busy.....

don't think this blog will be updated for next few days.. just realised that i'm scheduled to sing all sessions for emerge.. (ahha.. the non-schooling-youth...) now.. i realised i dOn't have funKy stuff.. later gO see see lOOk lOOr for any bArgains.. at most.. i will wear my edc jacket that looked so "SKIN".. keke..

hmm it will be a time of 分身术 again...

well.. it can be done...

now back to multi*tasking @ work...

the ups... the downs..

you can't please everyone...

some would just be defensive and insist that they are correct, and made you sound as if you're the person in the wrong and they.. correct.. yet when they realised that they aren't.. how many would admit their mistakes & apologize? Ego? definitely.. Teachable? no comments.

thAt feeling just came again.. it just creeps in.. especially during the crucial times... it just add up.. stress.. getting the 'interesting' responses from pple.. getting more loaded... the emotions downs..

frankly... i wonder who cares abt this.. not many reading this.. don't anyone is reading except buttercup. well, this is just an outlet of venting what's within.. at least it won't stay bottled up... and yet.. not everything little details.. well.. blog therapy works to a certain extent... guess what this the 114th post since 1 Jan 2006.. ( @ the old blog.. had blogged 548 posts from 03 to 06!) 114 = 11 14 - Nov 14! impt date!! >.<

last blog entry using the iBook

the only reason that i'm still blogging from the iBook is b'cos i'm doing the backing up of my C:drive.. hence... using the ibook that I'm gonna return to my bro soon..

I think I will have to OT tmw.. cuz i hope to finish my work as much as possible on wed so i can take a half day on thurs...

And ya... I was just volunteered today to be involved in yet another project streamlining project.. and these couple of days were meeting filled... and tmw.. yet another de-briefing meeting on a pilot review that has just ended...

hmm i guess most people would "congratulate" me for getting the arrow again... hmmm well.. thank God that i've this boss who seemed to see me bigger than i'm... am in fact multi-tasking a lot these days... Multi-task... multi-purpose... hmmm the key theme for hermione these days...

hmm when is the back up gonna be done.. it's disc 14 already!!

hmmm took bus 518 home after the meeting today.. well.. surprisingly its fast.. managed to reach home ard 2344.. considering i took the 2307 bus! fast.. but i guess cuz its late and not that packed... would seriously consider taking 518 home next time after the meeting.. quite a speedy bus @ nite!! though its slightly more exp than the mrt.. but i get to sit thru'out the journey...

am excited... Emerge conference this weekend.. I know this year it will be different.... :)

music..

hmm.. like this song.. guess its the melody.. or perhaps i like the serial that this song was one of the 插曲。 rare.. cuz haven't been watching much TVs (nor am i a fan of the superstar.. just that this drama aired its repeats @ the convenient time of 12 midnite.. hence became my weekly dosage of "fairy tale romance..for the past 13 weeks..)

It's alive!!

Yups.. amazingly.. the desktop came alive again... after 9 days... wonder why my desktop tend to die then resurrect? Hmmm.. maybe I'd healed it? hmm was very very surprised to see the XP start up instead of MS doc screen... I reckon that Max was very surprised too.. (oh.. the ibm engineer was called max.. What a coincidence.. Max helped to set with the inital set-up.. Another max helped me to fix it up... ) Well.. not really fixing.. but helping me to check.. after checking and checking... (still no bugs) and the only reason he reckon it to be maybe due to the two RAM in my desktop, so he took out one.. (the kingston 512 one... leaving the s-l-o-w 256 ibm RAM inside..) He advised me if i can't stand the processing speed (XP recommended to run @ 512 RAM..), i could self- disassemble and place in the 512MB one...(and he taught me how.. )

after backing up the fotos and songs.. and the necessary... I preformed the shut down and tried to change the RAM... thought i succeeded.. then it went beeeping non-stop.. so, after a few attempts.. i gave up and called max again.. (ahha.. i think he's buying something when i called him.. ~ well.. he mentioned if anything fails before 31 May, i could call him..cuz the case will be closed after month end..) well. he patiently asked to place the RAM piece in properly... and... gave some more advices.. so after ending the call... i attempted once more... and prayed.. PTL .. no beeping sound.. and it started up! Yay!! (ha.. i used the 512MB and not the 256MB cuz its dead slow...)

hmmm ran my norton full system scan.. no virus.. scan my hard disk... no error sector.. hmmm.. Once again.. it was resurected!!

ha.. he thought i was still in school when i told him i was working.. ahha..i think he's probably younger than me.. (though much taller...) Actually was kinda afraid something might happen.. like a baddie come up instead.. ha.. Thank God nothing happen.. o.. cuz i was home alone..

yay! i saved $$ & my photos... cuz no need reload OS!

yeah.. God is great!! Nothing is difficult to God! (not just because of this.. but because of EVERYTHING.. because of who HE is!!)

finally mess cleared..

If not for the on-site servicing.. I guess i will procrastinate big time to clean up my room..

hmmm in the span of 3yrs.. i've accumulated a well of trash.. and only until recently, i've been keeping loads of unwanted stuff.. (for example.. i've been dutifully 'collecting' the weekly bulletins..unitl 2 months ago.. i decided not to.. but only to retain the necessary!)

Finally.. at 0215 Monday..i finally cleaned up the visible mess.. and yes.. Yeah! it looks neat!
I hope the ibm guy can fix up my pc later...

hmm.. May bill will be higher than Apr.. I think I've choked up record sms this month.. hopefully not more than 1500..

will stop the single purpose mindset, and stop being the "ken-chiong spider".. let me try it out and see how it goes.. system experience near failure.. likelihood that the energy source is not strong. Need a double dosage...

To whom that more is given, more is expected.. so i can expect greater challenge ahead.. Yeah! :D
That's it.. day 7 from the iBook.

misunderstood

well.. well.. you have your say.. and i'll hold my peace.. if you think i'm in the wrong, so be it. I can't change your thinking, but i pray that God will.

Day 5 from iBook

i like the mobility to blog from my bed.. other than that... I still like my desktop.. Or maybe cuz this lappie doesn't belong to me.. there are 1001 things I couldn't do... like installing stuff requires password... and... :()

Well.. the ibm engineer gonna come and fix my pc next monday at 2pm.. so which meant that I need to get my room in order again.. ya... typhoon struck...

yay.. my leave for july has been approved! :) tOok next fri offf too cuz of the emerge.. Nah.. not that i'm that free.. but haven't been on long leave for long... ya.. the last time i took a block leave was in 2002 jul.. i think.. oh man..i'm gonna receive the long service award this year! (haha just $80 or $100 i think.. no la.. it's just my fifth yr.. am praying that there won't be a 6th!)

Later gotta go work on my slides.. didn't managed to do them up @ work.. and the sotong me had forgotten my training session..Thank God for His grace! Cuz managed to reschedule it to next monday.. so gotta use my free time (if i can find any) this weekend to fine tune the stuff.. and at the same time to streamline this proceduress stuff... hmm.. serving this weekend.. and ya.. when i was rectifying my "hay" this evening (ya.. the "Jay Chou" did a poor job @ soft-straightening my hair.. so the owner herself gotta help me salvage..), received this phone call... that literally damped my whole day.. in a way.. added stress to the already stressed up strawberry... but this stress is GOOD stress.. the push that oughta start long long ago....

when things come.. all things come at the same time...

Though my leader felt that if I'm free, i should go for it.. yet.. I felt that its time to move on to the nudging thing in my heart.. Like what adrian said.. even when you're up at the platform.. half your mind would be on the attendance.. Ya, like this week.. i hope that i need not do a split...cuz one of the friend would only reach 15 min before.. Ya.. my heart wants to stay in choir.. and ya.. to try BV.. yet...i can't see myself doin all this concurrently.. Stretching, I realised is not just @ work.. but in all aspect! Stretch out your tent!!!! not complaining.. cuz i know its worth it!

From the leadership Files - Leadership

LEADERSHIP

Quote - "I don't know what the secret of success is, but the secret offailure is trying to please everybody' -  Ebony

Release your leader and they'll give you their best.

Release your leader and they'll give you their best.

When we try to control the people leading us we steal their initiative.

Give a leader leadership and their gifts will surface.

If you're in the leader's role but everyone else is setting your agenda your motivation will lag.

Get control back! Set your schedule yourself.

Do what you're meant to do, not what everyone else wants you to do!

Decide what, when and how.

If you're called to lead, lead!

chance of a lifetime..

hmm.. too bad that this poor guy gotta be the one calling me with regards to this innocent lucky draw coupon that i'd filled up earlier at Tampines Mall.. Claimed that I was the lucky winner picked out of the additional draw after the final draw in Feb (ya.. i could verify that, i just found and threw away that paper on Monday!).. I could walk away with this laptop, spa vouchers.. (ya, u mean discount coupons?).. all i need to do is to complete the event and i could win.. no strings attached.. hmmm.. sounded too good to be true right?

well.. too bad for him.. i'm not in the best sugary mode.. and with the last interesting encounter in Dec 05.. nah.. I won't waste my time.. nor will i waste your oppty to get commission. However, since he had asked me for the reason why i don't wish to attend at the expense of the opportunity to win free stuff.. I told him the truth... well.. he kept insisting that it was not a scam.. and oh an additional thing that I learnt.. insurance agents will not be allowed to attend the event..but not government officers (really? why was i rejected... cuz of the salary sum that i put down.. hmmm... tsk tsk..) I guessed that they "barred them" cuz they don't have stable income?

He was surprised that i refuted that the $4000 worth of SPA vouchers were in fact mainly discount coupons... well.. i went, and received it... so it's a fact! Well... no, i'm not enticed by the free gift (some $70 dinner voucher) offered to credit card holder.. the other time i went, partly b'cos i was ignorant.. partly cuz i dun have a flash drive then.. and my PC was dead.. hey.. guess what.. this time rd.. my PC is also not working.. haha.. what a coincidence!

butterflies fluttering...

not outside.. but within...

down with the common misconceptions that she's a lot of free time... she has more on her hands now that she thinks she can handle..

Yet.. whatever that have been given... they shall be accomplished..

she just wish she could let out a scream......

Yet she knows.. His grace is sufficient for her, His strength is made perfect in weakness...

And He said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore most gladly I will rather boast in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.

2 Cor 12:9

sensitive...

hmmm.. i guess its easier to see things from your side, than to get to the other side to see things from their side ...

Assumption... is a bad habit.

This is just the beginning of the upcoming TTT.. (tests, trials, tribulations). If you don't know where you're heading... u'll give up at the slightest hiccup/ obstacle.. Yet, if you know the "whys"... whatever that will not take THAT away.. THAT is what you exist for, why you exist..

How true.. with many purposes come many tribulations!!

the similarity between demotion & promotion & stagnation? The tests..
What make the difference .. how you fare in them...

these things just come daily... in all forms.. first the cpu.. then hordes of interesting characters... and sticky situatuions.. You think it is glam? Nope.. it's more than the glam.. its just to serve and help to empower ..

seemed to be getting more profound these days.. tsk..tsk..tsk..

tuesday jitterys

hmm... until recently.. i always have my tues free.. cuz it's my mom's off day...

frankly.. there's always this nudging voice that create unnecessary worrying thots in me if i'm to return home late, esp tuesday...

until yesterday... the Holy Spirit must have done a work in my mom... i think she's now ok with me not being at home early on her off days.. (cuz me made effort to have dinner with her on free weekday nites..) PTL!!

hmmm.. another jittery.. would i be required at the meeting? (usually is in the affirmative.. but my flesh will conjuere up silly excuses.. or real situations like diahorrea.. (like today).. and tried to lure me home... but each time.. it failed...

while pastor chee kiang was sharing with us today.. Holy Spirit led me to the answer already..quite a while back... yet i chose to listen to the flesh.. or rather tried to ignore the heavenly call..

yi.. what is the decision.. the heavenly call or the earthly vision (my desire)....

The ability to receive the answer doesn't come from authority, it comes from within.. it comes from the heart...

i don't want to have the spirit of esau who sold his birthrights (God's heavenly call upon his life) for a bowl of lentils soup (his earthly desire).... i want to have the spirit of James.. the bondservant of God, of the Holy Spirit... i will do what He wants.. not i want...

Day 3 using the iBook

i tried the F8 method of booting up... nope... silly error message still pop up.. attempt to rescue filed failed.. tried F11 to do a system recovery.. failed in that attempt.. i guessed my ibm highly likely was attacked by virus this time ( btw it was quite protected with the norton sercurity thingy and yes.. as well as firewall.. i guessed i would need to reinstore a whole load of things..praying hard for miracle...when the onsite guys come... gee i would need to tidy my room...

Nothing in life is for free...

yup, human nature take things for granted.. just because you don't see it doesn't mean it doesn't exist.. for example.. tap water.. does it come portable from the natural source? nope.. in fact, our tap water (which is portable from tap!!) is fortified with minerals such as floride.. had gone thru' many processes before it goes into the huge water tank as portable water available to us 24/7 (unless u don't pay ur water bill)..

As one who take economics, you would understand the concept of opportunity cost.. For eg, you allow your friend to stay over at your empty guess room foc for a week as the previous tenant has gone. hence oppty cost would be the rental you would have received if you didn let your friend stay for free... In a business scenario,you own a hotel. you let one of your overseas friend to stay over Free of Charge at one of your suite for a week. You could have let out the room and earn an another $300 per nite. You could have choose to charge, (cuz ur doing a business.. ) yet you don't, cuz you want to bless your friend. However, being a business entity.. the charges would still be made to your account in the company books.. hence.. you're paying for the one week stay.. well.. if another person comes along to book the room, you would have charge him $300 rite?

degree of one's maturity and wisdom is not directly reciprocal of the age.. is to the degree you allow your mind to be renewed by the Word and Spirit of God.

p.s. in case a believer might think that his eternal life is free.. Nope.. Remember, Jn 3:16? We are able to step into eternity only because of Jesus' precious blood that have redeemed us from sin. Jesus, my Lord and Saviour.. my first love!!

Enough said. The joy of the Lord is my strength ! :)

day 2 from the ibOok

Am getting use to the ibook.. though some buttons here and there are missing on some of the webpage... so far so good.. but given a choice.. would prefer the window interface..but then again.. let me use it for a few more days.. i might fall in love with it...

Another boughs of service excellence..

well... the non-IT-techie me decided to plug in my speedtouch modem to the apple.. Praise the Lord that I managed to get a helpful malay lady to guide me thru' the set up.. though it took like 5 - 7 minutes to get thru'.. and i was calling via my mobile line... and the whole conversation took abt 19 mins.. nevertheless gave her excellence rating cuz of her patience... heeheee

the not so fantastic service..
the levono hotline is not as hot as yes.. it's only available during weekdays, during normal office hours.. fantastic.. which means i gotta take a day leave to settle the problem with my desktop.. didn't manage to find out what's the prob cuz i din have the prdt no. and machine no. with me.. and apparently they can't check the warrantystatus via other means such as my name... lovely.. well.. the consolation is that my machine's warranty expires.. guess what on my birthday.. haha,, which means my desktop shares the same birth date as me? haha...

so praying hard that no formating will be done to my harddisck... else i would need to reload the songs from my cds to the itunes ...and the hordes of photos.. :( hmmm but at least some of the memorable ones are uploaded onto flickr!

the not good service
well.. was made to pay the 10% service charge for self-help service.. was having dinner at this cafe-turned-bistro @ suntec (should have gone to subway instead).. and guess what they happily served my friends' main course but forgot my sandwich (incidentally, one of my friend ordered the same sandwich as i did, just that hers was ala carte.. mine was part of the sandwich soup set.. hers came.. mine didn't.. ) and i had to call the manager to ask if they had forgotten my order.. she came back and just mentioned that she will serve it soon.. (and oh. btw, the bistro was less than half filled -- during dinner time!) no apology... hmmmmm... and ya.. when the 'helpful' waiter brought out the dessert, he just placed them on the very cluttered table and didn't bother to clear the dishes.. and he gave a digusted look when asked to clear the table.. hmm.. why is service charge levied when there isn't much to begin with.. hmmm i guess i would not pop by for a loooong time to come...

hmm.. it has been quite a day... and yes,,, time to talk to God..

byeeeeee!!

the ibm is dead

ha.. am now blogging from the loan the iBook from my bro... cuz the ibm thinkcentre think too much and has now fAiled to start up.. got a silly prompt message that says my pci.sys corrupted... realised that that ibm warranty doesn't cover software pro.. but then.. this should be OS prob rite? so i can go back to them for servicing ba.. it's only 5 months old..

sigh sigh...

was kinda gald that i was 'rejected' for prayer meeting choir.. i reported late cuz was waiting for my members to appear after their lunch.. and ya.. so late lor.. but good thing is that i get to pray with my members...

bro Frankie asked me to postpone my BV audtion date.. good cuz have more time to pray if i should go for it...

it has been a long day.... thank God for the supernatural strength.. cuz the first meal of the day was at 615pm .. compliments from xinlian...

had deliberated whether to send out a sms.. felt that was being sabotaged.. and i only found out abt it thru' two other sources.. well as the chinese saying goes.. you can't cover up fire with paper!! well.. dun want to judge him.. let
God decide..

Attendence is not as expected but.. still very thankful for Joyce.. and Ziv.. :) thanks for helping me out!

Isaiah 54

"Sing , O barren,
You who have not borne!
Break forth into singing, and cry aloud.
You who have not labored with child!
For more are the children of the desolate.
Than the children of the married woman," says the LORD.

"Enlarge the place of your tent,
And let them stretch out the curtains of your dwellings;
Do not spare;
Lengthen your cords,
And strengthen your stakes.
For you shall expand to the right and to the left,
And your descendants will inherit the nations,
And make the desolate cities inhabitated.

"Do not fear, for you shall not be ashamed;
Neither be disgraced, for you will not be put to shame;
For you will forget the shame of your youth,
And will not remember the reproach of your widowhood anymore.
For your Maker is your husband,
The LORD of hosts is His name;
And your Redeemer is the Holy One of Israel;
He is called the God of the whole earth.
For the LORD has called you
Like a woman forsaken and grieved in spirit,
Like a youthful wife when you were refused,"
Says your God.
"For a mere moment I have forsaken you,
But with great mercies I will gather you.
With a little wrath I hid My face from you for a moment;
But with everlasting kindness I will have mercy on you,"
Says the LORD, your Redeemer.

"For this is like the waters of Noah to Me;
For as I have sworn that the waters of Noah would no longer cover the earth,
So have I sworn that I would not be angry with you, nor rebuke you.
For the mountains sgall depart and the hills be removed.
But My kindness shall not depart from you,
Nor shall My covenant of peace be removed,"
Says the LORD, who has mercy on you.

"O you afflicted one,
Tossed with tempest, and not comforted.
Behold, I will lay your stones with colorful gems,
And lay your foundations with sapphires.
I will make you pinnacles of rubies,
Your gates of crystal,
And all your walls of precious stones.
And your children shall be established;
You shall be far from oppression, for you shall not fear;
And from terror, for it shall not come near you.
Indeed they shall surely assemble, but not because of Me.
Whoever assembles against you shall fall for your sake.

"Behold, I have created the blacksmith who blows the coals in fire,
Who brings forth an instrument for his work;
And I have created the spoiler to destroy.
No weapon form against you shall prosper
And every tongue which rises against you in judgement you shall condemn.
This is the heritage of the servants of the LORD,
And their righteousness is from Me."
Says the Lord.

rebellion...

it comes in all forms.. shapes and sizes... you name it.. i faced it... today..

Yes.. I'm more than a conqueror in Christ! He who is in me is greater than he who is in the world..

I'm not gonna be dislodged from His call.. admist of the firery darts the prince of this world throwing towards me... it will not kill me.. the flesh will go.. but not me who is within...

delegation...

I hope i could.. yet.. i couldn't.. not that I don't want to but can't afford to.

Psalm 131

Just discovered that this Psalm was autographed on the cover of the Presence CD.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Ps 131
Simple Trust in the LORD
A song of Ascents, Of David.

Lord, my heart is not haughty,
Nor my eyes lofty.
Neither do I concern myself with great matters,
Nor with things too profound for me.

Surely I have calmed and quietened down my soul,
Like a weaned child with his mother;
Like a weaned child is my sould within me.

O Israel. hope in the Lord
From this time forth and forever.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Indeed just trust in Him.. simple trust..

mad rush.. day 2

Seemed like another incredible "octopus-like" day for me.. Seemed like there's never ending things for me to do.. at one point... i just wished that i can replicate another me.. was rushing against the system to help finish my colleague's pOrtion of the approval/review.. and replying to messages.. replying to queries (some of which are unnecessary...keeping an eye on the frequently MIA.. coordinating the cg stuff.. printing what was necessary in view of system downtime.. replying to unnecessary questions.. chasing for an answer...to the pt i seek solace in the handicap cubicle to pray a couple of min..

was reminded by what xinlian reminded me last nite on our way home (think was part of a recent sermon). God always uses people who are busy..

kinda surprised that i was selected to sing for emerge.. eh... age wise (under 30 mah)sure qualify.. just that i'm a full-fledge wOrking adult leh... ha.. but i don't mind attending... realised that i only need to take a day leave.. cuz only one am session.. (that's in the event i'm to sing for that am session..) maybe this is the last emerge that i'm serving... ?

Next tuesday is approaching.. still undecided if I should go..

hmm..

Your attitude determines your altitude..

Idling vs Working...
Convenience vs Extra mile..
which would you choose?

Your life is in your hands.. The choice is up to you.

Swooned...

Was kinda disappointed that I didn't have the CDs with me when it was announced that there's an autographing session by the CCC band after service on sat. Hence, i grabbed my Presence CD (just the cover .. the CD is in my hi-fi.. and I should think.. I'm the only one there with the CD that's CD-less... which drew a comment from Joe Pringle.. that's cool.. i.e. the disc is in my player.. ) in my hurry to service on Sunday...

Thanks to my V3 (only VGA hence.. resolution not good).. and xinlian's help... managed to snap some memories.. heehee.. the bassist (can't remember his name..) took an interest at my name.. ha.. asked for the pronouciation.. and heehee... all of them are friendly.. :) too bad i left my digi cam @ home... next time.. i will not leave home without it..

I guess the best i got out of this conference.. is.. the Spirit of prayer... and.. a more definite direction/ vision...

it's getting crazy....

Praying that God gives me the wisdom the clear this stuff in half an hour time... today's a mad rush... many just want a piece of me!!

... ...

When I weak, You're strong

You're my feet, when I can't move on

You're the silent whisper in my heart...

The Leadership Files - COMPLAINING

Quote - "When your ears hear your lips start to sing the song of the weasel, you
must learn to immediately slap the weasel within.'" - Roy H Williams, The Wizard
of Ads

When a kettle boils, steam whistles through the spout.

When we reach the threshold of what we can cope with we complain.

This means we need to increase our capacity in that area.

Complaining is the language of victims.

We complain when we feel we have no control over negative circumstances.

Leaders cope with more than the people they lead.

They don't complain, they give thanks and see the upside.

To the positive mindset solutions appear.

The negative complaining mind fails to see any way through.

'In everything give thanks; for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you.'
1 Thess 5:18-19
~~~~~~~~~~~
how true...

time..

Tis the season to multiply purposes!

C'est tout!

animals do have the right to live too..

For the past couple of days, noted that there are a no. of forum articles from the animal lovers on the animal cruelty.... just can't understand why people like to pick on the feline creatures as the source of torture.. (is it because they are smaller in size compared to dogs.. yet there are also those who hunt for the stray dogs for their flesh...)

This morning.. read this appeal letter from a teenage girl in today.. and there was this picture of this poor kitty that was brutally smashed against the wall.. sad to say.. the kitty didn't survive in time to the vet.

Really... there is no guarantee that if these psychos won't just stop at the animals and proceed on to the mankind..(If they could brutually murder them and subsequently lay the lifeless carcasses on the roof top of the multi-storey carparks - like some trophies; what are the chances of doing that to man when they can't derive as much "kick" from killing/torturing animals.. details in this article)

so.. if you spot these psychos.. do inform the police and SPCA.. be a witness! Make an official report! Cruelty towards animals is punishable by law.

resolved..

the messy tassles..

to solve the problem once and for all.. took half a day off and did a "soft-straight" again.. at least i need not spend hours & shedding many hairs to make them neat.. though its rather pricey.. but the nicey bossy gave me a free haircUt! thanks may!

Fought off the temptation of the bright sky blue Bohemian-styled Espirit skirt that I'd wanted to a couple of months back.. and it's at 30% off! (actually rather pricey even after the disc.) Tried.. love it.. but.. placed it back on the shelf.. the sensible thing to do cuz I've tooo many long skirts and (wardrobe exploding..) and i need to save up!

lala.. the confession of a past shopaholic!

TTD

on my personal TTD list.. there are many things to be done... and can't be achieved in just one short instance...

first thing to get rid of.. my fave excuse that.. " i need time... ", "there is only just one me...". Never expect that i got a mini "discipleship" session prior to the meeting while we were just lounging ard at Starbucks.. Indeed.. he pointed out something (or numerous areas) which I should have oughta have a breakthru in... and yes.. i have to stop procrastinating...

next.. finish my "hOmework" from the meeting...

next..talk to my cgl.....

birthday presents ( members and friends..)

my work... ( many duedates in May)

greener pastures.. yes.. buttercup.. you asked me if i've the desire to further my studies.. na.. I don't want an mba... still seeking His answer for 2007... (i've been "confessing" over this course daily for past 3 months.... cuz that is my password for login at work!)...

and etc

etc

...

and to save my diminishing tassles....

hectic...

yUps.. it was a hectic thursday.. I say.. things just fall into place though...

yet.. whatever i am doing.. is not enough.. whatever it is.. as long as You are smiling at me.. it's enough...

yikes.. .. part (a) of my bill is up by 100%. Part (a) cuz its only the m1 bill.. [part (b) would be my singtel one.. the bigger portion..] thankfully it has not reached the three figure yet.. I should consider terminating one and getting a higher value plan.. Didn't reaslied that i'd exceeded the text msg by...at least couple hundred msgs.... hmm...waiting for part (b) now..

mercy..

when you are hitting the ceiling .. there is only one source to get to the next level.. by His mercy..

had been asking myself a lot of questions... yet.. i couldn't get the answer... cuz.. I was asking myself...

truly... these few weeks were a whirlwind.. the "long weekend" that had just passed seemed so short...it's gone in a flash.. (to sidetrack, caught "take the lead" over the weekend.. in midst of smsing.. i did enjoyed the show.. truly inspiring.. )

God is good. Praise the Lord that my mom has not been unhappy abt me reaching home real late on tues (which was her designated day off...)

fulfilling the heavenly vision is not just fulfilling the personal desire/calling you deemed to be on your life..it's abt the Body of Christ.. not just yourself... it is to move together as a Body..

what's to be laid as the living sacrifice :: my personality..:: my free time (what's left of it..)

felt truly refreshed tonight after the meeting..(and prior to that a voice was trying to convince me not to attend...) after a period of silence.. He finally spoke again... despite of the facade you paint.. He knows what's beneath... what's on your mind... yes.. something big is coming!!

and yippie the BV audition is coming.. excited.. hmm it falls on tuesday though... opted for the 6pm slot for obvious reason.. (cuz it's tues..) :) no..history not gonna repeat itself.. (ya.. went to my 1st BV audition with only 10% of voice left.. cuz of badbad throat.. and zitch level of confidence... but i was less than a yr in choir then.. ).. we shall see... :)