black & white

very contrasting colors.. yet it's the colors that's the safest to be dressed in. Safest.. yay, the comforting word..

until i spoke to stelle earlier.. cuz I was bewildered at the reaction of one gal.. *she actually said that cuz stelle is having exams rite now, can wait till she's back from exam than follow-up with the irregulars * FAINT* * heart pain* T_T" so tried to "educate" her patiently... hmmm spirit of nua-ness be cast out in Jesus' name... Sigh.. frustration rite?

Frankly... I don't understand why some has the concept that cuz you belong to team A, you are SOLELY responsible for team A responsibilities .. and team B will take care of their own tasks as well.. then team C and team D will do their own fair share.. Shouldn't teams A, B, C& D work together and help one another out to harness greater synergy? Yet some of the members adopt the attitude of this chinese saying "自扫门前雪" - which is totally out of point. . don't tell me mt28:18-20 applies only to A and not members in B-D? T_T" *Faint..*

Felt led to accompany stelle home from the station.. and yakked more .. not fair weather-talk.. but guess cuz same flow and same sentiments.. and we can really yak on and on... I guessed she's the only one in the cg that could really understand how i'm feeling in this period..
and both of us (okie, at least me) have this holy anger/ dissatisfaction within... YET not being met.. REally can't stand this anymore.. i can't stand the laidbackness anymore.. (the teams and oso me.. ) that ya.. shall do something..

if status quo by june.. seriously considering steering another direction... where's the support? the supposed*support* doesn't seem to have TIME ... or perhaps put too much faith that princess can go on autopilot mode?

to lighten the emo emo mood.. skimmed thru' imeem for the r&r songs.. picked a couple as the current backgrd music... Like the cannon in D (nope, not wedding..) and found a jazz version of Wonderwall.. :)

need to work later... so ya.. c'est tout!