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Sunday, 5 June 2011

Is there anything too hard for Me?

A couple of weeks ago, I met up with my new financial advisor. doreen, (who took over us the orphans.. from she/he who left for future endeavours..) for lunch as well for some planning for the rainy day.. as some may know, i'd a brief stint @ ngo which lasted for a month and my profession as an advisor ended on the day I official obtain the license.. - cuz sales is really not my forte - though passing the required exams a breeze. :) lol anyway.. my new advisor didn't recall seeing me in the office though she was already working there before my brief one month stint.. until she saw my identity card.. - and she exclaimed..' ooo i remember you.. wow. u lost much weight.. aiyo, you won't have problem finding a bf!"

being the one that sees one reflection daily, one won't notice the difference.. it didn't occur to me the change in appearance the diminsh on the scales made.. until i saw an old pix of me.. i nearly fainted..


i think this was probably the 'me' that Doreen saw..(pix taken @ kelly's wedding dinner) standing next to slim eileen makes me bigger even!

and i was still gloriously round in 2009..as evidient from this pix taken with some of the sops i found in an aug 09 post.. gosh..

thanks to the freed-up time due to the "great depression" in 2007, diverted my time and energy to the sport I have DETESTED the most since young.. under the scrutiny of my friend/trainer.. who progressively increased the intensity of his 'evil' regime upon me year by year since 07 -the nagging of my food consumption and the mad amount of mileage he made me clocked to get me conditioned for the first full marathorn in Dec 2010.. that resulted in the reduced-size me..



me after training last Thurs

a few years ago, it has never cross my mind that I will ever shed the 'plus-size' image and it was my favourite excuse that my minor back problem make it impossible for me to run.. oh well.. as you may know by now.. I'm now the contrasting opposite.. :)


Well, as I'd shared with some of my pals during cg this week, God spoke to me on a couple of things during the gruelling boring sundown.. it was like my very long QT and really quiet since it's in the still of the night and strangely, the playlist consists mixture of songs..gospel, jazz, and the happy glee music - Not eaxctly the music that one will expect to voom the performance.. but this works for me... :)

God is a humourous God. He likes to make us do things that we, in our limited knowledge, deem as mission impossible. But what's formerly impossible to me - to shed pounds. to overcome the 'fear of running', has came to pass..

so He said - is there anything too hard for me..
uhm me - speechless.. i know what's coming next - what I had been running away from - the longest of time.. but then what He has spoken, it will not return to Him void.

I was then reminded that our spiritual walk is liken to the marathon.. During the sundown mara, J was with me for the first 10k which i felt obligated not to stop and simply because there's support ..when J left to catch up with A, i was left by myself and the temptations to stop running were plenty and the thoughts to simply give up - with the sheer reason that my hip liagment is still recovering - cross my mind many a times.. But since quitting is not an option for me - I continued on..and at the point whereby I was ready to walk all the way..J reappeared.. and we pressed on, cheered each other on to crossing the finish line.

Drawing a parallel, it's unavoidable that in our spiritual walk, we will definitely encounter temptations, setbacks, trials. yet, we need to remain focus on the purpose, and imperative to keep grounded with like-minded friends.. cuz with the support of friends.. (hence important not to endulge in self-pity party), we will definitely rebounce and get back on track.. :)

and hence.. there's really nothing too hard for God.. Divinely it seemed, that what I felt impressed upon me was totally in line with the cg word this week and the word pst shared during service. I guess it's all falling back in place again. :) the picture is fuzzy but somehow it's getting brighter.. :)

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