Time & Season

I almost did not make it in time for service today. Kinda held up at work today. Was supposed to leave @ 5 (it's my early day today..) however, managed to leave only at 6. The cab queue @ novena sq was long.. too long... hence called a cab.. not realising that :

1. the booking fee is now $4 during peak period; (uncle earned $5 for picking me up $4 + $1 peak charges)
2. massive jam at the PIE

Thank goodness that I was prompted to msg eugene.. else i won't know that it's formal formal today.. cuz was feeling kinda weird as usually

conference = formal dress code..

Thank God that I've sufficient cash to make a turn from expo (I was nearing expo when I realised the inappropriate attire i was in..) .. back home.. dashed up.. dragged out the shirt & pants.. and zipped down again.. and praise the Lord! I made it to expo @ 7pm! though the cab bill is rather :( not that i regret taking the cab, else I would not be singing.. cuz it would be too late to realise that I'm in the wrong attire.. and insufficient time to head home and change.. [Everything has its purpose!]

Frankly.. I was really expecting something to happen today.. stomach felt like butterflies fluttering since afternoon.. (the pre-exam feeling.. ) and indeed it was really a prophetic word.. And yes, it as if GOd calling at me 'do you get it or not...?'

the 'how', 'when' doesn't matter.. as long as i know 'what' & 'why'... and just march on.. All I need is the shield of faith.. Shield only protects the front.. hence, I can't look back now...

After service, my bro popped me this question.. whether I'm facing some difficult times @ work.. Bro, perhaps it's not just work.. it's me.. but the vision that you have while praying for me.. is really piecing up the puzzle. Steel... indeed, that would reinforce the weak areas.. strengthen the foundation.. and need not fear that it does not have adequate support! work? not really.. it's the other realm..and ...

For everything, there is a season...

I want to be @ the perfect place, with the perfect person, perhap work...@ the perfect time!!

rushed off the changi airport immediately after service.. to send my dearie off.. haha.. not my significant other hald , but my dearie pal.. and talked really long & in a strict with huiling....

tired.. i wanna zzz soon.. byeeeee

the last thing.

I used to have this naive thought that if there's only one last thing i can do/experience before I move on to eternal rest.. it will be that (other factors doesn't matter, just that...) I guess I paint rather well.. in my mind that is.. (origin of this thought.. in the days of uniform ages...when i was still lost...) And my opinion haven't changed, till half an hour ago.

Yes, all it took was just 10 minutes for me to reverse that last wish or rather.. not a complete reversal.. but modified... the other factors do matters.. really it does... else the original intent would be abused! Cuz it's special!!! And nope.. that will definitely not be my last wish ..

clueless on what's that? don't bother :)

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What you imagine, the thoughts conceived in your mind may seems to be the perfect answer at that time.. BUT if that thought is not conceived with the guidance of your Maker.. you are heading for trouble.. (may not be now.. but it's just a matter of time..).

Praise the Lord for His mercy and grace!
Thank God for His Holy Spirit to guide & correct us! It's good to walk in the light!!

Record

Record time - from cityhall mrt station to suntec tower 3, inclusive of 5min waiting time, back to cityhall mrt. Approx 20min. Was walking too fast that i felt the lactic acid builtding up at both calf muscles. Was running a last min errand.. Thank God i was wearing my ballerina pumps..

Ha, thought that i won't be exercisg today but turned out an unintended workout 4 my calf muscles! (:
on my way to dinner with parents and i'm late! which explain why brisk walkg was necessary earlier on!

break..

Have you come to a point that you just wanna let out a scream in midst of working... that actually came across my mind a couple of times (ok.. more than that...) since last week..

Imagine the work keeping piling.. and yet there is not just one portfolio that I need to take care of..multi-tasking was what i'd been doing... difficult to focus... not just results, need to take care of the "human factor" ~ handling the different personality in my team...and expectations has risen much higher.. would love to OT last Wed/ thurs & Fri to clear the mountain..bUt couldn't cuz BS's on wed.. cg on thurs.. and fri.. i need to spend time with mom (else ... would lead to unnecessary po). Gee.. and i thought I thrive under stress.. (well.. i relish the time spent at mugging for tests and exams during my schooldays... really i do... at least once the exams are over.. you're guaranteed of holidays..)

was really envious when i saw the 'notification' email that one of my teammate sent informing that he's taking VL the next day (ya, applied & informed via email the very last min.. ) I would love to take a day leave too.. but I can't.. cUz I can't afford to...

Come to think of it.. i haven't take block leave for a long time.. (my VLs have been accumulating... from last year..) really felt like taking one week leave to hibernate... i guess the deprivation of beauty sleep is taking effect... however.. my pileup (accumulation of work.. turning backlog to my standard & they can't afford to accumulate cuz there's deadline..).. the genuine backlog cases that I'm supposed to help to look at.. and the monitoring & coaching that i'm expected to give ~ to my officers that are all more senior than me.. in terms of experience and age..as the chinese saying goes.. they have eaten more grains of salt than the grains of rice that I've eaten in my lifetime...) and room for error (& tolerance rate) had greatly reduced...

Was reminded of what my dear Creator has spoken to me thru' my cgl during the ministry time during cg last week... that gave me strength & assurance to face what was in my path.. Indeed I may not seemed like the perfect choice to be doing what I'm doing (in my personal opinion.. maybe to some others as well.. ).. but that would be looking thru' my tainted glasses of.. not God's. Indeed I'm overwhelmed by what was required of me (both workwise & spiritually..), but the breakthrough is within my reach.. the decision lies with me.. if i want it.. I can have it...

during bs with xinlian this evening.. out of a sudden this phrase flash across my mind.."In my weakness, He's made perfect." Indeed, He can turn the ordinary into the extraordinary..

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'And He said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness." Therefore most gladly I will rather boast in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.' ~ 2 Cor 12:9

happie valentine's day...

spent an unique v-day today... with the first love of my life.. in church.. heehee.. obv i'm not talking abt the special someone that have yet appeared.. but my Lord and Saviour! well.. seek first the Kingdom of God and all things shall be added unto you!

miss the jurong west premise.. like what ming told me when i saw her in auditorium.. "it feels like home.." that was my initial feeling when i stepped foot into level one toilet.. heaven!! I miss the make-up area... the mirror.. everything.. well.. looking forward to our new building!!

saw estella after pm.. hmm... didn't know that she's actually reading this.. hmm she commented that this is explicit.. actually not really.. but i guess she can decipher some of the parables? especially fruity tales? heehee.. but i guess that fruit platter is more of the past stuff... maybe now.. i should start a colour parable.. ops.... :) lalala

popped down to lein's birthday party with max after prayer meeting.. took a cab down.. haha.. both of us were like making "special appearance" Cuz it was LATE when we got to aloha chalet.. ~ close to 11pm~.. hope lein like her gift.. and thanks to her parents.. we escaped the need to trek out to the main road.. happy birthday to u lein!!

it's late.. time to pray and zzzz

Corrinne May in Concert!

Its simply awesome.. despite having a headache that evolved into a migraine ,(the spotlight shining @ the music stand was a tad too bright ~ that attributed to my headache worsening..) really enjoyed the 2 hour long concert! simply love her music.. Some of the new composition that Corrinne sang really touched my heart! looking forward to her third album! And truly, she's different from most artistes.. no airs! Saw eric and grace at the lobby of ucc.. was kinda surprised to bump into someone familiar! :)

Thanks rach.. for making a speedy exit home after the concert ... cuz by the time i exited from ucc .. i was ready to reach out for a bag.. cuz system staging some kind of rebel.. ( i guess it ain't too pleased with two meals of fastfood back to back..or was it the migraine?).. thought i would never throw up in public.. but yikes.. did that in the cab when i was nearing home.. (mr cabby from citicab.. hope i didn't dirtied ur cab..) .. i guess mc'nuggets would be a huge turn off for the next month to come..

speaking of which.. the plastic bag that came in handy was actually the bag that i placed the necklace to be returned to rach.. cuz orginally, i'd placed that in a rather small paper package.. somehow, i'd decided to transfer that into the clear attributes plastic bag.. (despite being kinda over-sized for the necklace..) I could have imagine what a sight i would be if i did not have the plastic bag with me... and if i had not heed the Still Small Voice..

Took today off cuz I was still kinda groggy when i woke up.. (Yup.. I did pop a panadol and prayed b4 resting.. i guessed i'd been depriving the body of rest..) met up with rach in the afternoon... :) gal..i will definitely miss ya when u leave next week.. these two days were greAt.. the concert.. the window shopping.. the crapping... the conversations... & you will get what i promised you this sat... (remember brown & pink?)

hmm changed the backgrd music to be in tune with today... :) it's Corrinne May's "same side of the moon"..

Pink..

I was pretty surprised to see my member carrying this brown OP sling bag with pink trimmings ard the border and red words.. (actually... i kinda like the bag too.. but won't be caught carrying the same bag as him!) It's kinda more femine than masculine.. Ha.. something new :: pink accessories not just for gals!!

more than what you can see

Time really flew.... in the blink of an eye.. one week just flew passed.. I guessed the tired/fatigue look showed? cuz the first thing that bro wai saw me last night was.. " how come you looked so tired..?" hmm... learning not to rely on my own strength... and yes.. to streamline the unnecessary...

God is real gracious.. see beyond what my eyes can see.. see thru' Jesus eyes... what I need to step into.. like what michelle says.. every mountain shall be a plain!

had been attending double services for past couple of weeks.. flesh complained a great deal.. but God is good.. Felt really minstered after both services.. Not just a feel good session.. but it's more than that... the next step... is just up to me.. :)

yay.. gonna catch Corrinne May's concert later this evening at UCC.. haven't been to a real concert for long.. Didn't know that the concert was a sold-out till I read the papers yesterday.. Thank U rach 4 booking the tix way in advance... See ya later... :)

finally

after many months.. I finally cleared my mailboxes.. (can you imagine 580+ unread mails.. in just ONE of the yahoo account! ...and some of these were dated 2003!!) spent 2 hours to clear them all.. :) finally ceased procrastinating in clearing the unwanted virtual clutter...

indeed.. it seems like another spring-cleaning is coming up... spring cleaning in not just the natural... well, the redundant, irrelvant, progress-hindering stuff should be eliminated to make way for the new... :)

the greatest love of all

.. God's unconditional love.. the agape love..

knowing it as a piece of info and experiencing it are two entire different matters..

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one thing i ask.. that i may dwell in Your house forever....

Huios

This word has been ringing in my mind since last night after bs..(it's really a different bs.. and not just purely head knowledge as what bro kim hock has promised us.. really looking forward to the remaining 9 lessons! ] and all the while during cellgroup tonight... and yes.. what does it takes? Certainly not convenience, not with ease, nothing routine.. It's time.. :) not just be a child.. but a matured one.. :)

Was kinda taken aback today in eugene's room during the prac prior to cg(was there helping terence to pitch the note for the worship song..) when bro ryan asked me to be prepared and improve in my singing cuz he's gonna let a couple of us to lead pnw for him soon.... Surprised? yupyup.. well, the sole experience i'd previously ain't exactly very glorious.... the challenge is actually not singing.. but rather... to be able to lead the cg (the decibel level gotta be upped..) & into His presence.. And truly.. it's a great previlege.. and it was like my prayer answered when bro ryan posed me that question this evening cuz.. it was exactly what I prayed a couple of weeks back when i prayed to do something new/different for the cg.. (and yes.. if I can't even lead a cg in pnw.. how to be a bv? :) And one thing is for sure.. I better work on the 6-stringed instrument too.. :) [the unaccomplished 2005 smarter goal..]

almost done with the smarter card.. :)

changed the music.. it's No greater love by Tiffany Laing.. realised that CD baby does have gospel music too.. kinda like this song.. wonder if the CD can be found in Singapore? :) yay! delirious? is coming this weekend!!:)

back..

haven't blog for a long while.. or rather.. i haven't been online since last week.. cuz was having this 38.4 to 38.9 (the highest record so far) temperature last thurs/fri.. (yes.. what a "great way" spend my cNy!) (though the most memorable so far was 2004.. was on 2 packs of drip at the A&E ward at CGH on 1st day of lunar new year cuz of the bouts of vomitting overnight (v.bad case of food poisioning...highly dehydrated!)

better health this year! :) amen!

verdict of man..

People in the world look for this ~ facts~ to substantiate their views. (even though you are not expected to keep track of what you are doing, once you started doing it, they will expect you to continue doing it.) And yes, once you have made an error, it doesn't matter what you have done RIGHT after that. All that counts is that you have erred once.. hence forth, despite of what you have done subsequent to the error, the fact stands that you have made the error. And yes, despite that the error was made quite sometime back, when the similar circumstance reocurred, and in the absence of supporting evidence, you are guilty as charged. Reason being, you have made the same mistake before. Yes, man would jump into conclusion that you are it, if you don't have proof that you are innocent.