by God's grace... I combed thru' 4 days class in 3.5 hours... Praying and believing that this will be the 1st and final time i take both tests... off to singpost nOw....
ooo.. completed sis belle card.. resembles a wedding card le... :0
Friday 29 September 2006
the mad rush day....
woke up without doing many of the TTD i intended... Did my songsheets.. in the am... then... rush off to class... in a cab.. cuz running late..
rush home after class cuz my guitarist not accessible to internet connection and printer.. Thank God class ended ard 530.. zapped off back to Pasir Ris... printed various keys... rushed off to the nearby photocopy shop to repricate the songsheets.. rushed off tO tampines.. yeah.. made it there by 650.
hmmm during the pre-cg prac.. once again.. silly things occured again.. Repent... Never would i take things lightly.. especially things of God... even if it is a prac.. ( just daunt upon me.. even sound check is like the real thing... wake up gal...) well.. my guitarist think G is too low for the praise... ended up once again.. overpowered by the 20+ pple.. (too used to projection at chest level... ~ consequence of singing alto since sec sch... ah... gotta expand my vocal range.. upwards... ) First was better... and i made a silly blunder (that i think not many noticed.. I condensesd the two verses into one... cuz i 4got the lyrics...) Yet.. ordinary my voice may be... God still came... Amazing... cuz its not me.. but He... - (was rather jittery that it will dip again.. but... nope.. though i was very tempted to go to the "operatic-worship-EYEs-wide-Open-amplifying sounding" sister to hush her... - steven has reminded her at least twice since last week... (and ya.. unlikely the first attempt.) And once again.. tonight... NEXT week.. if i witness EYES wide open Operatic move.. I will gently intervene....
5 languages of love... the main topic tonight... I thought my primary love language was "Words of Affirmation...".. checked my mail and did a quiz that alvin sent this morning.. interestingly, my primary love language is "Quality Time"! here's the details...
Here are your Results
You selected Words of Affirmation: 6 times
You selected Quality Time: 8 times
You selected Giving/Receiving Gifts: 6 times
You selected Acts of Service: 4 times
You selected Physical Touch: 6 times
Your primary love language is:
Quality Time
So what does that mean? Here is an explanation of the 5 love languages.
Application: The purpose of knowing your love language is to be a better communicator. Knowing what your primary love language is can help those around you show you love in a way that you understand. For example, if your wife's love language is acts of service, show her you love her by doing the dishes, rather than buy her flowers.
ACtually... it's a composite of almost all..
well.. I have to go START studying for my AIMS paper.. (ahha... two papers... in less than 8 hours time... )
rush home after class cuz my guitarist not accessible to internet connection and printer.. Thank God class ended ard 530.. zapped off back to Pasir Ris... printed various keys... rushed off to the nearby photocopy shop to repricate the songsheets.. rushed off tO tampines.. yeah.. made it there by 650.
hmmm during the pre-cg prac.. once again.. silly things occured again.. Repent... Never would i take things lightly.. especially things of God... even if it is a prac.. ( just daunt upon me.. even sound check is like the real thing... wake up gal...) well.. my guitarist think G is too low for the praise... ended up once again.. overpowered by the 20+ pple.. (too used to projection at chest level... ~ consequence of singing alto since sec sch... ah... gotta expand my vocal range.. upwards... ) First was better... and i made a silly blunder (that i think not many noticed.. I condensesd the two verses into one... cuz i 4got the lyrics...) Yet.. ordinary my voice may be... God still came... Amazing... cuz its not me.. but He... - (was rather jittery that it will dip again.. but... nope.. though i was very tempted to go to the "operatic-worship-EYEs-wide-Open-amplifying sounding" sister to hush her... - steven has reminded her at least twice since last week... (and ya.. unlikely the first attempt.) And once again.. tonight... NEXT week.. if i witness EYES wide open Operatic move.. I will gently intervene....
5 languages of love... the main topic tonight... I thought my primary love language was "Words of Affirmation...".. checked my mail and did a quiz that alvin sent this morning.. interestingly, my primary love language is "Quality Time"! here's the details...
You selected Words of Affirmation: 6 times
You selected Quality Time: 8 times
You selected Giving/Receiving Gifts: 6 times
You selected Acts of Service: 4 times
You selected Physical Touch: 6 times
Quality Time
So what does that mean? Here is an explanation of the 5 love languages.
| Your Score | Love Language | Explanation |
| 6 out of 12 | Words of Affirmation | Verbal compliments, or words of appreciation are powerful communicators of love. They are best expressed in simple, straightforward statements of affirmation such as: "You look great in that suit", "Do you ever look nice in that dress." Every time someone does something good, give him/her a verbal compliment. The object of love is not getting something you want but doing something for the well being of the one you love. It is a fact that when we receive affirming words we are far more likely to be motivated to reciprocate. Another dialect of affirming words is encouraging words. The word encourage means " to inspire courage". All of us have areas in which we feel insecure. That insecurity hinders us from accomplishing the positive things that we would like to do. The latent potential in our areas of insecurity may await someone uttering encouraging words to us. |
| 8 out of 12 | Quality Time | By quality time we mean giving someone your undivided attention. A central aspect of quality time is togetherness. Two people sitting in the same room are in close proximity, but they are not necessarily together. Togetherness has to do with focused attention. When a father is sitting on the floor, rolling a ball to his 2 year old, that brief moment, however long it last, they are together. However, if the father is talking on the phone while he rolls the ball, his attention is diluted. Quality time does not mean that we have to spend our together moments gazing into each other's eyes. The activity in which we are both engaged is incidental. The important thing emotionally is that we are spending focused time with each other The activity is a vehicle that creates the sense of togetherness. The important thing about the father rolling the ball to the 2 year old is not the activity itself, but the emotions that are created between the father and the child. |
| 6 out of 12 | Giving/Receiving Gifts | A gift is something you can hold in your hand. It is not the thought implanted only in the mind that counts, but the thought expressed in actually securing the gift and giving it as the expression of love. You must be thinking of someone to give that person a gift. The gift is a symbol of that thought. It doesn't matter whether it costs money. What is important is that you thought of that person. Gifts are visual symbols of love. Visual symbols of love are more important to some people than others. Because symbols do have emotional value. Gifts come in all sizes, colors and shapes. Some are expensive and others are free. To the individual whose primary love language is receiving gifts, the cost of the gift will matter little, unless it is greatly out of line with what you can afford. |
| 4 out of 12 | Acts of Service | By acts of service, it is meant doing things you know that your friend/spouse would like you to do. You seek to please him/her by serving them. Such actions include washing dishes, taking out the garbage, changing the baby's diaper, raking the leaves, walking the dog, vacuuming the carpet, etc. These activities require thought, planning, energy and effort. If done with a positive spirit, they are indeed expressions of love. Sometimes you may make requests for acts of service to be carried out. Requests can give direction to love, but demands can stop the flow of love. You can give guidance to love by making requests: "I wish you could wash the care, mow the grass, change the baby's diaper", etc. But remember that you cannot create the will to love. Each of us must decide daily to love or not to love. If we choose to love, then expressing it in the way in which our friend/spouse requests will make our love most effective emotionally. |
| 6 out of 12 | Physical Touch | We have long known that physical touch is a way of communicating emotional love. Numerous research projects in the area of child development have made that conclusion: Babies that are held, hugged and kissed develop a healthier emotional life than those who are left for long periods of time without physical contact. The importance of touching children is not a modern idea. The first century, the Hebrews living in Palestine, recognizing Jesus as the great teacher, brought their children to Him "to have him touch them." Wise parents in any culture are touching parents. Physical touch can make or break a relationship. It can communicate love or hate. A slap in the face is detrimental to any child but it is devastating to a child whose primary love language is touch. A tender hug communicates love to any child, but it shouts love to the child whose primary love language is physical touch. The same is true for adults. Physical touch is also a powerful vehicle for communicating marital love. Holding hands, kissing, embracing are all ways of communicating emotional love to one's spouse. For those whose primary love language is physical touch, without it they feel unloved. With it, their emotional tank is filled and they feel secure in the love of their spouse. |
Application: The purpose of knowing your love language is to be a better communicator. Knowing what your primary love language is can help those around you show you love in a way that you understand. For example, if your wife's love language is acts of service, show her you love her by doing the dishes, rather than buy her flowers.
ACtually... it's a composite of almost all..
well.. I have to go START studying for my AIMS paper.. (ahha... two papers... in less than 8 hours time... )
Thursday 28 September 2006
Wake up... wake up...
just have an array of interesting conversations.. in the span of two hours.... 1st 5 minutes... was once again.. challenged.. and given things to do.. and not just to do.. BUT to really to make it happen... i know you have given me many many chances... steven... thanks for having faith in me...next 45 minutes.. spent time to talk to and encourage and challenge darren... well.. to see him transforming make all the effort worthwhile.. caught last 15 min of the project runway.. Yikes.. realised that I'd forgotten to submit my attendence to alvin.. yIkes... then another call that lasted at most 5 to 10 minutes.. and ya.. was challenged.. and not just challenged.. but that I can't just say I try.. BUT it MUST happen... Hard pressed... hard pressed... bro alvin just drive home the point... i do want what's to come to come to pass right... BUT I must really develop the other S first... to attain the status... I know i'm to go for the next hcl class... I need to change the way I'm doing certain things....
AND... I still need to study for my AIMS... which is on FRIDAY.. and chances are cg will end ard 10+.. by the time i head home.. it will be 11.. gotta burn my midnight oil then... yikes.. And I haven't creATE sis belle's card that i promised jieyin i will make... AND ... I haven't do the songsheet yet.. And I haven't make the calls that I ought to.. and I haven't practise ..
bUsy.. I could use that excuse fOr a while... convenient? no.. this is a habit/ preference developed with passing of time... not that I love travelling.. but I'm used to it.. (afterall... I chose to travel at least 1 hour by bus to hcjc instead of opting for tj or vj.. cUz i believe I want to go for the best... and yes.. in case some think that my cg venue is always at my covenient plc.. the 1st cg i attended was somewhere near wtc? and it was farrrrrrrrrrr away from bedok.. (where I was staying then...) and yes.. I got home like 11+ to 12... And in case you wonder.. i usually get home ard 12... earliest 1130+ usually after cg on thurs... so.. what's the deal of reaching hOme 1230 (which is cuz u went fellowship and that's with the other cg).. you kept emphasising that now expo so near your home that's why u can go mutliple service.. HEY... I serve choir almost every sat/sun while service is still at Jurong west ok.. and where did i stay??? Is this just for a one time occurence... no.... I wish i could burst your bubble why you are living the way you are living...but I can't.. I wish i could give you more time...I wish i could... i wish i could give the 30+ of you the same amt of love and attention... I wish i have the strenght... Holy Spirit.. be my guide...
Yet, in spite of the aches of head.. heart.. pocket... it's worth it.. man may not appreciate it... but... so long He sees it.. it's enough... FOcus.. I need to focus...
things to do before i sleep
1. Practice the songs..
2. songsheet.. awaiting 3rd song... ( think would have to rush back home to print then meet..)
3. revise and tag AIMS (AIMS exam on fri!!)
4. sister belle's card - defer to thurs aft cg
5. prepare fri bs - defer to thurs aft cg
do i have ample excuses to "excuse" frm cgm tmw? YES.. would i listen to that convenient voice? na.... cuz it's my date with God!
AND... I still need to study for my AIMS... which is on FRIDAY.. and chances are cg will end ard 10+.. by the time i head home.. it will be 11.. gotta burn my midnight oil then... yikes.. And I haven't creATE sis belle's card that i promised jieyin i will make... AND ... I haven't do the songsheet yet.. And I haven't make the calls that I ought to.. and I haven't practise ..
bUsy.. I could use that excuse fOr a while... convenient? no.. this is a habit/ preference developed with passing of time... not that I love travelling.. but I'm used to it.. (afterall... I chose to travel at least 1 hour by bus to hcjc instead of opting for tj or vj.. cUz i believe I want to go for the best... and yes.. in case some think that my cg venue is always at my covenient plc.. the 1st cg i attended was somewhere near wtc? and it was farrrrrrrrrrr away from bedok.. (where I was staying then...) and yes.. I got home like 11+ to 12... And in case you wonder.. i usually get home ard 12... earliest 1130+ usually after cg on thurs... so.. what's the deal of reaching hOme 1230 (which is cuz u went fellowship and that's with the other cg).. you kept emphasising that now expo so near your home that's why u can go mutliple service.. HEY... I serve choir almost every sat/sun while service is still at Jurong west ok.. and where did i stay??? Is this just for a one time occurence... no.... I wish i could burst your bubble why you are living the way you are living...but I can't.. I wish i could give you more time...I wish i could... i wish i could give the 30+ of you the same amt of love and attention... I wish i have the strenght... Holy Spirit.. be my guide...
Yet, in spite of the aches of head.. heart.. pocket... it's worth it.. man may not appreciate it... but... so long He sees it.. it's enough... FOcus.. I need to focus...
things to do before i sleep
1. Practice the songs..
2. songsheet.. awaiting 3rd song... ( think would have to rush back home to print then meet..)
3. revise and tag AIMS (AIMS exam on fri!!)
4. sister belle's card - defer to thurs aft cg
5. prepare fri bs - defer to thurs aft cg
do i have ample excuses to "excuse" frm cgm tmw? YES.. would i listen to that convenient voice? na.... cuz it's my date with God!
Wednesday 27 September 2006
the sat.. the sun...the mon.. the tues...
i think he was rather surprised to see me at the choir stand tonight... don't think he know that I'm from choir... We exchanged smiles... (cuz it's impossible to wave cuz prayer meeting was about to start n we are both on stage!!) We exchanged looks when pastor ming asked who are in the midst of exams.. haa.. really encouraging.. :)
haha... don't get me wrong.. I'm not romantically attracted to him.. Just that it's a good feeling to find support in this "非常时间".. but really very blessed these couple of days...
Oh.. ya.. I cleared the M9 as well.. despite grabbing only 1 hour of zzz.. and being LATE (or rather slightly later) and despite entering the exam room huffing.. (I was practically brisk walking all the way from cityhall to suntec tower 2 in less than 10min!).. with time to spare and to check.. :)
hmmm got to know this gal from M9 tutorial... hmmm can click with her rather well... and am also blessed to have fellow ngo colleagues to be in the same aims class.. cUz one of them who didn't manage to clear the aims test 1st time rd actually gave me tips on how to study.. wa.. :)
hmmm well ... prayer meeting... wa.. two rounds of discipleship ... one rd at b4 ... the more heart piercing one at rieveria.. the four "S"s in life to build on to lead to the 5th S... Spirit.. Substance... Stature... Status... -- to Success...
I need to do what I need to do.. wOnder why I get to give bgr counselling when i dUn have the hands on session yet... haha.. or this is the hands on for what's yet to come...
oh.. I will miss my dearie sweetie bestie palie rAchel... when she leaves again this sat.. it was a yummilicious dinner @ 三盅两件。hope that I will be able to let u have the chance to take me ard aussie before u graduate okie.... and btw I don't really fancy the "新闻主播" (i know u know what i mean... or do u... heehee...)
service... wellwell... it was a lovely dovey service.. with the married couples renewing their wedding vows.. Can see the tears in some of their eyes.. touching moments... somehow just trigger the thought.. when would i be doing this too.. hmm.. like what one of my fave Corrinne May's tune goes.. "everything in its time..."
haha... don't get me wrong.. I'm not romantically attracted to him.. Just that it's a good feeling to find support in this "非常时间".. but really very blessed these couple of days...
Oh.. ya.. I cleared the M9 as well.. despite grabbing only 1 hour of zzz.. and being LATE (or rather slightly later) and despite entering the exam room huffing.. (I was practically brisk walking all the way from cityhall to suntec tower 2 in less than 10min!).. with time to spare and to check.. :)
hmmm got to know this gal from M9 tutorial... hmmm can click with her rather well... and am also blessed to have fellow ngo colleagues to be in the same aims class.. cUz one of them who didn't manage to clear the aims test 1st time rd actually gave me tips on how to study.. wa.. :)
hmmm well ... prayer meeting... wa.. two rounds of discipleship ... one rd at b4 ... the more heart piercing one at rieveria.. the four "S"s in life to build on to lead to the 5th S... Spirit.. Substance... Stature... Status... -- to Success...
I need to do what I need to do.. wOnder why I get to give bgr counselling when i dUn have the hands on session yet... haha.. or this is the hands on for what's yet to come...
oh.. I will miss my dearie sweetie bestie palie rAchel... when she leaves again this sat.. it was a yummilicious dinner @ 三盅两件。hope that I will be able to let u have the chance to take me ard aussie before u graduate okie.... and btw I don't really fancy the "新闻主播" (i know u know what i mean... or do u... heehee...)
service... wellwell... it was a lovely dovey service.. with the married couples renewing their wedding vows.. Can see the tears in some of their eyes.. touching moments... somehow just trigger the thought.. when would i be doing this too.. hmm.. like what one of my fave Corrinne May's tune goes.. "everything in its time..."
Saturday 23 September 2006
Wednesday 20 September 2006
85..
well... when i thought that it'll insufficient.. yet.. there's still some left... n0t exactly alot ... yet it's in excess...
I believe that RAIN and heavy rain will come sooon... not just will come but MUST come...
yet another parable...
I believe that RAIN and heavy rain will come sooon... not just will come but MUST come...
yet another parable...
Monday 18 September 2006
getting kinda... heavy...
i took a small step.. YEt.. the height of each step to the next floor SEEM to have suddenly increase in magnitude... PUSH is not helping.. Yes.. what you'd told me.. I already know.. yes.. I knOw.. I know what's required of me... YET... the road ahead.. seemed to be void of markings... should I head straight, left, right?
I thought help will come.. yes... they came... YEt I need to aid in the help too... (but that's just the beginning of what will be coming right?)
I wanted to tell you .. No, I don't know how to (the others were still ard)... My okays aren't really okay... I know you don't want to tell me the methods.. you want me to try it out myself and to seek the Source... I know you want to boost my confidence.. but the element of fear and uncertianty is cripping in as well...
I have two choice :: forward OR backward.. I choose the former...
yes.. recently... the sky seemed a bit darker... the weather a bit wetter... YET sun will still SHINE ever brightly when the dark clouds emptied all its h2o.. darkness never triumph.. without SUNlight.. how can you differentiate without day and night?
small request... can i hold on to the lifeline a bit longer before I set sail? OR.. if I do so... will i ever leave the dock?
I thought help will come.. yes... they came... YEt I need to aid in the help too... (but that's just the beginning of what will be coming right?)
I wanted to tell you .. No, I don't know how to (the others were still ard)... My okays aren't really okay... I know you don't want to tell me the methods.. you want me to try it out myself and to seek the Source... I know you want to boost my confidence.. but the element of fear and uncertianty is cripping in as well...
I have two choice :: forward OR backward.. I choose the former...
yes.. recently... the sky seemed a bit darker... the weather a bit wetter... YET sun will still SHINE ever brightly when the dark clouds emptied all its h2o.. darkness never triumph.. without SUNlight.. how can you differentiate without day and night?
small request... can i hold on to the lifeline a bit longer before I set sail? OR.. if I do so... will i ever leave the dock?
the phone call.. @ 1620 saturday
Despite being a short conversation, I was very touched by this overseas call I received during the break before choir final reporting time.. my dearie pal called just to find out how I fare in my 1st paper... I wished I talk longer with her... yet, I couldn't.. cuz was @ expo and in the midst of my members... gal, thanks for the long distance call.. though we didn't chat much... I'm really touched by your thoughtful gesture.. (it was always u calling.. I will make the exception on Nov 2 ok?)
gal... thanks for everything... will drOp u mail sooooon.... Pray that u'll be on the Dean list this semster okay.... Let's shine and excel in whereever He places us.. :) I miss U dearly...... missed our "porridge" days..
getting emotional now.. must be the works of the hormones... uh ... the bloated feeling.... :(
gal... thanks for everything... will drOp u mail sooooon.... Pray that u'll be on the Dean list this semster okay.... Let's shine and excel in whereever He places us.. :) I miss U dearly...... missed our "porridge" days..
getting emotional now.. must be the works of the hormones... uh ... the bloated feeling.... :(
Sunday 17 September 2006
k610i sent back again
yup... I sent the k610i tO the sony ericson svc centre... cuz.. in the short time frame of 4 days... It hanged and refused to reboot TWICE!! first hanging encounter was on Fri noon... went to Singtel for a one-to-one exchange (after making lotsa grievences to this lady called veejay..) Despite of the new handset... It failed again after service... It just "stared into space" For hours.... (the desperate measures tried... takig the battery out.. and reset... recharging.. etc..) nOpe.. it refused to resurrect... hence.. reverted back to my trusty n7260.. hopefully i'll get it back by tues.. (gotta wait 2 -3 working days...)
oh... for my M5.. it was a nerve wrecking experience.. cuz actually never really able to go thru' thoroughly all the material.. did only a couple of the "mock exam" of the many many... And aha.. to realise my ic wasn't where it was supposed to be when i was leaving for the exam.. haa... (finally found it in the hidden compartment of my wallet..) and took a cab down.. and aha... goodie good.. no time to revise further... in the exam hall.... saw some of my PSA classmates.. :) (good to be in the sch.. at least there's support... haha..) hmm were given 2 hours.. actually i finished the exam in less than an hour.. however.. the "kaisu" me decided to fully check thru' the 100 questions.. (Cuz passing grade is75 %) and haha.. some of the questions doesn't seemd like it came from the text.. haha... or maybe i didn't do enuff of the mock exam... at 1pm.. had already checked thrU' once.. still got ard 20 uncertain questions.. ahha.. however..decided that no pt wasting time.. and haha.. prayed.. felt good to press the "finish" button (despite when i first completed the exam.. i already sensed it's ok to submit my ans.. yet.. the kiasu me decided against it.. after going thru'.. Didn't make much changes to... ) well well.. was glad to see the msg to indicate i've passed the exam! Haha.. truly by God's grace.. ahha... cuz some of the questions .. i answered them by inspiration... ahha... thanks for u guys who have been praying for me... esp my encouragin bro in christ.. eugene... [haha.. ur friend eliane is in good hands.. :)].. carmen.. :) keke.. hope to see ya soon...
oh... for my M5.. it was a nerve wrecking experience.. cuz actually never really able to go thru' thoroughly all the material.. did only a couple of the "mock exam" of the many many... And aha.. to realise my ic wasn't where it was supposed to be when i was leaving for the exam.. haa... (finally found it in the hidden compartment of my wallet..) and took a cab down.. and aha... goodie good.. no time to revise further... in the exam hall.... saw some of my PSA classmates.. :) (good to be in the sch.. at least there's support... haha..) hmm were given 2 hours.. actually i finished the exam in less than an hour.. however.. the "kaisu" me decided to fully check thru' the 100 questions.. (Cuz passing grade is75 %) and haha.. some of the questions doesn't seemd like it came from the text.. haha... or maybe i didn't do enuff of the mock exam... at 1pm.. had already checked thrU' once.. still got ard 20 uncertain questions.. ahha.. however..decided that no pt wasting time.. and haha.. prayed.. felt good to press the "finish" button (despite when i first completed the exam.. i already sensed it's ok to submit my ans.. yet.. the kiasu me decided against it.. after going thru'.. Didn't make much changes to... ) well well.. was glad to see the msg to indicate i've passed the exam! Haha.. truly by God's grace.. ahha... cuz some of the questions .. i answered them by inspiration... ahha... thanks for u guys who have been praying for me... esp my encouragin bro in christ.. eugene... [haha.. ur friend eliane is in good hands.. :)].. carmen.. :) keke.. hope to see ya soon...
Saturday 16 September 2006
less than 3 hours
finally.. I've finished the notes.. did two papers... and ya... going to take my exam later...
slept less than 2 to 3 hours ba... I pray for strength.. and wisdom when i sit for the paper...
the first time (or rather second time i miss prac... 1st time was due to being in taipei in jul.. second time.. this wk.. cuz last nite not feeling well... and tis am.. got exam...)
I've confidence that I'll get 75% at least (cUZ that's the passing grade!)...
slept less than 2 to 3 hours ba... I pray for strength.. and wisdom when i sit for the paper...
the first time (or rather second time i miss prac... 1st time was due to being in taipei in jul.. second time.. this wk.. cuz last nite not feeling well... and tis am.. got exam...)
I've confidence that I'll get 75% at least (cUZ that's the passing grade!)...
Friday 15 September 2006
blogging in the undescrible language...
ha.. was extremely tired after cg... and ahha... think i almost blogged in tongues.. hence the earlier post if U seen it was deleted.. cuz it was in a language that I dun even understand.... tsk tsk...
still at pg 34... gOtta cover another 160++ by end of today.....
vOry dear.... willl be praying for U... has 50 given birth yet? :)
still at pg 34... gOtta cover another 160++ by end of today.....
vOry dear.... willl be praying for U... has 50 given birth yet? :)
the sOur that keep me gOing...
hmmm... this is me salvaging my dinner/supper after cg.. okie.. this is part of my supper (together with baby carrots.. raw).. think that I've lost the craving fOr food.. I mean sometimes I will have a certain craving but when the food comes.. I just lost the appetite... man.. am i having sOme eating disorder? haha... AM done only 25 % of the text.. gonna plough thru'.. actually should be alright...
am comtemplating should i attend prac tonight.. cuz my test is on sat late am so... can't go sat prac but can make it to serve... And ya... serving.. was telling eugene that I want to give my one month notice too... (i have to do that soon ... cuz bro alvin already told me to on tUes... ) tsk tsk.... and before cg today... bro steven told me that TOnight was the LAST night for me to observe only... (translate: from this day forth.. time for mione to do her practicum... ) how... ? stuck in between.. actually like what Eugene said.. I gotta know the seasons in time.. yup... tis the season... and really the days of new things......
speaking of NEW things.. the pix was taken with my new RED SE K610i! Bought it at reduced rate cuz I upgraded my plan to the iTwo value on tues.. so entitled to $120 3G phone rebate (plus the $100 disc on the fone)... am intending to trade in my NK7260 if really tight... hmmm figured that my nk7260 cannot make it already.. the inbox memory is fully utilised le...
back to mugging... aiming to score at least 80%!
Thursday 14 September 2006
things can be turned ard...
this morning.. I'd absent-mindedly put my white cardi into the washing machine.. together with other clothes... including my dark purple mng jacket.. Assuming that the colours would not run.. I happily went on to do other things...
when the laundry was done.. lo and behold.. my pure white cardi had turned lilac! Realised that the purple dye from my jacket has seeped into the cardi... Yikes....I was flabbergasted as i really like this white cardi.. plus only wore it less than 5 times.. and ya.. tsk tsk..
was contemplating to just like it stay lilac when chlorine flashed across my mind.. Ah uh.. HCL should do the trick.... happily went to the cabinet and fish out the smelly chlorine... after an hour of good soaking... It has been restored to its whiter than white shade!!
when u are at your wits end, when all circumstances seemed bleak.. the solution will come...if only you are attentive to the voice within...
I could have resigned to the fate that I'm gonna bear with the lilac cardi.. but that was not what i want... Or i could choose the follow the less than likely possiblity... cuz if i had not tried, would i know?
While waiting for the cardi to transformed back to white again... was fiddling with my guitar.. (cuz eugene wanted me to prac G Em C D before the lesson later.. ) might nt be the best strumming but hey.. the presence of God just came suddenly.. and instantly refreshed... it's really not the skills but the heart that He sees...
when the laundry was done.. lo and behold.. my pure white cardi had turned lilac! Realised that the purple dye from my jacket has seeped into the cardi... Yikes....I was flabbergasted as i really like this white cardi.. plus only wore it less than 5 times.. and ya.. tsk tsk..
was contemplating to just like it stay lilac when chlorine flashed across my mind.. Ah uh.. HCL should do the trick.... happily went to the cabinet and fish out the smelly chlorine... after an hour of good soaking... It has been restored to its whiter than white shade!!
when u are at your wits end, when all circumstances seemed bleak.. the solution will come...if only you are attentive to the voice within...
I could have resigned to the fate that I'm gonna bear with the lilac cardi.. but that was not what i want... Or i could choose the follow the less than likely possiblity... cuz if i had not tried, would i know?
While waiting for the cardi to transformed back to white again... was fiddling with my guitar.. (cuz eugene wanted me to prac G Em C D before the lesson later.. ) might nt be the best strumming but hey.. the presence of God just came suddenly.. and instantly refreshed... it's really not the skills but the heart that He sees...
Moreover He said to me: "Son of man, receive into your heart all My words I speak to you, and hear with your ears."
Ezekiel 3:10
the loose stitch
have you encountered situations whereby you wished that it could be kept under wraps always..
Take for example, a knitted top.. once u have a loose stitch.. if u tugged and pulled at the mini hole created by the stitch.. the hole will grow in size ... and in due time.. diaster strikes and u might be left with the decontructed top! (i.e yarns messed up!)
hmmm... never imagine tugging at the hole... yet i did that last week... And now.. the hole just magnified.. Well.. at least... it's cleaner now...
left in this mess of yarns.. but I know I can sort it one strand at a time.. with His help...
Take for example, a knitted top.. once u have a loose stitch.. if u tugged and pulled at the mini hole created by the stitch.. the hole will grow in size ... and in due time.. diaster strikes and u might be left with the decontructed top! (i.e yarns messed up!)
hmmm... never imagine tugging at the hole... yet i did that last week... And now.. the hole just magnified.. Well.. at least... it's cleaner now...
left in this mess of yarns.. but I know I can sort it one strand at a time.. with His help...
the missing file for my usb slots
wonder if my pc was under some virus attack cuz my usb drives were gone yesterday.. BAd.. I almost resorted to calling the iBM again.. YEt.. was prompted to put in the 16 recovery CDs created via IBM Rescue And Recovery.. (system restore was not successful) Praise the Lord that it came back to life... after 4 hours plus... (cuz was scanning.. and wrecking my head.. breakthru' came after i shouted SOS to God..)
rectifying my iTunes now...
then back to study..... I need to and WILL ACE the exam this sat! :) praise the LOrd that it will end by 130! still can go down to expo in time...
rectifying my iTunes now...
then back to study..... I need to and WILL ACE the exam this sat! :) praise the LOrd that it will end by 130! still can go down to expo in time...
Monday 11 September 2006
9-11 the day of new beginning..
September 11
Today is 5th anniversary of the 9-11 attack @ WTC...
Today also marks my 1st day @ the Elite program..
haha.. went there with mixed feelings.. cuz don't know anyone there... until lunch hour... haha.. we were encouraged to lunch with one another.. and ended up having lunch with 3 new friends i got to know.. ( though ended up two of them gotta meet with their manager... and left just me and the other guy..) haha.. guess what... the other guy, weitian.. is also from ngo. haha.. small world... and cuz the other two were there... we used certian lingo..and without spelling out in the obv.. we know that we are both harvesters.. ahaha... [no wonder the familar look.. keke.. maybe saw him @ taipei.. he went taipei emerge too...]
ended up having lunch with him as well as two of weitian's friend that we met at the foodcourt... hmm one of them was one of the sisters that we met while doing the calling up @ new life church before the conference..
funny that the distance just narrowed once we realised that we're from the same spiritual family... haha...
received my two text.. man.. 200 plus pages in 2 days... and for the other module, the text is like 400pages thick to be covered in 3.5 days!
Thank God I did FM in year 2 else... arggh... SAd to say.. my financial calculator is missing ... and i only used it less than 10 times! and it cost 70+! now.. gotta invest in another....
Gotta call 20 pple in two days.. (oh.. this is not my assignment from the course..but ya... what I need to do.. cuz I volunteered to take the reminder...) man.. my hp bill reaches rocket high again... the 200++ again.. I think I need to upgrade my plan... URgh! Maybe i will take the iTwo (300min airtime) or should i take iTwo Plus (700min airtime)? think i'll take itwo first ba...
I know His providence will come! okie.. gonna meet mom for dinner...
carmen.. thanks for ya sms!! :) hope i can see ya this sat!! with gOOd news too.. looking forward to lunch with u! =)
Today is 5th anniversary of the 9-11 attack @ WTC...
Today also marks my 1st day @ the Elite program..
haha.. went there with mixed feelings.. cuz don't know anyone there... until lunch hour... haha.. we were encouraged to lunch with one another.. and ended up having lunch with 3 new friends i got to know.. ( though ended up two of them gotta meet with their manager... and left just me and the other guy..) haha.. guess what... the other guy, weitian.. is also from ngo. haha.. small world... and cuz the other two were there... we used certian lingo..and without spelling out in the obv.. we know that we are both harvesters.. ahaha... [no wonder the familar look.. keke.. maybe saw him @ taipei.. he went taipei emerge too...]
ended up having lunch with him as well as two of weitian's friend that we met at the foodcourt... hmm one of them was one of the sisters that we met while doing the calling up @ new life church before the conference..
funny that the distance just narrowed once we realised that we're from the same spiritual family... haha...
received my two text.. man.. 200 plus pages in 2 days... and for the other module, the text is like 400pages thick to be covered in 3.5 days!
Thank God I did FM in year 2 else... arggh... SAd to say.. my financial calculator is missing ... and i only used it less than 10 times! and it cost 70+! now.. gotta invest in another....
Gotta call 20 pple in two days.. (oh.. this is not my assignment from the course..but ya... what I need to do.. cuz I volunteered to take the reminder...) man.. my hp bill reaches rocket high again... the 200++ again.. I think I need to upgrade my plan... URgh! Maybe i will take the iTwo (300min airtime) or should i take iTwo Plus (700min airtime)? think i'll take itwo first ba...
I know His providence will come! okie.. gonna meet mom for dinner...
carmen.. thanks for ya sms!! :) hope i can see ya this sat!! with gOOd news too.. looking forward to lunch with u! =)
it's not soo scary afterall
weekend just whizzed by..
began sat with doubting thots again.. yet just overcome them with prayers and claiming THAT verse the propel me the ultimate decision..
went to office to make payment and collect the "model" QnA. Saw a lot of familiar faces... like bro Frankie.. and some the ck leaders .. afterwhich i went back to my old office to settle the handover stuff (ya, my previous boss just decide to load me with loads of responsiblities... and I didn't manage to clear them all by Fri cuz gotta fly to meet cuiqi for the choir prac) and the customary exit/ thank you email.. ahha..
left novena at abt 230. Intended to dump things home 1st then head for service, but receive a fone call at 2 from a member.. and she can really talk!!! *yet LATE super LATE for service despite agreeing to meet me at 430.
Service was great and glad that I was sitting with chris @ echo (we were there to fish but didn't catch any.. ) but really wept a lot during ministry time.. same goes for service this morning... while in the choir and off stage... hope my teary face not captured on screen though..
And was really encouraged by what Steven told me before and after service... And ya.. after the cg debrief.. he spoke to bro ken, long ,eugene and me... and i was teary-eyed once again when he spoke to me.. cuz the presence of God just came and really there are things that I didn't tell him and yet he knows.. cuz He hears...
the after svc meeting was nerve wrecking.. yes.. I will be proactive and do something abt it.. And yet.. I know I can do it...
And by the time i got home ard 1130.. mom almost zzz and when i wanted to break the news after my shower.. she'd zzzz
Arose from my sleep with greater anxiety and fear... prayed.. and worshipped.. aiya.. calm down a bitsy... fell back to zzz and woke up ard 730.. washed up and flew down for choir... was still jittery still cuz haven't told mom and ya.. sch starting next day...
k.. service.. then prayer meeting... then "my breakfastluchdinner" - ops haven't paid steven yet.. aiya... gotta pay him on tues.. then the discussion.. finally reached the time to meet my parents...
ha.. funny that the first i told was my brother.. and that his reaction is rather encouraging.. I guessed he has always done the unconventional way.. ha.. he got a bachelor in Science.. yet he is in the media line.. and ya... an array of very diverisfied jobs.. like reporter.. editor for lifestyle mag, free lance reviewer/editor.. and now.. writer for a local entertaiment mag.. and a biz... I volunteered my accounting service at nominal charges..
and to my mom.. it's rather easy.. was rather daunting at first.. but then it was alright after she leant the reason why.. (the "encouraging "boss that I had a bad flimsy byebye handshake with... )
so.. ha.. it ended well.. just that dad doesn't know yet.. cUz he's rather "comfort" seeking.. and so,, went back to expo JL sale after dinner at bedok interchange... and bought some stuff.. but most importantly.. spent time with mom and bro...
God is good.. He has already assured me that everything's alright.. I still have yet fully learn the sensing the right voice and doing at the right moment... so ya... all's ok at home abt my interesting new j0b...
and yes carmen.. I will inform you aft i clear them all...
and eugene.. thanks for all u've done.... much appreciated
going to QT nw.. byeeeeeee
began sat with doubting thots again.. yet just overcome them with prayers and claiming THAT verse the propel me the ultimate decision..
went to office to make payment and collect the "model" QnA. Saw a lot of familiar faces... like bro Frankie.. and some the ck leaders .. afterwhich i went back to my old office to settle the handover stuff (ya, my previous boss just decide to load me with loads of responsiblities... and I didn't manage to clear them all by Fri cuz gotta fly to meet cuiqi for the choir prac) and the customary exit/ thank you email.. ahha..
left novena at abt 230. Intended to dump things home 1st then head for service, but receive a fone call at 2 from a member.. and she can really talk!!! *yet LATE super LATE for service despite agreeing to meet me at 430.
Service was great and glad that I was sitting with chris @ echo (we were there to fish but didn't catch any.. ) but really wept a lot during ministry time.. same goes for service this morning... while in the choir and off stage... hope my teary face not captured on screen though..
And was really encouraged by what Steven told me before and after service... And ya.. after the cg debrief.. he spoke to bro ken, long ,eugene and me... and i was teary-eyed once again when he spoke to me.. cuz the presence of God just came and really there are things that I didn't tell him and yet he knows.. cuz He hears...
the after svc meeting was nerve wrecking.. yes.. I will be proactive and do something abt it.. And yet.. I know I can do it...
And by the time i got home ard 1130.. mom almost zzz and when i wanted to break the news after my shower.. she'd zzzz
Arose from my sleep with greater anxiety and fear... prayed.. and worshipped.. aiya.. calm down a bitsy... fell back to zzz and woke up ard 730.. washed up and flew down for choir... was still jittery still cuz haven't told mom and ya.. sch starting next day...
k.. service.. then prayer meeting... then "my breakfastluchdinner" - ops haven't paid steven yet.. aiya... gotta pay him on tues.. then the discussion.. finally reached the time to meet my parents...
ha.. funny that the first i told was my brother.. and that his reaction is rather encouraging.. I guessed he has always done the unconventional way.. ha.. he got a bachelor in Science.. yet he is in the media line.. and ya... an array of very diverisfied jobs.. like reporter.. editor for lifestyle mag, free lance reviewer/editor.. and now.. writer for a local entertaiment mag.. and a biz... I volunteered my accounting service at nominal charges..
and to my mom.. it's rather easy.. was rather daunting at first.. but then it was alright after she leant the reason why.. (the "encouraging "boss that I had a bad flimsy byebye handshake with... )
so.. ha.. it ended well.. just that dad doesn't know yet.. cUz he's rather "comfort" seeking.. and so,, went back to expo JL sale after dinner at bedok interchange... and bought some stuff.. but most importantly.. spent time with mom and bro...
God is good.. He has already assured me that everything's alright.. I still have yet fully learn the sensing the right voice and doing at the right moment... so ya... all's ok at home abt my interesting new j0b...
and yes carmen.. I will inform you aft i clear them all...
and eugene.. thanks for all u've done.... much appreciated
going to QT nw.. byeeeeeee
Friday.. the LAST day
Oh ya, the friday whereby it marked my last day at 1st job.. It was an experience I think that will stay for sometime.. U know how some might just seemed to be such chummy pals and yet.. can't even bother to say bye... and some who just appeared to be so friendly while they need ur help at work .. simply "bo-chup" when it's your last day... AND the best.. have u ever shoke hands with others whereby just one handshake u can sense the sincerity? I was shocked to find out that despite at management level.. she can give a half-hearted filmsy handshake.. (i would rather u not to.) hmm enuff of the PR-type of pple... Back to the real people that really touches me...
Vic got a friend to bring back miffy bag and handphone strap for me from Jap...
the 29 colleagues: ex- tLs, ex-teammates, my sisters@work , and friends that blessed me with the $... (which part of the went to the payment of the M9/M5 course fee... heeehee...) Am rather surprised that sooo many ah... May, the overall coordinator of the farewell gift.. went to all the 3 kinokuniya outlets to search for Miffy merchandise for me.. wa... so sweet right? ha.. though the no. of people that wanted to contribute to my farewell gift does surprised her .. cuz she had bought this b4 size card and it was filled upfully with small handwritting... ...to extent some gotta write at the back...
And.. my support staff actually bought me a gift too..
And.. two of the gals that I seldom talk to gave me a bright yellow bangle... and miffy window stickers! wa.. so sweet that they actually went thru the trouble to bUy that...
And.. the two temp staff (part of the project personnel that I was supposed to supervise) came to extend their well wishes really surprised me... Think they were SHOCKED why would I want to leave this comfortable job!
Guess what... i didn't shed tears though... guess I would miss the times spent but.. am sure will keep in touch to the more than just colleagues/bosses-turned friends..
It has been an interesting friday.. ended by going choir prac... and o'nite prayer meeting and the near experience of being locked out of the house (cuz I told my parents that I'll be home ard 1+ to 2+ cuz of O'nite prayer meeting... and gotta return home despite I want to stay till 5.. the 1st o'nite soo far that I return home half way thru'.) was very tempted to just return home (cuz i have yet broke the news to my mom then.... ) but i know.. if i did, it would spell "compromise" and ha... road to no return...
Yet in the Prayer meeting was really ministered to... Just seemed that after leaving the place of comfort.. the presence of GOd has just grown stronger over my life... actually since last sunday service... It was THAT good.. cuz I haven't have the "waterfall" experience in service for some time... God is real... He really knows what we are going thru....
Vic got a friend to bring back miffy bag and handphone strap for me from Jap...
the 29 colleagues: ex- tLs, ex-teammates, my sisters@work , and friends that blessed me with the $... (which part of the went to the payment of the M9/M5 course fee... heeehee...) Am rather surprised that sooo many ah... May, the overall coordinator of the farewell gift.. went to all the 3 kinokuniya outlets to search for Miffy merchandise for me.. wa... so sweet right? ha.. though the no. of people that wanted to contribute to my farewell gift does surprised her .. cuz she had bought this b4 size card and it was filled upfully with small handwritting... ...to extent some gotta write at the back...
And.. my support staff actually bought me a gift too..
And.. two of the gals that I seldom talk to gave me a bright yellow bangle... and miffy window stickers! wa.. so sweet that they actually went thru the trouble to bUy that...
And.. the two temp staff (part of the project personnel that I was supposed to supervise) came to extend their well wishes really surprised me... Think they were SHOCKED why would I want to leave this comfortable job!
Guess what... i didn't shed tears though... guess I would miss the times spent but.. am sure will keep in touch to the more than just colleagues/bosses-turned friends..
It has been an interesting friday.. ended by going choir prac... and o'nite prayer meeting and the near experience of being locked out of the house (cuz I told my parents that I'll be home ard 1+ to 2+ cuz of O'nite prayer meeting... and gotta return home despite I want to stay till 5.. the 1st o'nite soo far that I return home half way thru'.) was very tempted to just return home (cuz i have yet broke the news to my mom then.... ) but i know.. if i did, it would spell "compromise" and ha... road to no return...
Yet in the Prayer meeting was really ministered to... Just seemed that after leaving the place of comfort.. the presence of GOd has just grown stronger over my life... actually since last sunday service... It was THAT good.. cuz I haven't have the "waterfall" experience in service for some time... God is real... He really knows what we are going thru....
DISCIPLINE
From the leadership Files ... this week... "Discipline"
Discipline is doing the things that you do not want to do.
Discipline is also choosing not to do something that you want to do.
Discipline is also consistently doing the things that you should do.
Discipline is the making of character; indiscipline, the unmaking of character.
Doing something repeatedly creates a habit; a way of life.
Our habits form our lives, for good or bad.
The world lies at the feet of the disciplined.
Friday 8 September 2006
the effective last day...
hmmm... yups.. this will be the last working day @ my 1st jOb... mixed feelings.. Yet... by faith.. I know that what started well .. will end better.. and yes.. the new ground I'm mOving to will yield better returns...
Thursday 7 September 2006
ownership... taking ownership...
consider this a previlege or jitterys-struck oppty.. hmmm really need to rise up.. cuz it's the 2nd time that Pastor said that le.. else.. unteachable rite....
the 2nd last day.. having more jitterys.. YEt I know.. all things work for those who loved God and are called according to His purpose...
I'm in the people's biz... :) in and out...
the 2nd last day.. having more jitterys.. YEt I know.. all things work for those who loved God and are called according to His purpose...
I'm in the people's biz... :) in and out...
the devil wears prada -- go catch it!
almost didn't want to watch this ... but glad that I did.. (actually the motivating factor cuz pastor asked us to.. ...)
interestingly that God seemed to be talking to me whenever I watch movies recently... do watch it... cuz it just sets u thinking .. (and ya.. it's humourous too.....)
looking sharp... be relevant... reinvent.. out of the box... essentially... if you are doing things you're passionate about.. you give the best.. you will be motivated from within (and not without) and without any need of external factors..
looking forward to the new start... cuz it's not led by moine.. bUt by the Creator of all things... things may be uncertain... bUt I'm not gOnna be like the children of Israel .. to look back to the good old days (while in captivity)
=== today is thursday... Friday is a day away... and somehow.. the melody of Air Supply's goodbye kept echoing... and i hope not tmw.. else.. a teary me... Wrote some of the "thank U" cards.. cuz ya.. have been treated for lunch since monday... and some farewell gifts (from least unexpected) and am very touched that some of them actually went to the trouble to get authentic Miffy mechandise for me... cuz ya.. I think it's rather evident that I like this bUnny rabbit... (no particular reason.. just like it since as a toddler..)
late.. early ba... hmmm was expecting to just sit and relax and be ministered... cuz i only received the to-do-all sms on my way home... after the movie.. (though i was half expecting it... )... okie.. let me catch a few winks and .. yay.. 2nd last wOrk day will begin.. =)
interestingly that God seemed to be talking to me whenever I watch movies recently... do watch it... cuz it just sets u thinking .. (and ya.. it's humourous too.....)
looking sharp... be relevant... reinvent.. out of the box... essentially... if you are doing things you're passionate about.. you give the best.. you will be motivated from within (and not without) and without any need of external factors..
looking forward to the new start... cuz it's not led by moine.. bUt by the Creator of all things... things may be uncertain... bUt I'm not gOnna be like the children of Israel .. to look back to the good old days (while in captivity)
=== today is thursday... Friday is a day away... and somehow.. the melody of Air Supply's goodbye kept echoing... and i hope not tmw.. else.. a teary me... Wrote some of the "thank U" cards.. cuz ya.. have been treated for lunch since monday... and some farewell gifts (from least unexpected) and am very touched that some of them actually went to the trouble to get authentic Miffy mechandise for me... cuz ya.. I think it's rather evident that I like this bUnny rabbit... (no particular reason.. just like it since as a toddler..)
late.. early ba... hmmm was expecting to just sit and relax and be ministered... cuz i only received the to-do-all sms on my way home... after the movie.. (though i was half expecting it... )... okie.. let me catch a few winks and .. yay.. 2nd last wOrk day will begin.. =)
Wednesday 6 September 2006
Mid week
Another 3 more days and i will be clearing my leave...
Kinda regret the email that I sent yesterday afternoon... too bad.. too late to regret now...
Hmm... had a REALLY weird dream on Monday.. jUst made me think wonder mORe.. and creative thOts aflow... but i don't want.. cuz... it just tooooo eh.. impossible.. cuz if it is possible.. it should have already been done... hmmm.. ( it's ok if u don't comprehend...)
had a good chat over the msn with my two bestie palies.. voRy .. and r8ch.. looking forward to see the offsprings of 50 & seth.. the longer u know someone... the easier to share...
just received a msg from claire... eh.. i don't know how to reply... tsk tsk tsk
hmmm learnt from huiling that lian has been telling her that I constantly challenged her recently.. didn't really felt so.. was just sharing with her... maybe she can't take that level yet.. but who else is there.. hmmm... Ah ha... maybe you who is reading this...
Vicky.. COngrats! I know u will make it to the maangement trainnee program!! Jia you!!!
Kinda regret the email that I sent yesterday afternoon... too bad.. too late to regret now...
Hmm... had a REALLY weird dream on Monday.. jUst made me think wonder mORe.. and creative thOts aflow... but i don't want.. cuz... it just tooooo eh.. impossible.. cuz if it is possible.. it should have already been done... hmmm.. ( it's ok if u don't comprehend...)
had a good chat over the msn with my two bestie palies.. voRy .. and r8ch.. looking forward to see the offsprings of 50 & seth.. the longer u know someone... the easier to share...
just received a msg from claire... eh.. i don't know how to reply... tsk tsk tsk
hmmm learnt from huiling that lian has been telling her that I constantly challenged her recently.. didn't really felt so.. was just sharing with her... maybe she can't take that level yet.. but who else is there.. hmmm... Ah ha... maybe you who is reading this...
Vicky.. COngrats! I know u will make it to the maangement trainnee program!! Jia you!!!
Saturday 2 September 2006
Emotionally locked up?
verbally... i guessed there's prolly one on earth that hears the most rambles from me..
I think I find it difficult at times to pour out audibly compared to the written form .. hence i blogged.. Yet.. it just revealed what I oughta do...
On wed.. someone asked me how i was doing... really i wanted to share and pour... yet it was not an appropriate time (just aft lunch hour) and yes.. I don't want to eat up too much of his time... ya.. I know he could sense that I wasn't in tip top condition.. yet.. i guessed he wanted me to confide rather than pry...
last nite and tonight .. I just felt that the question was sorta directed at me? or am i over sensitive... ? Am learning to don the color "clear". Trust is not built overnight though... yet, at times.. the question is.. "who want to listen?"
Emotional.. definitely not bottled up person.. else.. haha.. i won't be blogging extensively.. Funny why i find it easier for the whole wide world to read abt me.. my rantings.. than to confide in a real tangible person and ya.. I guessed ya.. pride.. not that easy to get inside... i need to overcome that...
yes.. it has been a tired journey.. i knew I oughta cut away one.. yet.. the one I know I oughta cut away is the one that I really enjoy.. and I still believe that I could make it one day... YET... the immediate task on hand.. in my own ability and make-up.. I know I couldn't.. IT's really not me.. YET.. my Creator thinks I could..
I really don't know what lies ahead.. Yet.. I will press on and trust..
going to office tmw.. ya.. I'm going to PSA (hahe not the port.. but..) on 11 Sept... it's exciting time... 911...
I gotta cease procrastinating... and let my family know that i'll cease serving the nation directly sooon.. yet.. I still believe that tax is necessary.. but now.. I'm just on the giver side of the fence..
and yes.. I will first write an email to explain my "ok" reply on wed.. and then ceased just replying "OK"..
o... Sept.. 2 cards to be made.. :)
I think I find it difficult at times to pour out audibly compared to the written form .. hence i blogged.. Yet.. it just revealed what I oughta do...
On wed.. someone asked me how i was doing... really i wanted to share and pour... yet it was not an appropriate time (just aft lunch hour) and yes.. I don't want to eat up too much of his time... ya.. I know he could sense that I wasn't in tip top condition.. yet.. i guessed he wanted me to confide rather than pry...
last nite and tonight .. I just felt that the question was sorta directed at me? or am i over sensitive... ? Am learning to don the color "clear". Trust is not built overnight though... yet, at times.. the question is.. "who want to listen?"
Emotional.. definitely not bottled up person.. else.. haha.. i won't be blogging extensively.. Funny why i find it easier for the whole wide world to read abt me.. my rantings.. than to confide in a real tangible person and ya.. I guessed ya.. pride.. not that easy to get inside... i need to overcome that...
yes.. it has been a tired journey.. i knew I oughta cut away one.. yet.. the one I know I oughta cut away is the one that I really enjoy.. and I still believe that I could make it one day... YET... the immediate task on hand.. in my own ability and make-up.. I know I couldn't.. IT's really not me.. YET.. my Creator thinks I could..
I really don't know what lies ahead.. Yet.. I will press on and trust..
going to office tmw.. ya.. I'm going to PSA (hahe not the port.. but..) on 11 Sept... it's exciting time... 911...
I gotta cease procrastinating... and let my family know that i'll cease serving the nation directly sooon.. yet.. I still believe that tax is necessary.. but now.. I'm just on the giver side of the fence..
and yes.. I will first write an email to explain my "ok" reply on wed.. and then ceased just replying "OK"..
o... Sept.. 2 cards to be made.. :)
Interesting message
hmmm on thurs afternoon... when i came back from lunch.. saw an sms from gwen.. hmmm.. interestingly.. she asked me a question on behalf for bro andrew... whether i've a bf? hmmm.. i wonder why... puzzled... hhaa.. for the record.. no... not yet... cuz I don't think I've the calling to remain single... i guessed my dear pixie friend @ downunder would understand why.. haha....
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