Aug 18... the D-day! (to me.. V-day!) yet... it was so bizarre... ahha.. across the underground pass to the workplace... God's presence just came upon me and ya... gotta hold back the tears.. else... ahha... pple thought I emotionally unstable.. ! so.. i knew that the decision last night was in line...
Yet, it took me at least half a day.. I like the way shuan says it.. "to throw the letter" haha.. after the half an hour talk with the director (after getting the form from personnel...) i would love to throw the letter & form at her... tsk tsk... why? cuz it soooooo fake.... yeps.. however.. fake as she may be....I decided to play along ... gotta keep it amicable right? Hmmmm the way she put it, there can be only like 10 -20 best of the best... ( most of which the scholars that they have heavily invested....) hence... gotta be appreciative of this fact that not all get to do the glam/ best of the best tasks... hence... do be contented to stay status quo while the management would try to match the perceived strengths and maximise each and every individual potential.. the management sees that you are performing rather well at the current assigned portfolio ( harlow... did you ask me whether I like it or whether am i happy? No... and ya.. am performing cuz to display the spirit of excellence whether I like the task or not mah.. ) so let me tell you the plans of the branch/ div... [ HAHA... as if I would be thrilled...] after indicating to her that I really don't like the current workscope.. she re-emphasized the fact that.. not everyone can be at the Tops.. ( meaning.. stay mediocre and ya... be contented that you are being well paid for staying status quo... don't worry you will be given special assisted scheme for the upgrading programme...)
after the talk that led to no-where... I told her nicely.. (if given the chance to snub on her tactless-mean-talk... tsktsk... would give her the suanest response i could..) since I'm not able to OUTperform here... perhaps this is not my forte [and since u think so too...] and ya.. while I'm still young.. I would like to find my area of specialty else where...
glad that I did made that choice... and yep.. I'm FREE!!
yet... moments later... thoughts strike me... that spells... it's too late now... what if it's the wrong move...
ha... yet.. I hit these thoughts with the verses that i'd based the decision on...
haha... tooo late to look back now..
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the yikey headache is back... tsk tsk tsk...
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Later tonight is the biz breakthru dinner... excited.. hope the dreadful headache goes away asap... the spot light was very glaring this evening... was sitted high up @ the mountain top cuz i decided for once not to be early and despite of getting a member to reach at 350 to 4 (latest)... (or earlier if possible... ) I arrived at 3:55 cuz Vance reaching at 4.. guess what I saw the assigneee trying to rush with a hop and jog... passed me (i was indoor so he can't see me anyway...") tsk tsk tsk
Attitude... determines your altitude...
perculiar habits... doesn't mean it's bad... but it's the attitude...
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I'm tired... good nite!!!
u0p again sooooon...
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