It's October 31!

Happie halloween... and TwO weeks to princess' birthday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

another post @ 3am

I'm tired... I'm having diarrhea .. wonder if it's the coffeeshake i'd earlier... gee...

Had been Ot-ing for past few days... And think my #1fan buttercup was hooked on facebook... haha.. facebook.. thru' it, i re-linked with a couple of my JC's classmates/ eca mates.. fun... read some posts in the dhs group... wa.. memories... :) found memories of the old school building @ dunman road.. (sadly, it had been replaced by architecturely not so aesthetic tkss.) Remembered that 12 years ago, my class turned our classroom into a cave for CNY deco (it's the year of pig then..) And we were featured on 联合早报的头版 (sillie me still keep the newspaper article cuz not often you get to appear in the papers and front page too!! )

had a very good time with Vory earlier.... hehe... Thank God that we (r8ch, vory & me) are in the same cg.. (haha... best if claire is ard too.. then.. hehe.. but hpl willl diao us if we ever suggest that.. haha!) Frankly, if not for vory and r8ch, i won't make it to w110... and stayed there that long cuz i remembered how emo i was when i learnt of the BIG migration to w110... eh 4 years ago... (haha... was seriously in state of distress n very depressed - i guessed partly cuz leaving the comfort zone and into the unknown...) Well God is good.. and yeah.. reunion for us.. and glad to see us more matured... i guessed vory must be glad that r8ch and i have grown more matured.. hehe... and vory and i sorta reversed role in cg now.. haha..

think i'm crapping.. Fighting another day of war tomorrow... FAST & PRAY ah.. (literally doing that...later...thru'out the day!) I really appreciate the RESPONSIBLE members in the cg who bothered to reply to an sms that request "pls reply".. as for those who didn't sigh.. God help them to be more accountable.. (p.s. it's not as if i always have unutilised sms - in fact... it ain't enuff...!) Sigh sigh..

the long monday

I'm heading outta here... it's a 13 hour work day!

:) a surprise sms

God hears! even the most insignificant little lamentation/ prayers...

I was surprised to see a "how are you doing?" sms (followed by a wORd of encouragement) from my ex-cgl, steven - under whom i grew a lot.. (as well as rebel - and repented... ) earlier this afternoon... Genuinely surprised.. but very loved - by God.. apparently that chain of nonsensical stuff i'd spouted last nite out of my emo mood was heard... :)

it may be just a simple word of encouragement to the sender, but don't underestimate the impact of that one sms that cost only 5 cents. And if sent at divine timing... wow.. :)

thank U God! Thanks steven!

healthy monday...

it's gonna be a healthy Monday! :)

Dimensions... the 4th Dimension...

This weekend was eventful & mind-blowing...

First up, Sat morning... had dim sum with my cg mates.. & my cgl... & and princess found her match - in terms of timeliness.. a habit most princess won't cultivate - that is the spoilt- typesy which yours truly don't fall into this category. Nah, I will not emulate this behavior. cuz time translate into life... oh well..

Glad that I have the chance to chat with mS stelle.. jUne n jAnet.. haha.. i guess the "gila" element is being pried out when talking to these gals.. haha... *let her warm up to me first... then.. hehe... hopefully can bring the potential out in her... letting her in to the "wild" side that r8ch get to see.. guess that's my connecting point to her.. *

hmm i like the message that Pastor preached this weekend - despite of my tired temple.. attend s2 with thaddeus & jieyin - gal.. hope u are entertained by my posts.. keke..* Okay, "like" was an understatement to my sentiments on the message.. I should say.. it reminded me of my priorities.. and sudden revelation of the mini-obstacles that appeared to be major hindrances recently... Settle for the good instead of the best? Certainly NOT!

Despite having the vision/dream, when it ain't coming to pass the way you envisioned to me.. one will tend to draw back, or repaint the picture so that the likelihood of it materializing will be higher (and one will not be disappointed/ ashamed when it didn't come to pass..) well.. doing it your way would unlikely coincide the path that God wants you to take.. and yes, many a times, resulting in the self-inflicted "trials and tribulations" that you might not need to go thru', OR short-changing yourself of the destiny God has for you.

SO i decided, to abandon the silly thought of settling for the second-best.. and the best is definitely coming! And yes, delay doesn't equate to denial...

A&B cOming... excited!!

Felt so loved to hear the silent voice that echoes back "I love you too, princess.." this morning.. Never felt Him so close in my life.. * He knows my wishlist... esp item 1! the reason for them...

Security blanket... hmmm interesting toPic.. in different areas of life, each of us have our own security blanket.. Yet very often... cuz of this base line that we often miss out on the opportunity.. and after embarking on the SAFE-more sensible solution to the human mind, there are many "what-if?" questions/scenarios popping out... Placed in terms of decisions - having the security blanket will just leave you STUCK in the rut of your comfort zone. Putting this in perspective, this topic came up in the area of relationship... touchy topic.. Well, in a 3rd-person persona, it would be fair to both parties to start something on clean slate... I witness some real touchy situations cuz there's no clean break when one party doesn't have closure before the commencement of a new relationship and it can get pretty.. sticky... well.. it's not up to me.. but just wish that there will not be awkward situation should that inkling comes to pass..
anyway, what's not fitting for one may fit another.. so.. hehe... shall see how...

It has been a long week.. but great cuz... ya.. re-adjusted the lens...

thinking.. believing...dreaming... speaking!!

Lalang along stretches of ecp

Due to extreme fatigue, i cab-ed down to work. Thanks to the heavy traffic, i get to enjoy the scenery frm the backseat. And kudos to NP who add new breed of flowering plants by the road dividers. Instead of boring bougenvenas, i saw pretty lalang-type of plants that resemble lavender frm far, and pretty fluers of various shades of pink. And i'm still stuck at ecp aftr half hr. HEAVY traffic. Pretty blooms make up for the slow ride to work.

late...

i've been working late this week... (if not for choir prac on wednesday.. it'll b 3 consecutive nites) i guessed tonight was about the latest so far... cuz (a) my sm is going on leave for two weeks (b) my m is going on reservist in another week time.. (c) one of the YA is going to be time-barred.. (d) there is no precedent "template" which i could follow.. and i've to phantom with the various tax treatments on hand... not to mention entertaining ad hoc gst enquiries ..

yet in contrast to what i was doing previously - i shall not elaborate, else it will be ... not very edifying.. there is at least ownership to this.. And my m is extremely patient with me.. & really help me along... Thank God for favour with man.. fitting in well.. just gotta up my confidence level .. and i need to read up... ya.. i gotta embrace my two work "bibles"- the ITA and GSTA. Alright.

hmmm heard the webcast earlier this evening on the 3Q results of my company.. Oooh.. doing well.. happie... esp since A&B is coming up. :)

interesting.. someone came up to me at pasir ris mrt on my way home (cuz the cab queue @ harbourfront was atrocious even at 2220.. so took the mrt instead).. so while i was happily plugged into my iPod, i was surprised to see someone waved at my direction.. didn't know lingkai stayed in pasir ris too.. haha interestingly, we hardly talked while we were in choir.. haha didn't know he recognize me.. haha.. tHank God i still look presentable at that hour.. (this week i'm doning black and gray...) well.. what a coincidence.. lovely way to end my hectic day..

and thank God for the sudden inspiration to spruce up the interior's of ellytUsk's card... and i guess i work by inspiration.. dug out the lovely pretty stuff that i'd bought last christmas @ pRints.. and it's yet another piece of art..

sorry miss stelle, gotta fly kite on our morning jog later.. cuz i need to finish up my work. Attempting to reach office by 730.. let me see it it can be done... okie.. time to rest...

from the leadership files- DOING

If you only do what you can do then you're only ever going to do what you can do!

But, if you start to do what you cannot do, you'll find you can do what you cannot do.

And what you absolutely cannot do, God will do, or a team of incredible poeple will, who are attracted to the person attempting to do what they cannot do.

Don't imagine God will ask you to do what you can do!

He asks you to do what you can't do.

Then you'll need Him to do it!

But you're the one who starts the impossible dream.

No-one, not even God, gets inpsired by the mediocre.

Attempt the impossible, ignore the critics, attract the best, accomplish the unbelievable!

bored..

recently, i had a no. friends request from facebook. And i don't know them.. i guess i'm bored, so i just confirmed them.. - at least i don't use pseudo pictures so i suppOsed they either know me Or i look friendly? obv!

yay! I'm trying to cultivate a new habit. Jogging@ pasir ris park @ 6plus AM.. Have made a date with pretty stelle this friday!!

:)

it's been a HECTIC week.. I'm dOIng things in "new tOngues".. seriously i don't know how to go about doing the tasks.. and no precedent and yes.. rushing for TIME.. so intend to head to office EARLY later...

so zzzz sOon!

delay is not denial...

this has been said to me many times... ever since last year... delay in terms of what? Various things.. Today during practice, belle got us to catch a word of encouragement to our neighbour.. Gee. was very touched by what God spoke thru'
amanda(faith) .. indeed.. hope deferred is not denial.. Certainly, God knows what our every thought- spoken or unexpressed. Not to lose heart ya? hmm promotion/ increase - that's the two words that mandy said she heard.. Wow.. I claim that by faith - be it for my career OR... what seemed so out of reach... - which was totally in line to what the Inner Voice was telling me this morning.. - "If that was given to you now, can you handle it? Grow. keep growing.. Seek, keep seeking.. " Seriously i wonder what area(s) would the increase/promotion be??

as for what that's been "plaguing" my mind - it's getting kinda not too good - had been creating reality in my lala land... it's so vivid and sigh.. and seriously, i wonder did my sub-conscious activate my mobile to call while the phone is my bag - and the no was NOT in my previously called-nos.. Silly silly...

for ONCE, buttercup didn't have the chance to bet coke with me this week.. haha.. cuz i already know the answer... hehe.. still buttercup, i want my cherry coke and u get you vanilla coke this sat ok??

and HAppIe biRthdAe iVORy!! *muAks!*

busy...

busy... doing things that i don't know how.. help... cold and hungry.. i'm going home!

the instrument that i should play ...

You Should Play the Guitar

You're very independent - both in spirit and in the way you learn. You can teach yourself almost anything, even if it makes your fingers bleed. You're not really the type to sit patiently through a music lesson - or do things by the book. It's more your style to master the fundamentals and see where they take you. Highly creative and a bit eclectic, you need a wide range of music to play. You could emerge as a sensitive songwriter... or a manic rock star. Your dominant personality characteristic: being rebellious Your secondary personality characteristic: tenacity

What Musical Instrument Should You Play?

hmmm... time to get the missing pin? >.<

tortured genius?

You Are 48% Tortured Genius

You are very smart and a little bit tortured. Like a tortured genius in training. You're brilliant enough to see how screwed up the world is. Just don't let it screw you up!

Are You a Tortured Genius?

wedding invites

in the month of November... three wedding invites:
* my cgl - Ryan & lennie's
* my ex-colleague - naz's
* a dear friend - lein's

hmm.. seems like friend ard me are moving on to a new phase in life.... happy for them!

someday... :)

perplexed

perhaps it's time to take a break... need SPACE to clear the things within. Every second that i waste procrastinating is every second lost. .

i long to jet away... yet not for the right reason...

October is ending... november is approaching... will it come to pass??

had brekkie with kelly and charlene after singing today. Hmmm kel is really excited abt her new shopfront.. - think it will be cool.. her designs - i like. Dawn upon the conceptualising of my own label too.. hmmm... i want..

darn.. i'm blogging in bits and pieces... not good.. not good at all..

Sat after service events...

Word of Caution: Unless you have time to spare, or don't mind throwing up the meal just ingested... head down to watch the halloween theme show titled - Halloween

Gore factor: HIGH

Okie, after dinner at the kenny rogers@ marina with cg (the new friends were unable to join us as one of them were not feeling well), the pretty gals and the gentleman (yep. only ys went with the 7 gals - Interesting rite?) decided to watch a horror show titled - halloween. ya, rite - halloween nite for me.. thank goodness for the jacket from ys that shield janet and i from the digusting gruesome bloodshed - else.. frankly, i was regreting agreeing to this movie 15 minutes to the show cuz it was... pure gore.. and ya.. i guess if some of the gals knew it was r21 rating, they would unlikely be watching... oh well.. yet, ironically, felt kinda good after the show cuz get to release a couple of screams ... stress reliever..

Let me end this off with a pix of what the four beauties shared... not that well-taken but haha..

silly blur sotong

aka me.. it was supposed to be my off-sat and i turned up for work. NEvertheless, thank God i did. Else.. I won't be able to cope on monday. haven't finish what i intended to finish.. but at least better than nothing..

zipping off to church now...

feeling happy cuz wearing the cutesy "pebbles rock" top from skin. :)

the weird thing to do in the middle of the nite

is to do your laundry and wait for the program to finish running and hang the clothes to air...

that's exactly what i did when i got home... Silly me.. bUt can't stand the "satay/ bbq" smell on the clothes that will linger ard in my laundry basket... so... all in the laundry basket went for a shower and moon-tanning on the bamboo poles...

in case u wnder how the satay smell came abt.. we took a detour to bedok nth market after cg and fellowship... cuz think either ys or damien was hungry? eh..anyway.. it was great fun to be with june, janet & xinjun... the four gals in the back of ys' car and happliy chatting.. hmmm happy that they came to join us... :) happy that vory and r8ch are in my cg too... :) yay... God answered my prayers :)

Ooooh... had a very fun conversation with claire over msn this afternoon.. keke miss her... not easy to catch her cuz she's always zapping ard... hehe...

oh welll ... it's 2am. and it's gonna be a loong weekend.. working.. then serving... . sunday serving too.. yay (though i wonder if i'm starting to distract myself again...)

change of playlist...

I like this song... the very 1st time i heard it in "Pretty Woman". Fallen.. Oh well..

love the second song too (in fact all made it to the playlist for various reason). Sang this song for the old folks at Tampines Home - with the actions during a visit cum performance in sec 2 with dhs choir.. rather silly but it bring joys.. but I like this rendition.. from one of my fave album in sec 4 - the Help Compilation - in aid to children caught in war in former yugoslavia.

had added the two mass dance song in JC in the playlist too - found memories... :) - guess which were them?

well.. the rest.. are there for a reason... either purely for the music.. or else.. expresses bits and pieces of my emotions... a mixture of new and old fave... oh well.. it's 2:10.. offline time..

addicted...

to facebook...frankly, it's eats up your time.. via the silly games and applications... SOme are so cutesy.. this is a more updated network site than friendster.. (though thru' it i got reunited with a couple of dhs mates... i reckon it will be difficult to locate my primary sch friends though.. haha cuz we were known by 汉语拼音 name then...)

ya, neural network upheaval. .. (move ur cursor over the word and click on if still can't make sense.. though you will still have to infer from it..)

Ah... it's fast approaching 2am. I shall attempt to wake up at before 6. leave hone at 630 for gym. ambitious attempt. Yah, i lost the wager to buttercup again.. cuz SJ didn't appear at MC last nite. Sigh sigh... 2nd bottle of coke... i shall earn my 1st bottle - bet with buttercup next monday that the long awaited appt with mrs buttercup to the gym will materialise.. - the bet is harmless.. just wonder why the subject is ...

oh well.. Ohh... met the incredible fast moving max @ outram this morning.. with speed and poise comparable to ninja when he zipped up the escalator at harbourfront... interesting...

okie... as thoughts are getting rambled up... time to sleep!

hopes unseen

was surprised to see this in my inbox in facebook from a dear friend (who never fails to inspire me...)... it was a word in season... and a great encouragement and yes.. God knows all things... just perserve...

here's the extract of the beautiful message from kelly ...
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Romans 8:24-32 (Amplified)

24For in [this] hope we were saved. But hope [the object of] which is seen is not hope. For how can one hope for what he already sees?

25But if we hope for what is still unseen by us, we wait for it with patience and composure.

26So too the [Holy] Spirit comes to our aid and bears us up in our weakness; for we do not know what prayer to offer nor how to offer it worthily as we ought, but the Spirit Himself goes to meet our supplication and pleads in our behalf with unspeakable yearnings and groanings too deep for utterance.

27And He Who searches the hearts of men knows what is in the mind of the [Holy] Spirit [what His intent is], because the Spirit intercedes and pleads [before God] in behalf of the saints according to and in harmony with God's will.

28We are assured and know that [God being a partner in their labor] all things work together and are [fitting into a plan] for good to and for those who love God and are called according to [His] design and purpose.

29For those whom He foreknew [of whom He was aware and loved beforehand], He also destined from the beginning [foreordaining them] to be molded into the image of His Son [and share inwardly His likeness], that He might become the firstborn among many brethren.

30And those whom He thus foreordained, He also called; and those whom He called, He also justified (acquitted, made righteous, putting them into right standing with Himself). And those whom He justified, He also glorified [raising them to a heavenly dignity and condition or state of being].

31What then shall we say to [all] this? If God is for us, who [can be] against us? [Who can be our foe, if God is on our side?]

32He who did not withhold or spare [even] His own Son but gave Him up for us all, will He not also with Him freely and graciously give us all [other] things?

Some many beautiful things in these verses.

This is for your hope unseen...

Guess we are all hoping and waiting upon an answer from God. Something we hope but not yet see. My prayer is that you will continue in this hope.

- God knows you and He is loving you.
- The Holy Spirit will help you.
- God know you are there. He is with you and He is a partner with you in what you are called.
- God will withhold no good things from those who love him
- God will be glorified in you [raising them to a heavenly dignity and condition or state of being]. (vs.30)

Keeping hoping and trusting in His character, His faithfulness, His great love for you, His desire and destiny of good for you. It's going to be so very ok ... :)

late... working late...

judging from how things are piling up with the urgency tag - i think it's a long day ahead still.

Buttercup seemed to be having fun with having wagers with me with COKE as the price.. uh huh.. i should bUy him a carton of coca for christmas.. hehe.. :) * i suspect mrs buttercup will clobber me...

Urgh.. no. the neural system is still down.. in fact.. pounding and throbbing felt..

mal-function

the digestive system is calling out for materials to work on... the materials are just an arms length away... yet.. the nerves refuse to respond.. or choose to ignore.. to pick up the materials..

perhaps the neural system needs an overhaul?

cracking.. cracking up... specialist required.

rude telemarketers

I hung up on one SILLY telemarketer from this unheard of company called connect asia. He even raised his voice at me when i told him I'm not interested in his whatsoever and the Free Gift that that his company is offering at the Grandopening ceremony. cUz i just told him nicely that i am not interested in whatever he is offering and there is NO Free lunch in the world so ya, i thank him and hung up. And this silly tweet kept calling back . Hellos.. your silly company does not have private no. I could always lodge a complain if you kept hounding me. Or i should ask for the company's ROC no. Anyway, I gave the tweet company a pseudo name the last weekend when the aunty called - imagine they only have my hp no which they claimed to have obtained from lucky draws - they don't even have my name! - hello? This made me more suspicious of this company. Did a search on the net, can't find anything on it.. WEird. Anyway the questionaire sounds harmless - they ask question on POSB stuff.. ?

Anyway, if the silly Tweet calls again.. well.. i'll just caution the tweet to think twice of misusing my no. - or simply reply wrong no. - cuz that aint my name.

the princess is irritated!!

accomplished

finally, i made it to the gym... And it felt good after working out at the efx and the threadmill.. Though it was rather distracting.. think for the first few minutes.. i was going full speed cuz of the distraction.. trying to shake it away.. sigh.. not that easy... why does it have such an effect on me... hate it.. but i can't bring myself to.. (once again.. in parables) can't stand this trait of mine.. which was determination... once decided that ... it's hard to shake off... i guess it was some described as steadfast? - not very helpful in this instance..

made another card.. looks like a wedding invite initially - maybe i could do my own next time.. haha...or design for others... (but it will be a HUGE project. not yet..)

It's less than a month to nov 14!!! and christmas is coming.. so it meant time is TICKING...

the monday...

I wonder how i managed to get through today... Gee... perhaps i should shun/distance from the source of this. It's just pure sheer distraction that made my mind spin... yet... i can't help that innocent-ordinary would just trigger the source... Sigh.. a mind that draws too many connections.. It's easier if I can't draw too many inferences...one of a simpleton... yet i know that's not His blueprint for me... (ya, not much of use & impact if gullible and naive and * doh*..)

Circumstances... Will not be stuck in them.. Dislodging from the reality (which is the circumstances). the gray matter needs an overhaul.

Taking a look at the calendar... it's October 16.. Yikes.. the short six months became 2.5 months now.. what have i done? No time to look the "i could have done better"... not the time to lament... not the time ask why.... or conjure the many what if scenarios...

God is in charge... yee why can you just let go...

playlist

a bizarre mixture, cuz it started out initially listing some of my current and old time fave .. then chanced upon the songs that expresses me... and my thoughts.. Track 3 was the song that kept me going the last October.. October 06. the most treacherous month ever. Period.

nah.. don't think it's possible to sift a playlist that's radio-friendly... afterall.. this playlist reflect rather closely to the playlist that my iPod will shuffle out (except this imeem playlist has no sermons... and crappy podcasts - btw i'd ceased downloading happy tree friends.. else.. more sicko.. ) oh well.. whatever...

i ought not to feel this way.. yet i still do..

sigh... why??

nearly wanna clobber you 48 hours earlier... yet.. 46 hours later... contrasting feeling... 24 hours later... it's unexplainable... 9 hours ago ... the almost surreal dream...

hate that feeling... who are you to have such an effect over me??

Urgh...

mixed...

thanks for offering the paddy puffy... without which.. i would be cold..
gee.. i think i'm ... help...

latest creation - Corinth's card

** the front**


the inner


the back. my signature trademark...




the angpow envelope...back..



the angpow envelope...front..

crap movie part two...

I was late for work CUZ I left the card and envelope @ home and realised it only upon reaching the mrt station.. gee.. took a bus back to retrieve...

it was a hectic day today.. as my department secretary was on medical leave the whole week (she hurt herself.. had a bad fall..).. yours truly gotta double up as my boss' PA. And in the midst, my dear boss decided that my gst knowledge was sound enough to advise this guy from Belgium's business unit.. .. well thank God it went well.. And in the midst of it all.. I got to chat with buttercup over msn (we entertained one another while working thru' the pile of work..)

went vivo to scout for gifts.. ended up buying this cult looking tee from five crown. was deliberating between this and the cream cutesy one - but white and pink looks better on me .. cool! think it's an indie brand.. hunt ard the supermarts in vivo and harbourfront for "cokezero" - for the wager lost to buttercup.. bro... cannot be found.. will continue searching.. as for your new wager.. hmm i also hope you will get your Nintendo.. haha

Dinner at the yipinguo was MORE than a disaster . Service: indescribable .. food spread: BAD... If not for the company of friends... it was erhmm... we celebrated Corinth's bday - :) *shiok rite - the whole cg celebrate ur birthday with u.. haha.. me: actually i prefer just to spend with my really good friends.. haha.. I'm rather private person still... wellwell.. hope it will NOt be as "memorable" as last year.. past is past.

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Part 2? Part one was American Wedding that i "rented" via the mio tv last night.. Part two was the after cg fellowship meeting . Movie of the nite - Mr Woodcock . And the deja vu thing was that both starred seann william scott - a name so foreign to me until tonite.. well.. it was rather crappy happy fun show except for the lady sitting next to me talking audibly to her friend on the right (incidentally her friend was my friend too..) Alright.. Pet Peeve - DND others by discussing what just went on the show ( a couple of times.. alrite... many times in decibel level higher than a whisper... inconsiderate...) If she wasn't a new acquaintance I got to know recently... I would have told her off - i.e. "mdm, would you please refrain from talking during the movie.." at least i thought that was basic courtesy...

smell of the rain...

i like the smell of rain (though i half suspect the smell arose from the chemicals in air? or whatever.. i like..) i like the feeling of raindrops falling on my skin - like shower... (if only the environment ain't that polluted.. and one won't fall sick that easily after drenched in rain.. )

Was reading this email (yes.. i know it's a good & inspirational email - I just don't buy the last bit abt forwarding the email... that ur prayer will come to pass and someone will call u at 11am - scary man.. like a scene from the Jap horror movie - the Ring) yet.. it touches me.. and the goosebumps felt when i was reading it in the office..

i like walking home... i like walking thru the pasir ris park - the fishing pond part- not the beach - (despite being 8plus and rather ulu & dark) it always clears the clouded mind. Yah, the mind gotta stop spinning then you can hear clearly.. to sum up the revelation in the train ride and the walk home today.... Two words that starts with S. Slow (down) and Sanctification. I can't hear properly with the mind spinning - standalone from the heart. Sanctify - Sacrifice... giving something for things of the eternal..

okie. head feels light.. time to hit the z-monster... ie sleep... zzzzzzzzzzzz

sudden inspiration... out of desperation..

alright, not really desperation... but see.. i realised that the birthday gal's card and envelope was not fully done.. ( in fact WIP - 20 %). After catching yet another crappy show - American wedding - okie.. it was not as crude as the Amercian pie 2.. though crap content is HIGH... it's funny and crappy - crappy mood (perhaps of the crab msn chat i'd with buttercup earlier today... and cuz of a silly wager made with buttercup - why over that subject i don't know why - buttercup was rather happy with his win - a cola - not Pepsi but coca.. aka coke.. (not the chemcial coke... ie carbon...)

okie... rather pleased with the assemble I'd created - out of whatever material i'd at home... drawing block..paper... lace.. embroidery thread & needle... suede leather.. congregated cupboard.. etc... it looks great.. keke.. as usual, took a picture of the creation.. thank You for the inspiration.. from no where.. and managed to finished up just moments ago.. funny that I've not recycled the design.. - actually i can't remember what I'd done previously though... and i realised that my fave pieces are those for my closer palies.. haha.. like what cooks attribute as to what's the secret ingredient to their yummilious creation - from the heart... (incidentally, i like the song that was titled this name too.. by another level.. wooo bobak.. haha distracted...) so ya.. felt gulity now for the less than perfect pieces made.. still from my heart... yet extent different... (anyway only those who received the pretty pieces get to read this - some actually don't though.. haha) oh well.. whatever....

headache...

the headache is back.. sad..........

leaving office now.. late...

I'm the only one left in my department...

man the sms flood is coming again...

I know it sounds mean but I just deleted a message from someone without reading much into it. cuz (a) it doesn't make sense to me (b) it is a forwarded/ forwarded msg (c) i don't have huge storage capacity in my mobile. I understand that likely this is how she tried to b more friendly.. but can't draw connection.. Gee... I can't pretend to be who i'm not.. well.. OPEN mind... big heart... think simple.. one month... if settled. i wash my hands okie?? Chances are the not so ah-tas are rather abundance... WHY?? Or is this my forsaking ah-tas-ness test...

Gee.. Can i feel less "ah-tas". Ah... interestingly the sms i sent out today came back to me from that person to counterask if I was interested to come along... hellos... okie.. ahtas acting up now... perhaps i should try putting on the bimbo hat... nah... it will never work... my gray matter can process thoughts intelligently.. well well.. whatever.. things will work out.. meanwhile. let me enjoy my wed and thur...

yay, logging off soon... meeting mabel 4 dinner... then pract... :)

crappy free mobvie

just installed the mio tv (if not for the foc no minimum charges for 1st 6 months, and the lady serving me seemed as if I don't subscribe, she won't be able to meet her quota, I won't bother to...) well. gave the free movie on the video on demand channel... big names.. yet crappy - the sheer enjoyment of the whole movie... was the song during the credits roll cuz... i might not be able to appreciate the arty side of the plot... but if not for the three words ".. starring jay chow".. i would not waste my two hours (almost) ya.. indeed a curse - the curse of the golden flowers... crap crap...

extending horizons..

"cheem" & ambitious title...

went for a deferred tax seminar by pwc today at holiday inn - hmmm think i enjoyed studying.. :) it was a rather dry topic.. yet i didn't fall prey to the zzzz monster... then in the midst of the seminar two words popped into mind - see title... wonder why? hmmm can have various interpretations to them.. very diverse... but not adverse...

the technician will be here to fix my mio thingy... so I gotta pack my rooom.. AND I realised.. My wardrobe is bursting.. so.. no more new friends to the existing occupants in the wardrobe.. (OR i gotta get rid of those unworn and forlorn pieces inside... but these made up part of my tangible assets.. ) Intended to start ironing those pieces that require ironing before squeezing them back to their cramp quarters... figured out it will take at least few hours.. Procrastinate to another day.. :)

felt accomplished... fixed up my room (not the ideal stage yet.. Gee I wish i have a walk-in wardrobe) done up two cards.. inspired only come at wee hours in the night.. (else.. i don't time too... ) ... I'm on leave today - Ya, if not how to fix up the mio thingy.. (i figured that I will chop the plan off within 6 months.. nothing on mio tv sounds interesting except bbc lifestyle.. and the sony channels.. though i won't have time to watch the tv too.. haha... so the mio tv box will be white-ellytusk)

craving for hOtcakes.. :) walking up in few hours to them i hope....


* can u spot something hidden within? - else... too bad..

updates...

bUttercUp was "complaining" that I wasn't blogging much recently... so let me do my "most loyal fan" an update since the last i'd blogged...

Hmmm attended my ex-colleague matrimony/ wedding dinner on Saturday... In between I managed to rush down to expo for service and met up with some of my cellgrp members after the wedding banquet.. WEdding... well.. it was more like a reunion with my ex-colleagues.. And hehe.. some couldn't recognise me cuz of my shorter tassles.. haha.. and points up the chio factor.. it was great catching up.. :) i guess the alcohol level must be deteriorating (oni drank two glasses of red wine), cuz i was rather crappy (thank God it only acted up while i went to meet up with June. joyce. susan and yansheng.. (wonder why he's the only chap left?) @ cineleisure.. think i was rather crappy and tipsy.. think the crap should be anointed crap.. haaha... at least janet is opening up to me.. :) cool.. though i think the mixture of alcohol & rich food made me nausea when i woke up the next morning.. hence couldn't serve... sigh..

Vision weekend.. yep.. oppty to sow again.. :) I hOpe this time, the reaping would not be just in kind ... :)

talk...talk... talk

I realised... I can be rather chatty at times... I think i far exceeded my daily quota for the day.. yesterday had a long catching up msn chat with lili... :)
today... had a long chat with xinlian.. till her battery went flat.. mine went empty first hence, spoke to her via speaker mode while charging.. Prior to that , I was happily chatting with janet, june, xinjun while sitting comfortably in backseat of yansheng's car .. and ahah.. heard a rather lame joke abt the origins of tam-pines.. ahha... think damien & yansheng must be rather irritated by the noisy bunch of gals at the backseat... haha.. then chatted some more with yansheng while he made a final turn back to my place - where i started my 2 hr chat with lian.. ahha..

Hmmm.. was surprised at the sudden short burst of verbal diarrhea.. haha.. ahha...

okie.. gonna be a long SAT... attending my ex-colleagues' matrimony at yishun in am.. then to service.. (not sure if i could serve in my dress n heels but standby mode anyway...) than back to harbourfront for the wedding dinner.. ahah.. another day talk talk...

ahah... ooohh... gee.. i just realised I would be working on 20th.. was supposed to meet up with my jc - eca pals.. - hmm it was a great meeting up with them.. interesting array mix of profession: a master diver, an engineer, a psychiatrist in training, a full time staff at his church bookstore (eh.. ya ncc but still serving God ba..) and haha me the tax acc. haha.. Despite not meeting up with them like years.... I reckon the trials and tribulations we went thru 2 years together serve a strong bond .. :) kayating trip .. considering.. haha.. the last time i step foot into one.. was during the rd island expedition a decade ago!! haha - silently to myself.. I look younger than them.. ahha.. benefits of baby fats - and the "hallelujah cream" - foc.. that works wonder for me..

feeling hyper.. haha... think it's the dance music in my iTunes.. aha

water.. walk on it...

impossible feat? being educated in science - and anyone with general knowledge, this would be a feat impossible... Yet, I believe that Peter did.. (as documented in the Gospels in the Bible). Yet, it was this morning that i read and re-read that verse... Mt14:28-29 it was Peter who asked Jesus to command him to walk on water... Yet it was also Peter who wavered in fear (of the stormy waves and wind) that resulted him in almost sinking... But he didn't sink and die.. At the very moment Peter cried out for help, Jesus stretched his hand out immediately and pulled him out of water... (Mt 14:31) and lamented on Peter's little faith...

Many a times, we asked God for open doors/ opportunities/breakthru'/ fulfillment of dreams & visions. We responded to that opportunity/dream. Yet, when we are in the midst of pursuing in, we caved in on the pressures. and we either are too tired of fighting the fire OR forgot to seek SOS. Yet, He is just at the end of the Helpline waiting for the distress call from you.


This seemed like the last hurdle that is always in the way... Jump over it.. O jump over it.... If my leaders believe in me, why can't i?

And immediately Jesus stretched out His hand and caught him, and said to him, “O you of little faith, why did you doubt?” Mt14:31

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Was it divine timing? Was supposed to skip prac today and meet pastor at the Suntec office but ended up meeting was cancelled (due to unforeseen circumstances), i ended up having dinner with my cgl(to be) and heehee hitch a ride to JW church for prac.

In all... the ride to JW was eh - long ride. long cuz of the long talk (no pun intended.) I guessed good and bad about that now my cgl is one of the closer friend that i can say anything and everything... Shall say it's just perfect timing to the morning Word... it not easy to try walking on water again after the near submerged... re-bouncing is not as easy as it seemed (unless u're a ball, fully pumped up... )

when faith and fear collide...

handicapped with no phones

Sigh... I brought out my w660i & razar.. One went flat on me while one's running low on battery life... might have to attend a last min meeting today.. - which meant that couldn't attend practice :( Gonna take a cab home to take my charger loh... else I would be uncontactable... donation to the cabby's kitty once more...

Happy children's day!

:) it's October 1st! Happy Children's Day!

a long sunday! A catching up sunday

It was a long sunday.. interestinly, the call time was changed to 815am - which i was not informed of - again?- hence the preceived to be on time at 815 bacame late... my fault?

anyway, despite of that... enjoyed the pnw today.. great presence of God and for the first time.. there were many camera panning at the choir today.. cuz we have a special part... the bridge... :) sad to say... some of the peeps just realised that choir not only create visual impact but CAN sing as well.. - hello.. we are mic-ed as well.. but then again, not many are trained to hear...

didn't stayed for service... [but sat service... i lifted what i really really want to Him and that settles it... :)] had a good talk with faith.. more of catching up... :) - way to go gal!! I guessed i can listen rather well.. kinda enjoy what i'm doing...

Met up with rach... after she rushed home to pass her keys to her sis... and met me at ps. It was a great catching up.. we found this quirky antique/vintage items/cafe called Electric Attic. Scretly took a snap of the dainty cakes and scones we had for tea - very english indeed... And all were yummilicious!

Afterwhich, we caught this movie that was only screening at one theatre in Singapore.. Sicko..that''s the movie title.. I like this documentary style of presentation.. and yes. the humor.. Oh, not forgetting to mention that the hall was only 40% filled with bulk of the audience - the cauasians.. I guessed not many Singaporean would appreciate this type of movie... Though i admit i was rather tempted to haha migrate to one of these european countries that offer univeral FREE healthcare service... Though the trade off for this free service - i should guess - would be higher income tax - else where would the funding come from??

Hmmm next stop - heeren.. sad, flowers of attic is closing down.. on 07 Oct 07. So sad.. bought two pairs of earrings at 9.90! What a deal! :) And s sweet fabric flower ring @ 3.50! And happily a slinky dress from ToSS! It was a good bargain at 36. :)

despite being a long day ( was out of my house for more than 14 hours!), it was great to catch up with my dearie palie.. cuz... hehe of the unspoken stuff we talked abt... haha.. like my long lost sister... :)

straight - aGain - I like

after one month of hair that curls at the end ... i had enuff... i decided to straighten it again... yay... :)

kinda pricey for the length of my hair.. but :) still preferred to let Jeanie my stylist of 5 years, though i was known as jasmine.. - an unknown middle name adopted cuz peeps can't pronouce hermione then.. haha! thanks to ivory for waiting half an hour with me for my hair to be ready... :)

came across this muffin stall @ Tangs basement called roll&roll.. they served delicious mini cup-type of flavoured egg tart at $1 each. The muffins tasted good too!

Serivce was great... I love the new worship song - though i personally feels that i like bel's rendition better.. :) I believe that vision/dream will come to pass...

Happy that vory is joining us for good (at least in the foreseable future..)think I enjoyed talkin to the w80 peeps better... like vory, june, janet, xinjun and damien.. ahah... perhaps 有代沟吧! But they are sure integrated into our cg. :)