beyond what you can dream of...

it's certainly not just words.. not just pure inspiration.. it's really something I need to do...

two questions I have yet respOnded:
1. monetary reason aside, what would you do for your dream?
2. what does it takes to fulfill your dream?

It's not just getting the correct answer.. there's nO perfect answer.. each of us have different dreams.. different aspiration.. and it's not just giving the "examiner" the answer.. but truly.. in course.. to direct your path towards His blueprint.. (if the alignment is out..)

doesn't take much to remind myself that i need to do what I have to do.. there are enough reminders.. prompting - the still small voice, the man and woman of God..

end of the day.. the bottomline is that.. I'm here not for myself.. doesn't matter what they view.. what they say.. cuz it's His opinion that matters!

yes.. lift my eyes.. and reach out.. step out.. the sky's the limit....

pOuring.. outside.. inside..

sounds of thunder... streaks of lightning across the skyline...

yes.. it's pOuring heavily outside...

reflective of how i felt..

and i thought i strive at stress... (my favorite pet *moi* has been shedding its "fur" extensively recently.. i heard that stress is one of the cause of temporal hair loss..)

the one thing i wanna do now.. to go out into the rain..

yet.. that will be just another temporal relief..

clouds.. dark..

dark clouds... really dark...

Not easy..

it's not easy at all...

an hour ago.. it was the lowest ever.. gotta stop.. it really gotta stop..

Raining..

it's been an overcast mOnday.. in fact.. stormy..

weather in Singapore recently was rather eractic.. sunny.. hot as oven.. damp.. cold like in the arctic..

has been very busy recently... haven't really have much time to myself.. i guessed the only free time will be the wee hours.. like nOw...

i missed my best girlie palie.. where's the email u're talking abt?? :) hope ya assignments' would be awarded fantastic grades... thanks for msning me in midst of the rush... and i really missed u... and creamcream.. (the msn pix is really cUte!!)

look beyond the current...... :) i can!

drenched..

dry spells are bad.. dry spells in the natural sparkes off the natural disaters like forestfire..

drenched.. i was.. it's good to be drenched.. to feel His touch flowing down..

don't think I have teared that much in pract before... or shall i put it.. this week... tears of sorrow.. tears of fears.. tears of desperation. . tears of jOy..

can't stop now... the race has just begun and i've put on my shoes...

refreshed.. time to move on.. the time is now...

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recalled what cuiqi said abt the most touching part of the easter drama.. was the last scene where Jesus restored Simon Peter.. I echo the view.. cuz these was the few verses that really bore into my heart...

MYSTERIES

We don't have to understand everything.

Much of life contains mysteries.

This calls for trust.

If we have to 'see' before we 'believe', we have joined the Thomas generation.

Believing before we 'see' introduces us to greater blessing.

If we don't understand why bad things happen, we need to engage trust, rather than cynicism.

Do what God says even when you don't understand why.

Trust him. He knows what He's talking about.

~ taken from the leadership files . wed. 19 Apr 06

something's brewing..

things are really going to another dimension.. :)

Tiring.. but exciting..

God is a God of new things..

last night.. hands-on session for bible study yesterday.. it's really easy to move in the gift of the Holy Spirit.. I guessed most of us are amazed how easy it is.. The power of God is really in us, just waiting for us to tap into Him... prereq is simply to step out in faith.. was rather hestitant on the word i gave to Cheryl initially.. words just flow subsequently... ha.. it was spot on except i remembered her name wrongly as cynthia! ops. minOR blunder.. >.<

commercial break over.. back to my pile of wOrk!

I wish I could read your mind...

I really wish I could pre-empt what you want... you never state the boundary neither did you state the requirement when you have already assigned a person (two to be exact to do that..) and expects us to also headstart the process since we have the raw data.. Btw the data given to you ain't raw.. yes.. I should take the initiative.. yes.. you have loads of things at your end.. remember.. I'm also multi-tasking as well.. (no.. I'm not complaining of the work load.. all i seek is just a little breathing space...) Is loading = motivation ? I guess some will just see this as an accelerator to other choices... Can you be more understanding?

Holy Spirit .. pls enlighten me as to what she wants next.. yes.. gift of knowledge...

Easter Sunday!

It's Easter Sunday.. To me.. used to be a day for bunnies and chocs.. till 5 years ago.. it's more than that.. It's a day of victory.. that Jesus has resurrected from the dead..

And.. excited.. the second time to be involved in Easter production.. this time round.. as "群众甲".. something new for me.. cuz never acted in my life.. and call time is 630am! Thank goodness for bus 12.. gotta sleep soon.. :)

more... less...

yes.. it's not a contradiction..
More is required.. hence less to be said...

1 Cor 2:9

But as it is written:: "Eye has not seen, nor ear heard, nor have entered into the heart of man the things which God has prepared for those who love Him."

aMen!!

My purpose shape the circumstances!

early in the morning..nope, not freshly rise and shine.. but.. going to bed soon...

just finished the admin stuff.. almost didn't want to attend the meeting today.. but glad that i did. it was a word in season.. to propel me further higher.. My purpose shape the circumstances! Not the other way round. Things just seemed brighter suddenly...

go a little further.. yes... the greater the cause.. the greater must be the encounter with God!

... ...

... can't stand the negative thots...
.. can't stand the numerous what if...

highlight of the day.. my helpful "daughter".. :)

rush..

It was a mad mad rush.. only managed to grab approximately 1.5 hrs of sleep. Simply because I'd spent the whole night.. or rather morning.. in the studiO of hermione's creations.. ( otherwise known as my rOOm) cuz it was a rather last minute churning out of 3 products by dawn. Wonder if the recipients (past, present, future) would keep them or these one-of-its-kind creation would soon find themselves in the chute? Nevertheless still make them with pride.. (cuz that's the expression of my love for them.. )Ha.. this time round.. the presents come with matching cards... maybe i should seriously considered to do this for a living.. hmmm... but i guessed not.. cuz it's just by inspiration... hence.. never pre-made them..

the other side.. thinking.. praying.. seeking.. time and seasons.. don't want to miss the season!

fragile

Indeed life is fragile..

I guess the news really hit me now.. learnt that one of my primary 6 classmate had departed from this world on Feb 20, 2006. Was informed of this only by Sandi this evening, when she chanced upon the blog of another dunmanian..

memories of the times shared .. she was one of my "family" in class, losta fun & wacky time shared.. afterwhich, we went to dhs, but different class, but lost contact after moving on to jc.

Can't really imagine that she's really gone.. just like that.. lost the battle to cancer.. Saw the wanpao or xinming newspaper article that was posted on the blog...

Lost for words.. Not a good feeling to describe.. This the second time I read in the papers abt someone I know from school making headlines for passing on in life.. One of them lost his life in a motorbike accident a couple years back.. SAd thing is that.. these souls are lost forever.

Cherish those around you.. share with them the Gospel when you have the chance. Sow the seeds, you never know when one would breathe his last breath.. life is fragile.. It's God's will for all to hear the gospel, don't deprive them of the chance.. When you have the chance to share Christ, don't procrastinate..

Ziyun, i will miss you...

Queue..

Not an unusual sight in Singapore.

Singaporeans queue for all sort of things under the sun... the Mac hello kitty dolls.. choice housing units... placings for primary one registration... auditions for Singapore Idol... concert tickets for the best seats... registration for modules for subject registration...etc

Surface Glance :: Different reasons to spend their time in queue... Yet there is one similarity ~~ the desire to obtain/ acheive what they queued for drives them to forgo what they could have done in the time standing in the queue!

I'm no stranger to queuing.. remembered the time (just after prelims) whereby i took a cab back after school ends at 130+ from tanjong rhu to bedok, changed and took a cab back to SIS at ard 3, simply to queue for the best place to stand in the free standing area. Rushed like mad cuz I wanna be as close as possible to the stage.. (ha. that was when take that first came here .. the one and only time.. and yes..I was way crazy over these brit bands.. haa..imagined wall plastered top to bottom with posters.. eh.. shall not go into that here..) and queuing hrs for the kitty doll... going across island in search of the safari pooh..

Why? Cuz I want to be as front as possible .. I want to catch a glimpse of mark owen.. I want the cutesy millennium kitty (which by the way has relegated in the obscure corner in the cupboard, nope i don't really like kitty, just that it marked yr 200).. bottomline is : the passion towards the object drove me to queue..

Some people might feel that it is utterly ridiculous to spend precious time in queue. Question : if it's worth your time, and you want it bad, would you not do it? If you want something that badly, you would sacrifice to obtain that in return right?

yes, time = life. Each second that passes cannot be relived. Yet, I would gladly traded in the seconds of life spent queuing to be in the main auditorium for conferences/ services, or to be seated as front as possible cuz Yes, I want to be as near to His Presence, His Anointing as possible.. I just want to draw more.. Cuz without God, there will not be me.

yes.. it's not just the physical drawing alone .. but what true in the natural runs parrallel spiritually (& vice versa). Nope, I'm not in my teens, hence, down with the notion that only youth can spare the time!!! Yes, I do want free time to do what i want.. YET i want God more.. Yes, it's the same front or back, yes the same Source.. but why settle for good if you can have best.. (else why parents queue overnight to get their child to the TOP primary schools? why would you spend hours in queue to registered for your modules? when you could just take whatever slots available.. since it's the same subject right? the students would be shaking their heads.. cuz yes, it matters!! )

man express his love not silently.. but by actions. love is not silent. love is not passive. love is active!

I queue not because I have to, but i want to. I need not and would not be influenced by those that want to settle for good when I want the best.. I will still go for the best...

kiki, thanks for standing in the gap! God sees what you're doing! Let's influence them!! (:

comtemplating not to blog this here but elsewhere... decided to blog here in the end...

"Let those who have ears, let them hear!"

crosses and zeros

Is this an indication that princess should not play with crosses and zeros since prince did not play with them as well...

Lamentations from Venus - Part Two

Martians.. Urggh!!! (kiki would understand...)

Is it too much of me to seek for clarification? Perhaps it's just different intepretation of an innocent question.. frq do changes...