblivious or eh.. dense (despite reminders..) Yeah.. seeking too much into details.. perfectionist ah? hmmm ... thank God that i was relieved from the agony (eh 50% cuz i could still hear her..) cuz i got to fill the gap ahead.. and. eh.. okie.. i ought not to elaborate.. cuz there are MORE... seriously, there is no corelation between age and maturity/wisdom... Is the heart.. how open is it to the things/situations and whether u want to learn/apply what u experienced/heard....
Peeved.. think the C element getting mOre prevalent.. urgh..
ooohh haappy that my grass patch construction is 80% done.. will show miss i next week... :)
i ought to sleep now.. cuz to be up again in less than 2 hrs.. wanna finish the series.. *c-lai nature in me wanna finish the show cUz of the 2 sauve lead.. * keke..should be the last time in few months to come..
hmmm have a good feeling abt next thurs.. cuz.. hmm cuz going to the "chio" place ... if it work out, it will be elaborated... somehow felt good abt it.. cuz it's really an ultra efficient - Wednesday - i wept, God spoke. Thursday morning.. oppty and responded and it opened.. afternoon preliminary arranged. hmm pray for me for favour with pple- those i'm meeting up on thurs and wisdom if u happen to read this.. :)
well.. me gotta sleep NOW...
Hmmm it's really a endurance training test today.. Nope, not PT session.. it's more with the stretching of the heart... there is this "clueless" lass that at times(most of the time).. make me wanna take flight frm her.. like the Ultra sensitive guy.. this lass doesn't really flow.. NOTE: audible when supposed to be silent.. - despite instructions given to play by sight/ear.. - i guess too "engrossed"; clueless that most of the chorus today have PARTS.. *either u are zzz during soundcheck OR eh... tone-deaf? cuz eh.. quite distinctive rite?* And.. being part of a TEAM.. gotta be conscious of what's going on ard too rite - imagine u only hear urself - OR maybe u're oblivious or eh.. dense (despite reminders..) Yeah.. seeking too much into details.. perfectionist ah? hmmm ... thank God that i was relieved from the agony (eh 50% cuz i could still hear her..) cuz i got to fill the gap ahead.. and. eh.. okie.. i ought not to elaborate.. cuz there are MORE... seriously, there is no corelation between age and maturity/wisdom... Is the heart.. how open is it to the things/situations and whether u want to learn/apply what u experienced/heard....
Peeved.. think the C element getting mOre prevalent.. urgh..
ooohh haappy that my grass patch construction is 80% done.. will show miss i next week... :)
i ought to sleep now.. cuz to be up again in less than 2 hrs.. wanna finish the series.. *c-lai nature in me wanna finish the show cUz of the 2 sauve lead.. * keke..should be the last time in few months to come..
hmmm have a good feeling abt next thurs.. cuz.. hmm cuz going to the "chio" place ... if it work out, it will be elaborated... somehow felt good abt it.. cuz it's really an ultra efficient - Wednesday - i wept, God spoke. Thursday morning.. oppty and responded and it opened.. afternoon preliminary arranged. hmm pray for me for favour with pple- those i'm meeting up on thurs and wisdom if u happen to read this.. :)
well.. me gotta sleep NOW...
Friday 11 May 2007
facade..
Strangely.. what cgl shared today was totally in sync with the long letter that i emailed rachel.. nope... no juicy details..
facade.. facade..
hmmm...
tired.. eyes WIDe shut yet wide open... i wonder how many actually see or do they care what they saw?
I was tired.. yet has to think in mandarin, speak in chinese... trying to process the unusual chinese terms... hmmm and yes, all there while trying to keep eyelid from drooping.. processing and translating... and yes.. .imparting...
U care? I care..
did a not very well structured survey for a grp of trainees.. kinda smoke for the comments... well well... i did what i could. (and have to do it via mozilla, IE failed on me...
facade.. facade..
hmmm...
tired.. eyes WIDe shut yet wide open... i wonder how many actually see or do they care what they saw?
I was tired.. yet has to think in mandarin, speak in chinese... trying to process the unusual chinese terms... hmmm and yes, all there while trying to keep eyelid from drooping.. processing and translating... and yes.. .imparting...
U care? I care..
did a not very well structured survey for a grp of trainees.. kinda smoke for the comments... well well... i did what i could. (and have to do it via mozilla, IE failed on me...
Thursday 10 May 2007
posting... emailing... more posting...
wrote a looong email to r8ch... think i gave her a scare.. it's a counselling letter to myself...
Contemplated whether or not to rush down to practice after BS... decided not to initially... (cuz it will be cab to riverwalk..cab to jw) and i like pst ming's lesson.. BUT.. somehow felt i should attend tonite's prac.. mandy's sms sealed my decision to fly down aft bs...
glad i did.. i like wed's pract.. cuz there is ample time for us to be ministered to.. :) i was brought back to time 6 years ago @ mt alvernia ... where i first encountered God.. and His unconditional love.. And..the unexpected . i saw a glimpse of a sweetie pie of age ard 1-2..sOoo kawaii... hmmm wonder why... there is time lapse btw seed time and harvest time .... flowers are blooming... And yes.. there are things not yet to come and things yet to come.. :p
did my daily quota of sending again...
bs insights another time...
Contemplated whether or not to rush down to practice after BS... decided not to initially... (cuz it will be cab to riverwalk..cab to jw) and i like pst ming's lesson.. BUT.. somehow felt i should attend tonite's prac.. mandy's sms sealed my decision to fly down aft bs...
glad i did.. i like wed's pract.. cuz there is ample time for us to be ministered to.. :) i was brought back to time 6 years ago @ mt alvernia ... where i first encountered God.. and His unconditional love.. And..the unexpected . i saw a glimpse of a sweetie pie of age ard 1-2..sOoo kawaii... hmmm wonder why... there is time lapse btw seed time and harvest time .... flowers are blooming... And yes.. there are things not yet to come and things yet to come.. :p
did my daily quota of sending again...
bs insights another time...
Tuesday 8 May 2007
the Soup....pressure cooker... (nOt really)
yet another day long into the am... a is the reason...
hmm.. posts getting shorter... erractic...
dislike the pressure cooker...
it's mounting up...
kinda tired of the notion of "kazuku" when some parts of it doesn't even know what's going on.. the Power of assumption... yeah, some thought i was all settled.... well.. assumption assumption... Or maybe.. the facade painted was VERY REALISTIC? . OR they aren't that discerning??? your concern is most heart-felt... OR heart-piercing... Maybe i can start a new hobby... painting... anyway.. thanks for the assumption...
well.. cast it aside... pointless anyway..
i hope the soup won't overflow... it did a couple of times... fortunately.. it was a private accident... The Chef won't let it be ruined though... Cuz it take TIME to brew a pot of 靓汤... the process is looooong...
the longer it takes.. the more the impurities get to be skimmed away...
sounds familiar?
For the uninitiated.. I'm not turining c-lai and keeping a watch at the stove for the pot of sOup..
P.s.
personal space seems to be shrinking... esp while queuing/in the train.. (if the object less than 5cm away emits frangrance.. bearable... BUT else... pls help others by helping yourself... ANd please... sweeping your long/wavy/straight tassles on your loved one may be sensual.. BUT to the one sitting/standing next to you will most likely invite "tsk" response...
hmm.. posts getting shorter... erractic...
dislike the pressure cooker...
it's mounting up...
kinda tired of the notion of "kazuku" when some parts of it doesn't even know what's going on.. the Power of assumption... yeah, some thought i was all settled.... well.. assumption assumption... Or maybe.. the facade painted was VERY REALISTIC? . OR they aren't that discerning??? your concern is most heart-felt... OR heart-piercing... Maybe i can start a new hobby... painting... anyway.. thanks for the assumption...
well.. cast it aside... pointless anyway..
i hope the soup won't overflow... it did a couple of times... fortunately.. it was a private accident... The Chef won't let it be ruined though... Cuz it take TIME to brew a pot of 靓汤... the process is looooong...
the longer it takes.. the more the impurities get to be skimmed away...
sounds familiar?
For the uninitiated.. I'm not turining c-lai and keeping a watch at the stove for the pot of sOup..
P.s.
personal space seems to be shrinking... esp while queuing/in the train.. (if the object less than 5cm away emits frangrance.. bearable... BUT else... pls help others by helping yourself... ANd please... sweeping your long/wavy/straight tassles on your loved one may be sensual.. BUT to the one sitting/standing next to you will most likely invite "tsk" response...
Thursday 3 May 2007
simplicity.. black..
a drastic change? ha.. keeping the layout simple for the time being.. no particular reason...
just realised that I've yet done the calling for the invi list.. and i don't have the vnr contacts.. yikes.. sorry sorry...
p.s. can't comprehend why peeps assume the law of large numbers apply to all... p.s. it's not convenient to zip out of there as easily as those cuz.....(relative distance is not great, but relatively equivalent time-wise... ) the moments of indulgence may be alluring to the palate (of most peeps.. to add to the flab is more enjoyable than depriving the fat cells from expanding.. but sometimes energy is just required to burn.. the source can be simple fare...) hmmm can't understand? nevermind...
just realised that I've yet done the calling for the invi list.. and i don't have the vnr contacts.. yikes.. sorry sorry...
p.s. can't comprehend why peeps assume the law of large numbers apply to all... p.s. it's not convenient to zip out of there as easily as those cuz.....(relative distance is not great, but relatively equivalent time-wise... ) the moments of indulgence may be alluring to the palate (of most peeps.. to add to the flab is more enjoyable than depriving the fat cells from expanding.. but sometimes energy is just required to burn.. the source can be simple fare...) hmmm can't understand? nevermind...
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