Gastric pains? StOmach Ulcers?

well.. i guess the prolonged effects of irregular intake of food has taken a toil on my digestive system.. the gastric doesn't seemed to go away... Or perhaps it's due to the innocent "teh ping" i'd conveniently subsituted as dinner?

was suRprised to see shuan's sms this morning.. was deliberating whether or not to go down again... well, after talking to my best bUd, r8ch.. (cuz hers no is on instant dial @ in my brain..).. still took to the "safe" response.. to go and see.. but frankly.. i already made up my mind... (i would love to see the merlion daily on my way to wOrk..well.. ) since I've given my word for the meeting.. would turn up still...
r8ch thanks for the treat ah... fishermen village when the merlion dream come to pass.. :)

Today was the last working day for the two "xiao qians" (i.e the unofficial wife.. lame naming covention for non-perms adopted by a fellow colleague to illustrate the LINE drawn between the perm & the "underprivileged") in my office today.. (which left me and the other gal..) Frankly.. kinda apalled @ how one tried to get the male "xiao qians" to stay (though he half hearted relented and agreed to come on Monday again to help one of the Missus.. i don't think he will show up on mon.. HalOs.. frankly.. I think the work experience gained is more glam ON paper than real life for a temp b4 UNI.. well.. and he seemd beaming with joy today that it's his last day... well.. we shall see..) BUt my countdown is still continuing. :)

Oh, the other interview i'd on tues was very flattering Cuz.. I didn't know I was asked to go for the post for head of finance..(and coy is expanding rather rapidly in the AP) Met the CEO.. a humble man who spoke fluent mandarin... well.. it was a good experience and ego-booster.. though... i would still want the merlion sight.. haha...

I'm tired.. i would love to go on...

i wonder.. shall i opt out of the drama production? (it's the silly peak period.. and sillymi won't be reimbursed in kind or in cash for the OTs.. and not that appreciated... or perhaps thanks for the helping hand when they are taking care of their infants... when their motherly duties for the initial three months are fulfilled.. Aidos princess... well.. i would do what i can... before taking flight in less than two months.. :)

two today... :)

Truly.. God is a God of Abundance.... am going for two interviews today... One is what I'd applied (an mnc...) the other.. is kinda sUrprise... it's also an established brandname here in S'pore... Actually i preferred the former one... bUt still gO for both ba... :)

58 days to go...

by faith.. this shall be so...

life is an irony... yet it's the ironical things that adds sparks and FIRE and rain which made life less mudane...

do you understand? Perhaps no one.... or there is?

your negligence my mistake

missy sk.. U didn't tell me what to do... YET you claimed you have... sometimes i wonder why am i getting the *** for things that you omitted to do... Perhaps you always think you are correct... Anyway... I won't be seeing you for long.. by faith.. another 59 days...

excited...

gonna be involved in the easter production again...  went for audition on Sunday after singing for Chinese Church.. Didn't even know that audition was required this time round... well well... it went alright... (kinda fun to be involved in big scale production... ) but would be super bUsy until mid April ba... (and not to mention work wise cuz it's the quarter end again... ) nah won't use this as the excuse to... haha

and.. will be heading for an interview later... however still don't know if it will work out cuz am a newbie @ this...and am actually more inclined to the two that i send my on line application last week... :) See how God lead my steps ba.. since I've taken the 1st step.. :)

wonder if registration has closed yet?

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I think I can stay up all night listening to the 80s & 90s tUnes... totally unconstructive... well.. cuz these are the tunes i grew up listening... (which is an irony cuz i "sprout" mandarin more fluently.. yet listen to music not belt out in this language...)

P.s it's a pain filling up ONLINE forms...

p.s why does people think that I'm a student still? jimmy was surprised when i told her i'm working.. and MORE surprisd when i told her I'm doing accounting... ahha.. cuz I don't dress like one (that I agree... or perhaps.. the accounting thingy is just this phase of my life...) hmmm.. can i pass and fake into emerge this year? ahha... :)

in midst of day dreaming?

is this yet another case of coincidence or a test of the capacity of emotional capacity... ?

ANd yes, having a dream out of the blue last fri and reliving the deja vu feeling the next day AIN't helping (cuz the unexpected happen)... And pure coincidence placed me @ close proximity to whom that serve as source of distraction... the fidgeting.. the restlessness.. the "friendly reminder" to wake up when i tried to snuff out a yawn (though i think it serves to remind not me but the reminder-er to be alert..)

perhaps it's all too late now... wellwell... whatever.... it's still not done deal yet on that side.. SO..

i ask the specific... sO.... waiting...

love the playlist on class 95 during this hour of the day... yet.. this can be rather unhealthy feed to a imaginative mind...

I gotta sleep ... it's 20 minutes past 4 in the morning... And I gotta be out of house in less than 4 hours... (well.. cuz I couldn't resist popping the new tvb drama serial - under the canopy of love ( i think that's the english title) into the player... and polished off 8 episodes (in x2 speed @ parts that can be skipped...) or perhaps that prompted this posting....

Stef asked me the question she'd asked me since i wore her mortar board 3 years ago.... I've asked... and now waiting for the Answer...
maybe by tuesday? Or am i just delaying the decision in which i already have the answer?

interesting.... or "interesting"

Haven't been blogging for ages...
Tied up with things.. some important, some mundane.

mind flooded with thoughts... waiting for Him to move to materialise...

Interesting -- a verb i'd been using recently to describe things that doesn't  fit into the meaning of interesting....

Interesting - Person(s)

Person A
Last night, despite being phyiscally & mentally worn out... I get the opportunity to polish up my counseling skills... Well... Without His guidance & wisdom, I won't know what to say to pacify a whining 30 year old..  Yes.. i mean it.. a whining guy is problematic.. Let alone a 30 year old guy... Well, not too bad in the IQ zone but zitch in EQ! Well.. would love to tell A straight that unless he grows up...it's unlikely that his dream girl will come (unless the gal dun mind being his mom..) [Frankly, I forgotten what I'd told him... but apparently should be quite effective since JN & XL said that he stopped his whinning when i talk to him..]
In case you're curious on what resulted in the whinning... well.. to boil it down to one phrase..  low self-esteem... & unchanged & STUBBORN mindset (man.. how i hope dynamo can WASH the OLD stains away!)


Person B
Well.. another 30++ year old creating "joy" & "spirit of long suffering" in me.. Typically, if you wanted something badly, you will take initiative to ask right? well.. let's just say A just conveniently delegated the onus on moi... when yours truly had informed her that the prac is ON except i don't know the timing yet.. which i would let her know after service... well..she was late hence no oppty to inform her on the timing... BUT then again.. does it take much effort for her to ask me instead of me going to her and feeding her with the information... Wa...

------- happy events ----------
kinda surprised that shuan called.. well... felt kinda flattered that despite of the sudden exit, i will be going down for a chat next week for possible career there.. (NAH.. not as an fa) well.. that made me recalled the prayer i made.... the registration ain't close yet... well... well.... we shall see...  * kinda of a parable here right?*

and i got a call from lingying this mOrning.. well.. perhaps.. another interview? hmmm

Still waiting from that Organisation to call leh... well.. gotta wait for a couple of weeks more ba...

And i think i'll be busier soon... gonna have the chance to help my choir helper in the admin stuff cuz she's busy with her exam this couple of months..

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Pursuit of happyness is a great show! Caught it after the sumptious buffet brekkie @ Marriot On mOnday with emmy & kc.. ahah..  some of the dialogue set me thinking and ya.. God's common grace at wOrk...

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...untitled... again?

No title, cuz can't think of any...

yup, haven't blogged for quite sometime... haven't been able to condense the mix of emotions and feeling in this past weeks... or should i say weeks since....

time to release, time to unlease..
time to surface not to hide..
time to embrace, not to run....
time to face, not taking flight...

seemed like ramble of thoughts...

Length of time spent does not necessarily determine the depth of love...

Was kinda caught by surprise when kelly asked if she could pray for me... Indeed, it's not by might, not by man.. but by the Spirit... cuz despite not knowing what's going on in my life... she just got back from Australia... her prayers spoke directly to my situations... kelly, thanks dear for ministering to me twice... and really... thanks for your love and encouragement... and yup.. the words you spoke may not make sense to you but certainly light up the path i oughta take....
love you gal...
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revelation: i can actually sing sop! decied to face up to reality and "calling". Thank God I still can sight sing...
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my peeves : smells... two types of smells that set me running in opposite direction: ordour from cigarette & ordour from body... both are consequences of mistreating your body - cigarattee -silent killer.. (why subject your body to premature death... ); proper hygiene will not lead to BO evolving... since the days of Adam, there are body frangrance enhancer, i.e. deodorant, perfume. Having a super sensitive nose meant that sense of smell is indeed IMPORTANT....

o... on my way home... saw a trainee nurse - in uniform still... puffing away hurriedly once she exited from the mrt station! Nurse smoking in uniform!! man!!

caught episode 15 of hanakimi on youtube... ending is not exactly what i envisioned.. but still a happy ending...

And the time is 345.. @ times i wished my life is simpler and no frills... YET... that will be boring... there's more to the eye than what you perceived... I thank God for the spiritual giants He has planted ard me... :)

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when you're @ the bottom of the pit... there's only one way to go... Up!