finally...

the most insignificant prayer.. God hears.. or at least maybe he finally felt the prompting to msn me? haha...

oh well.. it was awkward initially.. but then... it's nothing personal and thanks to the fire drill.. the conversation ended rather abruptly.. oh well.. will see how things take it from there..

On another note... the six letter word that i cannot seem to grasp.
egnahc. it's easy to dispense the advice but contrary to apply..

the ... ... ... ... post

I feel like can of coke that has just been shaken...

exploding with words & words within.. yet.. dunno whether to start.. oh yeah, verbal diarrhoea.. oh well.. maybe another day...

Despite the luxurious 3 hours of sleep after returning home @ the break of dawn after the o'nite prayer meeting.. i feel wide*awake! I guessed I'm used to sleeping few hours a day... due to my peculiar sleeping habits.. OH yes.. my tax law paper is on nEXt Wed and I HAVE NOT really prepared... Oh gee... Gotta read thru the numerous cases in the remaining three days...

Felt a pinch to waste a quarter of hundred to cab down to jw again (cuz i sneak winks till 12noon..) I figured I'd spend at least a couple hundred on cab in Feb alone... sigh on the early call time and to work. this luxury has to cease ... else will be burning a hole in my pockets..

Happy to receive my latest purchase from kelly's site from da boss personally! :) *an impulse purchase on Thur to pacify myself...* oh well...

Tired now.. sang both s1 & s2.. enjoyed my dinner with mandy @ sakae sushi@ whitesands... :) (negative effect: the bloatedness... despite not eating much... seriously my digestive system is cracking up...)

Oh yes .. bit of pity that couldn't attend all the weekend svcs cuz at 2 locations.. the only consolation is that i can sing all 4.. and attend 2.. seems to be flowing back in place again (painful but God... ) i don't know how long it's gonna to take... but was seriously reminded of the Esau's plight and Rom 11:29 during last night pm.. (and i almost didn't make it to the arab street thingy... cuz...)

Oh well.. gotta sort it out lo.. cuz this is a prerequisite to the next stage ...

back to work...

after 3days of medical leave. Sigh.. Flus- galore: gastric flu & common flu.. I guessed it's due to lack of rest... Or self-inflicted? Had not been taking regular meals.. i guessed that attributed to the "gas" build up within my stomach cavity. Yet.. sometimes..I just don't feel like eating. or perhaps, there ain't sufficient motivation for me to overcome the lethargy to consume food.. Sad.. perhaps a psychological problem....

Alternate my mon & tues between sleeping.. and tv napping (the effect of the medicine just knocked me out soon after consumption) and mugging (yup, self-inflicted "torture" of choosing a course that has two written exams, plus assignments and pop quizzes over just two months.. fortunately, i'm not paying for it.. but then again.. i think i enjoy studying.. hehe) And just realised that the quiz today was called off- cuz I didn't check my mail box while on mc.. Sigh.. at least i need not cram that much this week..) oh well..

I wonder did i make a wrong decision to stay.. sigh..

Encouraging Creator

Irony

Interestingly, what you see might not be what you get. Under the façade of all lovely and goody, it's another contrasting scene.

Actors.. You may not realize but they are many budding actors around you. Note: their professions may or may not be in arts& entertainment/ theatrical arena, yet some of them are good actors.

Puzzled? Infer from the origin of the word "actor" (extracted from wikipedia):

An actor, actress, player or rarely thespian (see terminology) is a person who acts in a dramatic production and who works in film, television, theatre, or radio in that capacity. The ancient Greek word for an actor, hypokrites, when rendered as a verb means "to interpret";[1] in this sense, an actor is one who interprets a dramatic character.

Yet "hypokrites" holds another meaning. So putting both together, oh well… life's irony.

Growth

Growth is the by product of yourself.

I'm doing some archiving of the ancient blogs since 2004... Can't believe how naive i sound (and juvenile and childish at times... and it was horrendous english that I'd blogged in.. )

Oh man.. I've grown older.. to a certain extent, like what Long said, I've matured to the level whereby whatever happen, I'll not leave church.. Yet, I also realised that whatever I did not resolve at the lower level 3 - 4 years ago accumulated and yes, I've to resolve it at a much higher (and yes, painful) level.

As I was going through the age old posts ( I'm only into the 4th months only), I was shown a larger picture of the various "whys" that I've been asking myself a month ago... I was pretty amazed by myself too.. I realised - I've lost "THAT".. I need to find "THAT" back..

And yes, it is ridiculous to think that you can solve a problem by doing things the usual way.. So.. I've to do something different.. (definitely not by doing nothing..)

And I realised what a workaholic I've been.. and yes, it's time to take a recourse.. And yes.. I still hold on to what I've seen. Though it is a Mount Everest to scale in 2008 compared to the bukit timah hill in various points in past..

I wish I could "dwell in the little world of my own".. Yet I know others can, I can't. I read in my earlier post of eons ago... "I aspire to inspire". Aspiration is not sufficient.. time to put words into action...

I was reading one of the many unfinished books sitting on my shelf- Why did God says in 1 Jn 5:4:

For whatever is born of God overcomes the world. And this is the victory that has overcome the world—our faith.

Which explains why we have to go through testings, situations.. If we have nothing to overcome, how can we be termed as overcomers??

Rom 8: 28
And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are the called according to His purpose.

And music... I can't never live without... and it will come to pass... and with this note... I need to go find THAT back...

AS expected...

I ended up doing what the "assigned" should have done... and did that on her behalf.. Her reply: " Oh yah hor, Haha. Dats right. Oh Geez I totally forgot abt dis aspect."

I'm speechless.. Double-standard ... this would unlikely happen if this was a work-related task cuz yes.. you will lose your job if you don't fulfill what your job description entails. Oh well.. What can i say... continue to be the toothpick aka the gap-filler...

the shopaholic princess

I guessed it's to make up for the no-indulgence on self during christmas, I've been replenishing my wardrobe recently... within a week.. And yes, I know that I've only One body & One pair of feet.. but one gotta pamper oneself once a while right? At least these are not designer togs but just those mid-range brands.. :) anyway.. I'm boosting the economy ma.. *lame excuse* but still under 1k so.. not that bad right? >.<

And yes... I'm falling in love with LVER togs.. woo i like their paper bags too.. Bought a lovely black dress & a white/blue strippy top.. (oh yes, i know i have too many black dresses le, but...) And zara has some lovely stuff too.. :)

And shoes... added 4 pairs to my growing collection.. I kinda like the designs from this local brand pazzion and yes.. I bought this lovely pair of mary jane -type heels from river island for only $50 yesterday...

Oh well.. the problem of working near vivocity... it's bring out the shopaholic nature in me again... Oh well.. happy happy day.. :)

Cab.Taxi.

Yes, I know that its more pricey to travel via cab/ taxi with the fare hike, especially during the peak hours ( 35% of the fare instead of a flat $2 rate ANd ERP charges... Thank goodness I'm no longer working in the CBD area...else CBD charges too..)

Ironically, I've been taking cab to work/svc almost every day since last week as I tried to sneak in a few more winks.. Oh well, buying time with money.. and travel in comfort without having stand all the way from pasir ris to harbourfront and walking that tunnel when changing from east-west line to nel line.. Oh well, trade-off between money and time.. :)

Yet I think I've pampered myself long enough... (hmm spending $30 every morning to work is a bit steep... for my current paycheck...) Time to learn sign up for the basic theory... :) and yeap to purchase a beetle !

fulfilled...

Yay... it's done... (after 4 transactions...)

Can't understand why I can't wait till sat... Oh well..positive attribute - persistence.. the negative will term it.. stubborn...

in any case.. i'm happy to have fulfilled the pledge!! yay!! :)

time to zzzz

ah ha... I know how to get by the limit... make a few transactions of fewer amt... :) two down.. four to go... :)

sowing & reaping

smiling despite not able to fulfil my a&b until sat (during svc) cuz.. ya lump sum payment.. so ah.. think exceed the transaction amt.. sigh sigh.. think I'll have to write on the envelop on sat ... cuz AXS machine cannot process the amt too... (think the a&b plus tithe will be wa... a lot... but yay!)

Oh... :) finally got the 07 bonus... :) (though the way the HR compute the payout is a bit cheem to understand.. cuz it's based on Group performance + individual performance.. oh well.. at least i know I'm in the upper quartile (with the additional EVA bonus one.. ) hmm even after pro-ration, it's still rather substantial.. :) Principle of sowing and reaping .. the ROI in this A&B is approximately 640% in total cuz on top of the 07 performance bonus, I've an unexpected salary adjustment of 8% a month (was only confirmed in mid dec.) wef Jan and the Board decided to pay out upfront a month of year 08 bonus (over 12 months).. :) yay... so can't wait for Sat... :)