loved...

I know I've been behaving like a true spoiled princess these two weeks... And seeking solace by singing at every available opportunity - and have been helping out at cc after svc so I could be excused from debrief - [but it is true that there aren't enough strength for both eng & cc svc. And not many who are willing to.. choosing their preferred most convenient timing. Taking ownership - hello? Oh well.. ]

Services these two weeks have been the most apt for moi.. Especially the sat's . God's love is >.< And yes.. those fictitious facts filtered.. the forgotten words came back... :)

Anyways... i finally decided to face up to reality... time to stop playing hide and seek. So I crucified my flesh to ok to meet up with long. *Seriously, i know he would not throw me out.. but the "mel" side paint a realistic picture too.. Anyway..... it was awkward initially.. but i was back to pre-spoiled-brat days after a while.. Actually, I'd sorta figured out he knew why i was doing these stunts and yet he still let me do it cuz he knows i won't go mia ... and ... etc.
Still... thanks for having faith in me still and yes.. for your love and concern and yes.. your "harsh but hard " truth that hit me.. flat.. yes.. thanks for the sweet encouragement that you said this evening (*U nearly made me blush lo... * never expect that! but ha ha I'm not as imaginative as b4.. thank goodness!) thanks for being there for me in good and bad times...

And VORY .... thank U my dear vOry who took time to entertain my over-imaginative thoughts.. yay lunch with u tmw.... :) *muaks*

and vicky... thanks for your sweet message.. {hugs}

rach.. {hugs}

and many others who are sorta shocked by the princess' missing antics these two weeks... (oh please, princess is also a human... she ain't superhero... )

I'm Daddy's little girl

Like this rendition by Michael Buble "Daddy's little girl" ... :) A sweet breath from Heaven .. ><

You’re the end of the rainbow, my pot of gold.
You're daddy's little girl, to have and hold.
A precious gem is what you are;
You're mommy's bright and shining star.

You’re the spirit of Christmas, the star on our tree.
You’re the Easter Bunny to Mommy and me.
You’re sugar, you're spice, and you're everything nice
And You’re Daddy’s Little Girl

You’re a treasure I cherish, all sparkling and bright.
You were touched by Holy and beautiful light;
Like the angels who sing, a heavenly thing;
And you’re Daddy’s Little Girl

service excellence

Once again.. kudos to mio. I think i'd made it to the "blacklist"... Hey it's not my fault. My residence line went DEAD for past two weeks and i made a service call last mon - the tech staff said they will look into it and call me back. No news. I called again this morning.. the helpdesk said s0meone will called me within a few hours. NO ONE called after 12 hours. Oh well... i spent 20 minutes on my mobile phone trying to tell this guy over the hotline to get someone to check the wall connection.. He seemed to be rather helpful initially trying to troubleshoot over the phone but i was trying to tell him there is nothing wrong with the modem.. but the phoneline... Well.. guessed my persistence to complain tested his patience and haha he lost his cool - cuz he tried to say he will get a technician to call back when they could come down... (duh? and they could actually make an appointment right on spot and yet he proposed a call back AND sad to say.. out of the 10+ times i called regarding the mio issue - first the installation extra charges, then the wrong billing, now the non-working phoneline only twice did the person called back. SAD! Service excellence??

Sigh.. I should switch back to analogue instead.

nerve-wrecking...

am having butterflies in my stomach... gee...

Urgh...

spoke too soon

now... out of a sudden... I've more work to do now...

i like vivo.. nice place to walk around during lunch time... great grounds for building resistance to temptation...

vory dear... thanks for texting me.. though i seriously wonder if he will show me the broom... >.< if that happens, its alright... :)

Contrary to my belief...

I think I might not have to OT tonight! YAY! But still will not be going to the event that requires "RSVP" cuz am running low on medication so yup, gotta replenish my "stock" else my blood will grow too sweet ... :)

Dunno why but I was so ever eager to pay my tithe... wonder why...

happie.. despite paying More from this month forth... >.<

thank U..

Had been tearing a lot this week... Some were artificial tears (I'd an eye infection); most were genuine though...

a post of thanksgiving with regards to tOday...

r8ch
I'm one right stubborn mule. think rAch has tried her utmost best to persuade me not to when she learnt what I might... this afternoon... (after i sms her if she wanna catch Shanghai blues... the cheena musical - keeping my fingers crossed that I'll get the corporate px tix).. not that i don't wanna tell u more but it was BAD timing.. my office is OPEN...

cLaire
Finally got the chance to talk with claire... cuz went to her cg today.. :) thanks for praying for me dear.. *muaks* i love her preaching.. her energiser bunny like energy despite of her hectic hectic schedule... Thank U for ya lovely gift that i really love.. i like lamb!! yep, your msg tOnite was a timely one... I'll practise and tell you my decision.. when confirmed...

jadyn- hehe though i never call u that
was surprised u intro me as liyi to ur cg.. love talking to you... U really want more hangers?? take care of yourself and do make the appointment ok.. :) health is more impt!!

ming
had a lovely evening with u & lil sophie on wed... :) can't wait to see lil sophie popping out!!

sandi
it was a lovely evening.. with you.. thanks for taking time out this evening and enjoyed our chat in ur car along kembagan mrt ! will miss ya when u leave for switzerland next monday... love ya gal..

vOry
inspite of ultra busy work... thanks for being with me - in spirit - for these time.. especially these two weeks... i love U!!

long
so sorry that i'd put you through my nonsensical prima-donna defiant act since that fateful monday evening ... thank you for the encouraging words - despite my oh so -ve remarks... for bearing with me.. and ... when i get out of the spoilt brat routine... i will talk to you...

last but not least...
God.. who is still faithful when I'm faithless... who loves me when i don't ...

seriously

i don't think it matters where a plant is being placed...

as long as it flourish right??

Uprooting a plant from a garden and replanting it in another garden should not and will not have any adverse consequences right? Unlikely that the other plants in the original garden will sense the difference.. perhaps even overjoyed that they have more room to grow...

so just let the plant be where it should be... Even the chief gardener has allowed so... Perhaps the chief gardener felt that he could no longer help this plant to grow??

Change...

It maybe for good... oh well... the result of confession???

eYes... red...

it's a medical condition.. not the emotional one.. (i.e. swollen eyes are not a consequence of oh well.. the past events.)

Saturday morning... after yet another rocky flight on friday and a teary nite.. composed a long sms and after long deliberation... i sent it.. Oh well, no reply... saw Claire at the conference rooom area.. so happy to see her, but she was talking to her members ... still the short hihi cheered me up a lil. Attended s1 after singing.. Glad that I did.. * Felt so loved/ recharged/ reassured in the secret place*. Being a responsible lamb... i texted another msg. Hopefully a closure to this. . . (was touched by a what seemed to be nature gesture of Kedy.. Despite not being ard for so long, she sensed something was amiss and called me after the abrupt flight. . unlike the many... oh welll.. perhaps the happy portrayal works or discernment is not at work... ) . Anyway, at least things seem clearer now...

Sunday morning... oh well there is a concurrence on the environment overhaul. if that's what makes me comfortable. Seriously, what makes me most at ease was to well.. be Home... bUt i guessed that's not really a logical reply. Oh well... wait and see...

Choir event @ sentosa was fun.. at least take my mind off this pending issue for three hours... guess maybe that's the source of my eye infection too... should be rather bad, cuz was given two days of mc..

toothpick

Toothpicks are useful gadgets. Yet their lifespan is short. Once used, they will be disposed off.

Imagine yourself as one. The toothpick that fills in the gap when nothing or noone is willing. Yet there comes a time when someone came along and pluck you out and commented anything can fill in the gap. The extra work you done as a toothpick to fortify your structure, to beautify the exterior is yes, redundant.

To think you pride yourself as a toothpick then...

Random creation

Was inspired to create something with recycled paper and box of color pencils that cost 1.90. Only 12 colors. Totally freehand.

pretty pink

Sad to say that my Apple iPod In-Ear Headphones that served me well since the mini day had finally R.I.P this morning as music can only stream thru the right side... Contemplated in getting the same replacement (the free earphones that came with my iPod was kindly "donated" to a cab uncle days after I acquired the iPoddie . so "generous" of me rite?) but the deterrant was the price. $69 (ok the price remained the same per my acquisition 2+ years ago despite inflation...) for a normal sound quality earphones... oh well..

Being handicapped without music, lunchtime today was a trip to Best. Oh well spent 15 minutes circling the store searching for the earphones (which interesting was under a section called "home-improvement"). Came across the portable DVD players - woo perhaps will get one of them when i lay hands on the year end bonus-pro-rated, after anb pledge so i can indulged on my bro's dvd collection that he brought back for review... one of which i'd "speed-watch" the korean drama that's now screening over channel U...)

Saw this lovely pink Sennheiser noise-isolating earphone, but was not prepared to splurge.. so settled for a lower priced one instead.. A Japanese brand i reckon.. Came with a pretty casing of different designs & color - to match the colored piece on the earphone. Deliberated over the "hibicus-motif " vs the "Orchid-motif" casing. Chose the Orchid one cuz it's pink!

Here it is:
With the packaging... (the pink sumajin in the background is not included...)


Happily linked to winterberries (i.e the iPod)
Happy pink day!

inner or outer?

Recently...a friend texted me how i was doing after reading this little virtual space of mine - which is yes public info - in a way if you know the addy... out of absentmindedness i did not reply.. thinking that i should be in the inner circle of the well-meaning person - i thot i drop by the friend's blog today realised was denied entry...

Feel kinda cheated - oh well .. be just a reader.. be entertained by the little of morsel i have to share.. just continue with the information dissemination , perhaps i've just relegated to someone on the information dissemination list under your portfolio.

Oh well. Reality = things might not be reciprocated ...

Breakfast!

Can't find the low fat kind in cheers, but preferrd magnolia over hl, so settled 4 this!

Apathetic

Glad that I’ve prior commitment before the receipt of the sms.

土曜日? 買い物? 無関係な.

...the flight...

The three hours were rather long to pass. Tried taking a bus just to reach on time yet in spite of the jams on the expressway and the rain, feeble attempt to be late not successful. Contemplated in taking a train home, didn’t do so eventually. Stuck a half-resent shape above my jaw and practised silent clapping during p. w was not picking up, reluctantly, I raised the decibels and yep, neighbour was ministered. Happy. Yet for the rest of the two hours, eyes stayed affixed on papers/ 45 degree to the horizontal plane. Bad. Refused eye-contact with the speaker. (And this was the first attempt in history.) Took flight immediately at the end of it all. Hp remained off till next day nite time. Flight took off on Sunday noon again to cc. Felt good to be at cc. Was at the last row with Faith & Joshua. Fun despite not knowing what word was next. Chatted with Faith after cc a while. Met Corinth & J at Mac a little later. Happy to catch up with them. Oh Mr helpful blessed me with a book .. Hmm right book in season? I don’t know. Was thankful for the blessing still.

To be oblivious to the surrounding “noise and commentary” is easier said than done. Could it all be settled by a complete overhaul of “surrounding”? The current situation seemed so pompous. A re-enactment of the above again this week? 75-25.

To go or not to go...

perhaps i would.. just zip off asap..

rubbing salt into wound

sounds painful? Yep, you bet.
Salt purifies.. hence, you feel pain when salt kills the bacteria in the wound? I think so. Read this article

Thanks to the innocent sms that make use of the free service - "the mobile mobile phone book enquiry service".

Contemplating not to turn up tomorrow.

d.i.y.

do-it-yourself?

nope...

depressed-iy. d.i.y

帆布

渴望上了彩的帆布能魔术般的恢复原状。。。
绘一幅新的画，相比下比修改绘错色的画还要容易，也并非花太多时间。。。咳。费时费力。。。修改？放弃？画已成型了,在没尝试修改之余而放弃，未免有点可惜。。。

又是另个寓言？

放长假

但不是在工作岗位 。。。

开心吗？ 郁闷 。。。但我早已预料了 。。。

很想选择三十六计的最后一计， 但这只治标不治本。。。

或许这并不是我的命定？或许在另各领域？或许这是其中的磨练？

挥霍了过去六个月的光阴，换来的时六个月的长假 。。。 现在后悔未免太迟了。。。

真的想纵容自己，但似乎在剥夺神赐予的命定。。。

休息真的是为了走更长远的路吗？拭目以待吧。。。

the new year..........

two hours into the new year... Glad to say, it ended much better than it started... :)
Realized that I've not updated this for ages... BUSY... with work..(*wOrked till close to 11pm last thur.. and a full day last sat when i'm off work that Sst) bUsy cux suddenly things just popped into my basket...

cgl came down with c-pox days b4 Christmas... seemed like the rest just continue life as usual.. some with nonchalant attitude... own agenda ranked higher up the priority.

Well.. encountered characters that seemed to irk me to a backlash but didn't: one chose to recoil and camouflaged.. one with nuaness... one seemed to weave a sense of mystery around oneself, yet the tales spun just won't flow.Ego matters more than the truth? Warped mindset? Wonder if this the "last days"? hmmm seemed that warped mindset seemed to be the "in" thing to carry?? this morning at work, ruth just poured out her woes on this warped-thinking, bitter soul that came during christmas.?? perilous times...

irking characters... really... i wish you could wake up...

kinda disheartened to see the section where the cg was seating while i was on stage.. yeah, jw is MUCH smaller and with my small eyes with slight astigmatism .. I can see the facial expressions of each and everyone.. what more can i say?? Out of the heart flows the issues of life... your outward attitude do expresses your inward attitudes...

SURPRISED & *EEKKS* to learn from stelle that someone tried to pair me with *warped*. YIKES! failed criteria no. 1 MOG that can lead mOi.. warped CMI!

happpier note...
went to kei's lovely love nest this afternoon... I love the black flooring and the red feature wall... :) and the hanging snowflakes-alike light..:)

looking forward to the holiday chalet this four days... well.. it will be fun.. !! with the fun-loving bunch of gals in my cg. the rest who didn't respond.. oh well.. haha.. :) happy new year to all!!