DUST..

my greatest enemy.. THE recent round of spring cleaning for CNY.. and cleaning room for my new bed yesterday ( yeah.. the lovely daybed from ikea.. ) had helped to puff up my nose to size of jacky chan... and not to mention the "lovely" bumps on my face/ forehead/ chin as well as my puffy eyes...

hmm... hence.. have to make a trip to the doc & rest.. (cuz without the help of the osim u-zap heating mechanism... i don't have a hot waterbottle.. the pain in my stomach is a sure killer that deprived my beauty sleep last night.. )

caught sesame street after my trip from doc.. Elmo is sure positive red furry red monster... the mascot for positiveness.. haha.. :) I like red.. :)

feeling better now... and so... going to the gala premier for rain's new movie... tonight (courtesy of my brother)... :)

and later when i'm back frm the movie.. to try to reconcile the work that I brought back over weekend... but no time to look@ it.

???

A question posed to princess yesterday....
Q: Are you ready to come back on board again?
A (actual): ???? [silence]
A (voice from somewhere): Yup, BUT....

the "but" that makes us think and rethink a decision... Yet, where did the "but" came from? The limiting voice doesn't come from our Creator..

Knowledge puffs up... how true... Sometimes I wonder why the "technically-speaking" more knowledgeable around simply don't get it? Too much knowledge? Or heart is hard of hearing? Why do some simply set up so many layers of filering mechanism?

For the princess... the prick of historical events/memories had resulted her retreat back to her comfortable palace... doing things that she like... yet without the same level of passion... Passion... Needs to rekindle the passion once again for the things that her Father has intended for her to do.. passion in general.. Not to mention that the 9-6 ultisation of her current time is simply degenerating the cells within her system @ a rapid speed cuz simply it's not the area of expertise... Wake UP... It's time to go thrU instead of roundabout and going back to square ONE.

seems like a parable....

...

tired of days of being "second-class" citizen...
time to seek and find

for granted.......

Why some can get away with less while one end up with more.. the idle gets idler and the willing be loaded? Infuriating? maybe... what can one do... maybe it's time........

SOP?

Not.. not standard operating procedures.. but short for Soprano...

taken my vocal range test two weeks ago... WAs "diagnosed" as an Alto with highest key High B (ha.. not that difficult to reach actually and ya.. comfortable to realise that hey.. i'm stll in alto.. and yes.. with all my kakis still.. )

however, just had this feeling that this was not the highest i could reach.. and frankly.. after singing comfortably at the lower range since sec 1.. (yeah.. was an alto in the dhs choir.. one of handful of the whole choir..) i have sorted "forgotten" how to project @ the higher range... haha.. so staying at alto is great news for me, but on the other hand.. felt that i could push for more.. (plus i'd just recover from flu then.. and haha nervous cuz of the pple ard)

hence, did a retest.. and hey pesto, have "upgraded" to S/A (the A was added after I informed i was singing alto all this while..) and haha.. i could squeak up to HH C.. haha.. Up another octave and a bit more.. ?

In short.. : I knew what I could do.. just that whether I wanted to.. and whether I've overcome the inertia and yes.. the fear...

yeah... perfect Love cast out ALL fears.. which means.. yes..I'm still WIP.. and refilling the near empty love tank... (which is why I kept posting the lunch appt that this person has been asking since... jan. cuz i know it would drain more out of me... and ya.. I'm not comfortable cuz wanna avoid any misunderstanding... n yes.. am busy.. (the phase "no matter how busy you are. you will still have to eat.. doesn't work on me cuz.. I can don't eat.. ) let me sort the "A" first (see previous post) then... anyway
NOTHINg will spark off CUZ.. no interest.... oops.!

near to 3am... am going koonz, and seeking my Source...

uPdates... Or.. so it shall be titled..

haven't been updating this blog.. or rather... haven't been online.. dun want to... or dun feel like it.. or simply.. can't bring myself to do so...

smile... a smile is a great concealer.. 1st.. people would take a smiling face, jokes a cracking... AS.. doing well... had one of the darkest thursday last week.. yet.. that SMILe.. just concealed it all.. one even commented that countenace is looking better? tsk tsk... maybe it is a tao sa pao? [lame/cold joke]...

am i "short-sighted"? maybe... recently.. i realised i read only part of a sentence (and assumed that's all to it.. or maybe i only wanted to read that much...) what did i missed? the IMPORTANT words that follows "nor have entered the heart of man..." (if U know which verse i'm talkg abt.. haha.. tag me.. I will give U a small treat... ) hmmm... yes.. partly.. things are not happening cuz.. truly, the words.. the prohesy.. the promises HAVE not taken root in me.. or rather NOT completely yet...

or rather, things are happening at a rate that makes the organ that pumps the blood... bitter... yes .. at rate beyond princess' understanding... taking flight OR hide is MUCH easier than fight... she ought not feel this way.. she ought to have the princess' kinda lifestyle... but...

X is not happening cuz Y is not.. Y is not cuz Z ain't working fine.. as Z's functionality is dependent on A.

What am i blabberin on? tsk tsk.... need to find back how to express A again... when A's resolved... things will flow ...

surprRise..

exciting.. am gonna help my friend's bf tO prOpose to her after service.. hope she will finally say yes! :)

fortunately went for my dental appt, nearly wanna give it a miss cuz dun feel like spending additional $.. but felt that I should go... Thank God I need the voice.. else the slight decay in between my two upper right molars wOuld grOw!....

time to prepare and go for prac... felt a wee-bit of rebellious.. cUz... tsk tsk tsk...

addictive...

On leave today cuz back molar is experiencing streaks of pain.. yet.. the dentist is fully booked.. hence.. gotta wait till tmw.. so.. had has been watching 4 full episodes of The Hospital on youtube back to back... tsk tsk... ;o