after straining my poor vocal chords over the weekend.. - this the outcome.. minnie-mouse voice and barely squeaking.. Surprisingly I made it to Jadyn's wedding dinner last sunday sans voice.. Thank goodness I was seated in between Frankie and Andreas, else.. i might have been fossilified.. - but guess I'd strained my voice that night and I ended up losing the ability to whisper on monday morning.. :(
Thanks val, for your prayers.. I'd finally regained my voice *partially* back on thurs..much more today... (at least that part of the apparent illness is cured..) the unseen is still there... Had part 2 of diagnosis on Wednesday nite.. the patient refused to take in the whole diagnosis.. Only after the conversation, she realised that the diagnosis was right (instant recall of the thoughts she had entertained...) And yes, is the flight response so apparent? Or I chose to let this be apparent? I don't know... though i promised him that i won't take flight.. the tempting easy way out (to shove everything under the carpet) constantly hover around... Sigh, think the easiest (and will not happen) solution was to douse my gray matter with concentrated HCL (yeah.. powerful cleansing agent that I recalled from my chemistry class..)
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WAS GLAD (cuz ...) that the fri dinner was called off cuz the adults in the zone were invited to the nite event of the youth camp.. Man, i realised it has been a long time since I stepped foot on campus ground - ok, did attend that course at SMU earlier this year but the SMU campus is so urbanised.. so, not counted... Hmmm camping at school ground.. brought back memories of my choir camp @ the old DHS campus (that was long torn down and in the same site sits another sec sch.. ) :) ACtually I kinda like camps.. (even training camp..) The event for the nite was actually a sermon by a US preacher (that I couldn't catch his name.. sounds like lois?) But it was a real mind blower on the reality of fact that HOW minute I am and HOW GREAT is my Creator (great as in magnitude...) Yes, I know it in the mind.. BUT being a visual person, it helps to think in pictures.. [which yes, indirectly reminded me of the diagnosis again.. on how to address the pertinent issues.) Another six months.. I am getting paranoid on this duration.. the first 6 months led me the the following dark 6 months.. another 6 months following this 6 months.. what would the outcome be?
And I was rather "saddend" by the subtle change in attitude of a rather good friend of mine..USed to so on fire and always flow with the flow (ie flexible with the last mintue changes) until mr right came along and now becoming mrs right. Despite the fact that she's moving on to mr right's place of worship soon, i was shocked that she was rather upset with the last minute-ness of this "special invitation" to adults.. cuz mr right actually didn't want her to attend cuz it was so last minute and she was tired cuz their big day was this weekend... and the attitude that "anyway i'm going to transfer out, so whatever.." Actually, I know that, need not repeat that time after time.. couldn't help but told her nicely that "yes, I know you are leaving but since you are still here, why don't you try to get the best out of the remaining time here?"
I am happy for her that she found her mr right, and i trust that the decision to go to mr right's place of worship (instead of the converse)came as a result of them seeking God.. BUT I don't desire this situation .. Think the roots have taken deep, unless I'm sent to another place by God to start something.. would not leave de.. even if the departure is inevitable. will end it well.. and missing every aspect dearly...
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back to the pertinent issue ... and i've to hand up an "assignment" by this weekend.. suddenly "taking flight" flash across the mind again.... but I can't. Gotta slowly learn how to walk again.. before the flight.. flight of an eagle....
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